Jenny Bean :D

'Friends are like roses. You have to look out for the pricks.'

2010-09-08T02:05:00.000-07:00

I think that this summer, I have finally realised who my real friends are.

My real friends aren't people who ignore me, or criticise me, or impose their opinions on me, who go on holiday and brag about all the guys they have slept with, whilst being heavily toxicated on drugs and boooze.

My real friends never forget me. I am always on their mind. They care about me and want to make sure that I am OK. There are people who I met at college and I got on so well with them, I naively assumed that we would be best friends forever. But they ignore my emails, texts, calls.

Call me needy, but I am never very happy in my own company. Sure, I like reading occasionally and watching ugly betty, but I really really need friends.

Friends are those to always stick with you, even when you have a lovely boyfriend who requires A LOT of attention :) Chicks before dicks, eh?

Friends make you feel good about yourself. Compliment y0u. Are interested in what you have been doing.

This summer, there has been a few friends who are always up for a chat. They ring me just to say that they saw me walking down the road, or they saw me in ASDA. Then there has been friends who I have not heard from at all. I feel like some of my college friends were now only friends with me so they had someone to talk to in English. So they didnt look like a loner. I had a lot of that with someone at Thornden, and I had hoped that people would stop doing that to me. I want to hang out with people because I enjoy their company and they are fun to be around, not just to make up numbers and make you seem more popular.

In the last few years I have drifted apart from some people, and grown closer to others. I always want to look back on the good times in my friendships, and cling onto all my friends, even if they do not seem interested in me anymore. People grow up, people change, friendship groups change and develop. But I feel like I have not changed. I wear less make-up, and I sleep a lot more, but apart from that, I feel like I am the same as I was in year 9.

I think this is why I am quite excited about uni. Obviously it will be hard moving away from people that I love, but there are people who I cannot let go of and some that I cannot wait to let go of. So being physically away from them will show me how much I actually need (or do not need them) I need to meet new people, to find people who have things in common with me and make me feel good about myself, rather than degrading my opinions and making me feel crap.

I have had some fun times this summer with my friends now. Not EVERYONE has abandoned me. I have had fun going to Bedford, going to the beach, going to various parties and alcohol-fuelled gatherings. Maybe I am just greedy. Maybe I just hate being ignored. I need to be the centre of attention. Maybe.

I may convert this blog into a uni diary thing, rather than a place where I just RANT :P

Goodbye Matalan.

2010-09-07T15:50:00.000-07:00

I have my last shift at Matalan on saturday.

I am pretty excited, because I CANNOT STAND one of the managers... everytime she speaks, i want to kill her.

But I feel quite sad too, because I love everyone that I work with!!

I felt sad last weekend, discovering that I have already been replaced. By someone who is rubbish at doing refunds and tannoy announcements, but is really nice (she offered to stay an extra 30mins after her shift so I could have my lunchbreak covered!!) and really pretty. Dang nabbit.

But hopefully I will be able to work at Matalan again during christmas and holidays :) because although work is BORING, it's money. I love everyone who works there, and working keeps me away from shopping (and spending money I do not have!!)

:) Its lame that all I can think about talking about is WORK. Matalan is my life 8)

Losing my bedford virginty

2010-09-04T06:37:00.000-07:00

Had a fab time at Bedford on tues :)

Went with mia, for her 18th :)

4 of us met up at hers, played ring of fire with her brother and 2 of his matesss.

And because I am lightweight, I managed to just buy one drink in town and still feel merry :D

a random black guy bought me a vodka and lime, and my mum later said that it was probably because i was curvy, and he was african. and africans are apparently intimidated by skinny girls?!?!?!

and curviness is a sign of wealth, whereas skinny is a sign of famine.

basically, he bought me a drink because i was FAT. nice.

had fun in 90s, aura and tokyo.

i had a fab time, but in a sad way, the highlight of my night was in nicks car on the way back from town. he complimented me on my singing on 'im yours' by jason mraz.

in year 10 one of my friends criticised my singing and since then i have refused to sing in front of people. so when he said i had a good singing voice (even though i was drunkkkk) it made me feel warm and fuzzy inside :)

Gweenbelt :)

2010-09-01T01:17:00.000-07:00

How can I describe four days of fun in one blog? I will just write short phrases (I have just got back from Bedford and have no energy to write detailed diary entry :S OR YOU COULD CHECK OUT MY PICS ON FACEBOOK, they'll be up soon :)

Blue wristband (means I am an adult and can make use of the BEER TENT!!)

First time buying diary and programme, rather than illegally downloading it (which Jesus does not like me doing..)

Puddle in tent

Zic Zazou (awesome percussion group, using scrap like hoses and pipes and pots etc)

Last orders (fell asleep, a certain Katie posts a pic of me on facebook. HAHA.)

7:30am Saturday - I want to wake up and see Cloudy with a chance of meatballs on the big screen.

8:30am - Oh. Its started. I will just blockbuster it.

Lovers Electric

Foy Vance

Momeraths cancel (me no likey)

I want to watch 'UP' AT 19:30. But whats the point of spending all of Greenbelt watching movies?

Beer and hymns! (but no beer. Although I am 18, its EXPENSIVE and I am happy to stick to my pepsi.)

Interesting talk about how we basically love Jade Goody. (?)

Queue for Milton Jones, but do not get in.

Curse the world.

Queue for Mock the Weekend, DO get in, but its a bit rubbish and nothing-y.

Beverley Knight. Establish tinyyyy girl crush :)

Queue for silent disco too long. I have queues.

Sounds of Salvation

Sing-a-long-a-Grease (basically they show us a few dances, then show the film with the song lyrics as subtitles and we lindy hop away!)

Jars of Clay

King Blues <3

Simon from Blue Peter presenting :)

So yeah. Thats Greenbelt for 'ya.

I do not think that the line up was as good as it normally was... but I have discovered some fab bands, realised that I know A LOT of Bev. Knights songs, and fallen in love with Itch from King Blues, because of a nice poem he wrote :)

oooh, and in the crowd of Bev. Knight, a romance blossomed, and it was entertaining to watch. Basically, a boy held up his iPhone to Bev.Knight with an LED message saying I LOVE YOU and someone in the crowd turned round and held up I LOVE YOU TOO and then they exchanged mobile numbers via this LED thing and arranged a date in the underground :) How sweet! I am convinced that he was about 18 and she was about 14 though :/

5 bottles of Shampoo.

2010-08-31T05:04:00.000-07:00

Hello bloggers and bloggettes!

I am sorry that I have not blogged for 2.5months. I have no excuse. Sure, I have been working, driving, volunteering at a charity shop, birthday plans, exam results, saving the world. But I have completely neglected my blog.

BUT. Good news. Here is a blog.

I have just returned from Greenbelt (which was amazing, I will blog about it when I have more time) but for now I would like to leave you with a King Blues song/poem thing.

It made me fall in love with Itch. (the lead singer)

It is called Five Bottles of Shampoo :

She pushed in before me, in the supermarket queue
pretended not to see me, in that way women do.
She put on the counter some bread and milk too
and then she pulled out five different bottles of shampoo.
And I thought to myself, 'I will never understand women.'
And I hear some of you saying, 'Yeah but all men are all the same!
They all think they're so cool and are ruled by their dicks.'
That might be true of me, but it ain't true of all of us
so don't point that finger so quick.

I do see some of the blokes though,
In the clubs, pinching girls arses, trying to be intimidating
Making obscene passes. Man, she's a goddess, you can tell by the way she dances.
But you call her a slag when she don't accept your advances.
You just show you got no respect for yourself, show you ain't got the balls
to just talk to a girl.
So when she chats to me, you spit at her and shout 'Whore!'
Well it is written, in the art of war, to fight only the battles you can win.
But I will defend your honour til they kick my face in.
If you have to scrape me broken boned, bruised, bloodied, and battered up off the floor..
Well FUCK IT. Integrity is what black eyes were invented for.

So down with the dick-tatorship, that is so cock-sure,
they use rape as a weapon of war.
FUCK the man who thinks it's ok to give his wife a punch,
FUCK the judge who says it weren't rape cause she was drunk.
And if you're pro-life. I mean if you're PRO .. LIFE,
then become a doctor, or foster a kid.
Make it possible for people who are alive to live.
But don't you dare tell women what they can and can't do,
when it was a woman that gave life to you.

Yes, I'm a man, a fairly stereotypical one,
but I ain't afraid to say I think all women are beautiful and strong.
Too fat, too thin, that's just media spin,
you look best when you're comfortable in your own skin.
So I'm sorry, if we've made you feel undue,
the truth be known...I'm in awe of you.
You're a giver of life and warrior too.
So do you really need FIVE bottles of shampoo?

WOMEN ARE AWESOME :D

Chat Roulette Virginity.

2010-06-14T09:46:00.000-07:00

General Studies exam today was POOOR.

Really hated both questions.

Media exam tomorrow which I am freaking out about..

to calm my nerves I thought I would lose my chatroulette virginity.

What an interesting experience.

Lets just say I have seen more penises than I ever want to see in my life, and even a couple having sex on a computer chair.

NICE.

But as long as the conversation kept innocent, it was actually quite fun!

As soon as they asked me what underwear I was wearing, I knew that this was going to be weird.

But I had a nice conversation about blink 182 and linkin park who looked A LOT like christian bale (as in, Batman?) and a little like the drummer from Enter Shikari too... which was weird yet awesomeee!!

We talked about America a little, apparently he was born in Germany but moved to America when he was 16. Interesting guy. Nice interesting non-pervert guy.

Then I pressed refresh instead of enter and after 5mins of flicking through more penises and sex, I couldnt find him.

I could never date someone over the internet. I dont like technology and tech doesnt like me. :D

Good luck with the rest of your exams, guys!

Football.

2010-06-12T10:09:00.000-07:00

I am currently hiding in my room.

My dads has some friends round to watch the game. I hope you realise how RARELY my parents socialise, but this is just ANNOYING.

Everyone in Matalan was going football-crazy, and we had a competition to sell as many England sports bottles as possible..

I only sold one.

But I am hearing the national anthem and CANNOT REVISE.

Turn down the TV!

I think that its nice, how the World Cup unites people and makes people bring out cheesy car flags (um... like us!)

OH GOD. DADS PLAYING HIS FOOTBALL SOUNDTRACK.

'Sven, Sven Sven Goran Erikkson.. he's a lovely geezer, but don't forget hes from Sweden'

SHOOT ME NOW.

As I was saying, I like how the football unites people but I think its silly how obessed people get about it..

I am trying to revise Media and uh um.. GENERAL STUDIES.

I need at least a B in General Studies otherwise Sheffield will confine me in a box.

Hahah.

I hope everyone has a fun football-saturated weekenddd :S x x

The excellent adventures of a #1 Bluestar explorer.

2010-06-07T10:41:00.000-07:00

I HAVE LOTS OF ADVENTURES ON MY LOVELY BUS TO COLLEGE.

Getting the bus to college has always been a bit boring, because most of my friends DRIVE/ cycle/ flyyy to college now and now Bluestar has been invaded by Lower Sixths. YAY.

A lot of my buddies get the Stagecoach bus and I just imagine them spending their daily journeys having discos and doing karaoke and eating candy floss and doing the Macarena while I am sat grumpy and tired while Lower Sixths scream and giggle about who they had sex in an alleyway with. YAY.

Luckily I won't have to worry about it TOOO much, now we are on study leave :) and hopefully if I get 3BBBs Il be off to Sheffield to take the TRAM to uni!

TRAM!

I think thats the sole reason why I picked sheffield. My mum keeps saying that its just a bus on a wire, which basically kills my excitement :/

Anyways, yesterday on my way to Ashurst for some revision-related larks, I had several bus-related adventures.

First up, I got chatting to this old woman at Somerfield while we were waiting for the bus, and I got confused because she kept calling me 'Sophie' so I think she may have thought I was someone that I wasn't... or she had escaped from Challoner House and was just CRAZY.

But she was so sweet and asking me about college and uni and my dog (I do not have a dog but I just went along with it and said that it died.) and I was tempted to propose to her. She was like 'See you on Boxing Day!' WTF!! Bless her :)

Then it turns out that the bus driver is the love child of Pocahontas and John Smith. Its so hard to describe him! He had long hair and dark eyes and I think he was mixed race and it was SO funny because some people who came on the bus he'd do a really posh accent and others he'd do like a weird South American accent. I cannot describe it but it made me laugh so much! It was exciting for me because I get the bus to college/town/work (when I worked in Winch) so much that I was almost on first-name terms with the bus driver so I always find it exciting discovering a new bus driver. HOW EXCITING IS MY LIFE!:O

On the bus home I also saw someone on the bus who looked SO much like David Cameron, but he was chubbier and was eating a happy meal :P Perhaps it wasn't him...

Also, I almost had a nervous breakdown because I tried ringing up my O2 top up to see how many free texts I had and it was like 'You have nine, THREE texts to use up by 11:59 tonight.'

Why would they get the number 9 and the number 3 confused? Can you not do maths? Do you have number-Tourettes when you just shout out random numbers? Jeez! SPEAK CLEARER, FOOOL!

It wasn't until I rang them about 12 times that I realised that they were actually saying 'You have nine FREE texts.' FML

Ooohh, the dress I ordered for the summer ball has arrived ^__^ I really like it and am excited about the ball.. now I only need to sort out my hair/make-up/shows/jewellery/bag. Haha.

I don't think I make as much effort with how I look as I used to, which is good in some ways (stops me from missing the bus, less make-up is better for the skin, I can shock everyone at parties with how fashionable and un-hoody-ish I am, ha. ha.) but bad in some ways (i have bad face days, sometimes feel really naked when up against make-up-caked preppies!)

so its nice to go crazy and DRESS UP. YAAAYY!! :D

Moscow State Circus

2010-05-28T12:51:00.001-07:00

So.

College is over. The end of an era.

Ate too much choc and cake on thursday, went to the most POINTLESS sociology lesson ever, and witnessed two guys lying on top of a car outside the Jolly Farmer and getting squished. Well, not quite.

I hope they are not dead though.

Went to Moscow State Circus in Southsea last night (NOT in Swansea.. which is where I told Adam it was!!)

I wasn't really sure what to expect. My only memories of circuses is one we went to in France yonks ago (and the only thing I remember about it is that I lost one of my beanie babies!!) and the film 'Dumbo.'

I was secretly hoping for some big-eared elephants but I don't think RSPCA would allow that. Animal abuse and all tha'.

But it was actually really good! My dad got free tickets from work, enough so that I could go with both parents and bring Adam and my brother could bring a friend too (I KICKED HIS ASS AT ROCK, PAPER, SCISSORS!! YAYY!) and so even if the show was rubbish, we wouldn't have lost much. Apart from petrol costs. :)

BUT THE SHOW WAS AWESOME.

I don't know any technical circus names, but there was a lot of scary spin-y, high-up, jump-y, dangerous-looking, juggling, knife-throwing, people - catching stuff which is hard to explain if you were not there.

There was one point where this guy was running on this wheel thing which was up VERY high and he kept looking like he was going to fall off. then he started SKIPPING whilst running on this thing. I CANNOT EXPLAIN IT. BUT IT WAS AWESOME.

There was a clown-y person who had a little weird chum and they would fill in with some random stuff (like tight-rope walkinggg, eek!) whilst all the scary technical stuff was set up. I think I have developed a crush on him, in a kind of Adrien-Brody way. nom.

Also, throughout the whole show there was this weird Rasputin narrative which would go ON and ON. Deep, booming, Russian voice rambling about Rasputin when I WANTED PEOPLE TO HURRY UP AND NEARLY-DIE.

So yeah, although I missed out on a Woods rave at Chez Overstall, the circus more than made up for it :) I didn't really think that it would be my sort of thing, but it was really good.

Shame about the annoying people shaking their charity buckets about. And the annoying lighting-up things that every child seemed to have in the audience. haha.

Oooh. I have decided that I want to be a man.

Haha.

The end.

Goodbye.

I won't explain.

I will leave you wondering: 'Why does Jennie want to be a man? I am intrigued. I will ask her next time I see her. For her birthday I will buy her a penis.'

OK.

I will explain.

MEN NEVER HAVE TO EFFING QUEUE TO GO TO THE TOILET.

WHY DO ALL WOMEN SEEM TO NEED THE TOILET AT THE SAME TIME?

WHY CAN MEN POOTLE IN, HAVE A WHIZZ AND THEN STRIDE OUT, WHEREAS WOMEN HAVE TO STAND IN THEIR LINE, WRIGGLING ABOUT, CLENCHING THEIR BUTT MUSCLES.

I am sorry for the crude-ness. But it gets on my nerves. Women are silly.

Why can't women have more toilets provided for them? Men can subtlely wee in a bush, whilst pretending they are enjoying the view!

Anyways. Rant over. LOL.

Good day. Hope everyone has a fun half term :)

I LOVE MY JOB

2010-05-12T14:38:00.000-07:00

Haha,

just got back from an awesome shift at work.

everyone was happy and i was on TILLS which is awesome.

and the shop wasn't too busy so we could mess about lots :)

and we had the nice manager.

but the funn-est thing was hanging around tills (but with no customers)

Me, chris and sam had fun playing with castanets and clip-on hair extensions.

Then we had a funny convo about pouffes (you know, those foot stool things... kinda bean-baggy?)

Chris : I want to buy a pouffe, they are half price.

Jen: IT LOOKS SO COMFY.

Chris: 'Tis! I like it when you sit on them and they are not too sink-y

Sam: But that pouffe looks really HARD.

Chris: I like it HARD.

Jen: ....

Sam: HAHAHAHAHHAHA

Jen: .......... ohhhh.

Chris: There's no point having a squishy one, they are no good.

Then they started making fun of me for being young.

Basically, Matalan can be boring at times but I work with a fabbb bunch of people.

I miss my superdruggies though (except maybe Podge, haha!) :P

but yeah. Wouldnt want to work at Nalatam full-time tbh.

Just finished watching Junior apprentice, glad that Jordan douche has gone.

I gave Nick permission to use the word DOUCHE when referring to Jordan.

I do not normally like that word. But it seemed appropriate.

Life is nice.

Exams are not.

Funny Joke.

2010-05-06T10:50:00.000-07:00

I found this joke in a magazine and it made me laugh :)

Its a little rude though, so watch out!!

A convict breaks into a house to look for money, and inside finds a couple in bed.

He orders the guy out and ties him to a chair.

While tying the wife to the bed, the convict gets on top of her, kisses her neck, and then gets up to go to the bathroom. While he's in there, the husband whispers over to his wife:

'Listen, this guy is an escaped convict. Look at his clothes! He's probably spent a long time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck. If he wants sex, don't resist, don' complain... do whatever he tells you. This guy is obviously very dangerous If he gets angry, he'll kill us both. Be strong honey, I love you.'

His wife responds:

'He wasn't kissing my neck, he was whispering in my ear. He told me he's gay, thinks your cute and asked if we had some Vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom. Be strong honey, I love you too.'

If any of you do not understand that joke (I admit, it took me a few mins to get it!!) then you are very innocent-minded :)

In other news, people are voting today. Not me, I want it to be over. My sociology teacher wants us to stay up for the results. He THEN decided to tell us that the counting may not be finished until 4am. NO THANKS, guv'na!

2010-05-04T09:10:00.001-07:00

P.S I spent 45mins watching this weeks Doctor who.

I want that 45mins BACKKKKKKKK.

The ginger assistant is annoying and something about Matt Smith really bugs me.

GAH.

'I'm going to cast my vote for whoever offers free driving lessons to people whose names begin with 'J' :)

2010-05-04T08:57:00.000-07:00

The election is coming up, and with all the hype about it I feel tired.

I can't even vote yet but I don't think I realised how CRAZY MPs go with campaigns. I think thats because when Brown was first our PM I didn't really care much, as long as he didn't abolish The Simpsons. :D

Everyone's talking about it, and I KNOW that in our democratic society it's important that we know all the facts before we vote. But we need an Obama. If I was going to vote I would have no idea. Should I just follow the crowd and vote for Cleggy, because he is about 10000% more attractive than the others?

I don't know. As an August baby, I am a bit gutted that I cannot vote basically. I have watched 2 of the 3 TV debates and now I was to REP ENGLAND and contribute to the success of one of the leaders. I am rambling. Slow news day, I guess.

On the way to Southampton yesterday, I was on a bus when we went past a man on the side of the road holding up a cardboard sign with 'LONDON' written on it. I have never seen that before, except from homeless people in movies. It made me think about whether I would ever be willing to pick up a hitchhiker, even if I WAS heading to london. If I was in his situation (whatever that situation might be) I would begrudge everyone who drove past unashamedly.

Any good samaritans?

But if I was in the drivers seat (literally) would I pick up a stranger?

He looked foreign, so he was OBVIOUSLY a terrorist/ illegal immigrant/ gypsy/ some one who will kill or eat my children.

There would be some hitchhikers (MOST!) who have good intentions. They want to go to London but can't afford train fare (it IS quite a lot) but would you be willing to spend an hour in the car with someone you didn't know, who maybe doesn't speak your language, even if it WAS for a good deed?

It would be nice to hear what people think, I cannot decide!!

In sociology workshop today my teacher freaked out because he saw a rat near the entrance to Ashurst. It was a BIG rat but I wasn't too grossed out. I have seen RATATOUILLE. All rats are friendly and just want to cook :)

Good times.

2010-05-01T07:31:00.000-07:00

Life is nice.

I have been in a good mood for a while now :)

Like, no stress.

Which is nice :)

Walking to work today I just said 'Morning' to everyone I saw. Which I never normally do.

I feel that because I started my revision quite early on, I don't have so much pressure. Last year I rushed it and got really stressed. This year I am going to less workshops (only SLIGHTLY less) and giving myself time to just chill, and watch Waterloo Road and Glee :)

So I am cool, calm and collected.

Except my bum chum Sarah at work referred to my hairband as 'gay.'

Got an OK-ish weekend planned.

Babysitting tonight, Work tomorrow and then LESBIAN LOVIN' on sunday with Katy and Becky :) I have told them that I will bring lube, vibes and condoms.

Nice fact for you. Apparently you can buy condoms in Amsterdam which are the shape of Big Ben...

I learn so much in sociology :)

Hope everyone has a nice weekend x x

Easter is over

2010-04-18T10:35:00.001-07:00

I don't think I have blogged for a while.

I just don't have the time.

I can't be bothered to come up with an imaginative blog title :D

But I have had a strange weekend at work :/

I worked tuesday, friday, saturday and sunday this week, which SUCKS in a way. But hopefully I will be LOADED next month, woohoo!

Yesterday this woman came into the store and seemed to know A LOT about my life..

'You used to go to Hiltingbury'

'Your brothers called Nick and your sisters called Kathy'

'Your dad works in a bank'

'You go to Symonds'

and i was like WTFFFFFFFF because I have never seen this woman in my life. First off she was like 'Hey Jennie' which creeped me out. But I have a name badge :S

Basically she used to work with my mum (when my mum worked in Tescos, which was before Nick was even born!) I have no idea how she recognised me considering she hasn't seen me since playgroup (apparently her daughter used to go to Peter Pan with me!)

but it was weird. SMALL WORLD. Turns out her daughter is best friends with one of my old bumchums :D

Then my cousins came in to visit me, and I started playing hide and seek with them (whilst trying to looking like I was actually working, which is easy if I just make sure I am always carrying a piece of clothing!)

Then the most beautiful girl I have seen IN MY LIFE came into the store, and she looked suspiciously like Michelle Heaton (from Liberty X). I found myself stalking her a little, to see whether it was really her. She looked so glamorous and pretty and if she wasn't with her boyfriend I would have invited her to my place ;)

I just googled Michelle Heaton and all I found was lingerie modelling, and she looks a bit like a SLAG. But this girl was really pretty, and me, Sammy and Simran decided to stalk her for a bit. She asked me to direct her to the Be Beau leggings and I could not SPEAK.

So yeah, odd day. We dropped Kathy at the train station so she could go back to uni and the last thing she said to me before she went was 'Lose some weight, ok?'

BITCH.

Today at work it was boring because we had the evil manager :/

I HAVE FIRMED MY UNI OFFERS!

Sheffield = top choice.

Cardiff = second choice.

Symonds is starting to piss me off, so although I thought I would miss it a lot, I just want to GOOOOOOOO!!!

Thats all folks

Hope you had a nice easter, and have fun back at college!!

Ohh I forgot, I went round my mate Gemmas house yesterday and we saw our friend in the audience of Britains got talent. EXCITING STUFF!!!!

'you are an easter beast...er'

2010-04-10T01:54:00.001-07:00

I need to stop neglecting my revision.

I have so much to do and I was quite well behaved during the first few days of easter, but now I CANNOT BE ARSED.

I have loads of overtime this weekend too, so although I have no social life, hopefully I will be LOADED next time I get paid.

Still owe my mum £200 for driving lessons though :/

Had an ashurst rave the other day (I know, how cool am I!) and on the way back (via a pit stop at C.Ford library to grab some socio revision books) I walked past this guy Tim, who decided to take the piss.

My life = ashurst and libraries.

His life = XBOX and Joel's house.

Oh, how roles have been reversed :D

Went to my mate Verity's night before last, although I was SHATTERED from my eastleigh rave with Adam (went bowling&hiding from old stalkers, which was FUNNNN!) it was a pretty good party. But I didn't know a lot of people there, so it was nice to just talk to random people about NOTHING.

my highlight has to be watching (not getting involved with) the limbo-ing in the kitchen, when andy was just STANDING there and threw up. Gross but HILARIOUS.

Then I ran off to sing/shout to 'Where is the love' by Black Eyed Peas with Yushi and Araan :)

Luckily, I remembered I had work the next day so I didn't drink too much. I had a nice catch up with Saffron who seemed to be the only sane person there. A lot of people were in couples so it was easy to feel excluded from time-to-time. I have also heard too many rumours about certain couples that I don't really want to stand within a mile of them!! But Vezza had some CSI tap so I made myself a sash which said 'Crime Scene. Do not enter.' and tried (and failed) to tape some on my crotch. Ohh, how mature.

Went to Jamals for a BBQ yesterday with Verity. Wasn't sure what to expect because I haven't seen him for a while and although I was quite good friends with his at Thornden he would scare me a tiny bit :) But it was really fun and we met his lover.

Also made some sausage crumble yesterday. Took over 2 hours to make, took about 5mins to be eaten/rejected.

FML.

Fright of my life.

2010-04-08T00:23:00.000-07:00

I like getting post :)

Yesterday I got some photos that I had ordered from Photobox.com, which is exciting.

I got a sample of some Loreal foundation (which is random... normally I remember signing up for free samples!) and a letter, which had 'WE WANT YOUR BLOOD' in stencil-type font on the envelope.

YAY. Robert Pattinson has replied to my offer of supplying him my blood in case he gets thirsty, on set of the next twilight movie :D

I said I would give him half of my blood.

JUST KIDDING, it was the NHS saying that I should donate some blood :) I hate needles, but I am sure I can manage :)

Also, I got excited yesterday because Waterloo Road is back on (Y)

and theres a character in the new series called Finn Sharkey.

Which me and my sister found HILARIOUS.

Because when we were younger and we got our first pair of goldfish, hers was called Sharkey, and mine was called Phin. (as in, DolPHIN)

I thought it was funny that a new trouble-maker at 'Loo Road was named after our goldfish :D

Going Bowling with Adam today, and then RAVING-IT -UP in Eastleigh for a bizzle, then Veritys shindig in the evening :) Sounds like a nice, revision&matalan-free day :D

Hope everyone is having a nice easter x x x x

IT IS EASTER :) nom nom nom

2010-04-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

I had a kitkat in Sociology today (erm, I mean AT LUNCHTIME) which had no wafer in it.

It ruined my life.

But when I saw one of my Matalan buddies outside the pub near the bus stop, which un-ruined it :)

Also, I have just realised that I ALWAYS put kisses at the end of emails I send to my teachers. It is SO embarrasing. I just emailed my media teacher about progress reviews and finished with 'Have a nice easter! Jennie :) x' so now I blatently fancy her.

GREAT.

In addition (haha!) is it bad that I am more excited about easter because of CHOCOLATE rather than because Jesus is coming back from the dead? :/ my parents normally give us little prezzies instead of easter eggs. One year it was a phone case and a pair of socks :)

This year I have hoping for a pencil sharpener and a pair of shoelaces :D

Hope everyone has a nice easter! x

Ashurst lover.

2010-03-31T12:50:00.000-07:00

I am officially a Ashurst lame-ass.

I went into Ashurst yesterday and asked if I could reserve a couple of DVDs for Easter (Jennifer's body and the Hurt Locker, if you are interested) and the woman (who I think is like, the CHIEF librarian) said 'You should get an email when the DVDs are in.. but you should know that already...' implying that I LIVED in Ashurst! (Well, I HAVE reserved quite a lot of books during my time at Symonds!)

Then today, the NICE librarian approached me when I was rifling through books (I had NO name badge and was not waving my ID card around) and said 'Your DVDs are in, apparently'

I am like a famous person.

Amongst the Ashurst clan.

Jealous, much?

Odd day

2010-03-29T13:41:00.002-07:00

Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like if I had gone to Peveril.

I haven't enjoyed Symonds as much as I would've liked. (esp. the second year)

The thing is, I am not really sure why.

I have made some really nice friends, I enjoy all my lessons and I have been working hard in Ashurst and workshops and stuff.

But for some reason I still do not feel satisfied.

We are coming up to the end of college and although I am nervous about uni, I am kind of excited to get rid of Symonds.

Which is depressing.

I was GUTTED when I left Thornden, because I loved it so much.

I love all my friends (new and old). I love a certain D'Souza.

But I wish I had more fun at college.

I wish that I had realised earlier on who my real friends were, rather than wasting time with people who don't give a crap.

I wish I had been to more parties. More clubbing. More drinking.

I wish that I didn't have to be so worried about money, like 'Screw driving lessons, I am going to Readinggg!'

Lately I have just been feeling really lonely. Even with my group of friends I tend to feel left out. This sounds petty, but noone gets my bus. I am not in the #46 crew. Everyone in the Bluestar crew gets lifts in now, whereas I want to use up my bus pass. This means that unless I make an effort to meet up with people outside of college (which is hard, considering everyone works on different days!) I never see my old chums anymore.

Everyone left on the bus is preppy and loud, which makes me feel more shy.

I was looking at my old bebo pics last night, and it made me feel sad.

I wish that I was as confident as I was then, when I didn't care what people thought and I could approach people and make friends easily.

I even changed my profile pic to one which was taken a few years ago in the apple store, and it makes me feel sad. My make-up looks really emo-y and my clothes are all from Primark (thanks to £8 a week paper round!) but I was happy. I loved life. I was the most optimistic person EVER. Nothing could rain on my parade.

I think that I spend my whole life living in the past, regretting things that I have/haven't done, and then getting upset about it.

I watched this variety show at the Guildhall that my dad was voluteering for on saturday, and it made me realise that I don't actually have a hobby, or a passion for something.

I used to love trying out new things but now I am too scared.

I used to love badminton, and singing.

My social life used to revolve around shopping, and I don't even enjoy that much anymore, because I end up equating what I spend with how many hours I would have to work to pay it back.

Everyone was raving about Reading today, and I really want to go but I don't really have £180 to spare. I am STILL attempting to drive.

I don't really know if there is a solution to my anxiety, or whether it is ANXIETY at all and I am just being overdramatic.

I feel like I am drifting apart from my friends. That is pretty much it.

Fair enough I am spending a lot more time with Adam, which I am not complaining about - its awesome.

But I think that I am used to having such a diverse set of friends that would be at my beck and call whenever I wanted to meet up.

I don't know.

Lifes a bit gay sometimes.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE:

- apparently my english exam resit was awesome

- i walked past someone on the way home who had the FRIENDLIEST face ever. if he was driving and offered me a lift/RAPE, i would have said YESSSSSS! it was insane. he just seemed really friendly from a SMILE and a cute dog. :)

an old blog that i forgot to post...

2010-03-29T13:41:00.001-07:00

I am fed up with sidestepping and subtleties. I have never been very good at speaking my mind, whether it is with my friends, my family or people I have never met before.

So I am in the mood for a rant blog.

But I am mostly annoyed about my friends. I know that some of them will read this blog, but I never have an opportunity talk to them about it. Its hard because we are all couple-y, so it’s hard to get any of us on our own, without the lovers following suit or pressing for info and gossip.

I came to college today feeling really optimistic (which is surprising, considering I had 4 hours of Matalan-lovin’ to look forward to!) and I have no idea why, but I just felt really happy. Maybe it was because BOTH of my activities had been cancelled (Jap and First Aid) so I actually had some time to work, nap or chill. Or ALL of them.

I had a free with Batfink, and he commented on my lack of bottoms (I was wearing leggings, so my baggage would be lighter if I had to walk home from work.. normally I wear jeans and a coat and it’s a pain to carry all that way!) So I was cool about it. I was used to people commenting when I would wear my Jack Wills top, but I would normally laugh it off, or say that it was a present (which is TRUE! And I do actually love the top.. even though I saw a boy at Symonds wearing the same top!) :’(

I thought that if any of my friends mentioned me wearing leggings, it would be pretty petty.

So when I turned up to John Shields and instead of greeting me everyone said ‘You are practically naked’ and ‘You don’t leave anything to imagination’ and I got a bunch of smirks and grins, I felt like actually slapping someone.

I spent the whole rest of the day being really self-conscious, tugging at the back of my hoody (which DOES cover my arse, thank you very much.. unless I jump a lot..) and generally feeling like shit.

I love paying people compliments, and I always genuinely mean them. But I never get them back. Yesterday in English I said to Emily that I likes her earrings, and she replied by saying that she liked my face. I know that she was probably teasing, but it made me feel really good about myself. Batfink always says things which really make me feel pretty, or generally amazing. Even if it is a tiny thing!

But now I know that a lot of my friends (including myself!) do not have time to hang out with just the girlies. I am not belittling that, I love it that so many of my friends have found soul mates.

I feel like I am ganged up on a lot. I am not very good at debating things, talking back or arguing things. Ed even verged on converting me to Catholicism, he had such a convincing case! I don’t think it is just me though.

So I just want to say, when I greet people, I want them to know that I am pleased to see them. That they are my friend and that I appreciate them. So instead of saying ‘Why are you wearing leggings?’ say ‘Hello Jennifer, I feel like I haven’t seen you for a LONG time. How’ve you been? Do you want to go shopping sometime? Come round mine so we can watch Finding Nemo and eat cake.’

I always feel self-conscious, although most of the time I try and hide it, and I have a lovely man-friend who makes me feel good about myself. I do not always wear skirts, I prefer jeans. So making fun of me wearing leggings makes me want to curl up in a ball and see NOONE. Ever. Some of my friends wear skirts and dresses (I mean the GIRLS, mainly!) and when they sit down you can see their pants. I NEVER MAKE A BIG DEAL OF IT. If you are real friends, why would you make me feel bad about myself? I feel like I have been through a bit of crap and teasing (like reading my texts!) and when we go to Starbucks I never feel included and I always try and make an effort not to shun anyone. Maybe you guys are just teasing, and I need to take it less seriously. But it pisses me off. I have drifted apart from a lot of my preppy friends and now my closest friends, the ones that I normally enjoy spending time with and can trust, happen to make me feel like shit.

Cardiff :)

2010-03-19T11:38:00.000-07:00

Went to cardiff today :)

We got a bit lost and stuck in traffic, and we were a bit late.. but the uni campus was SO SO nice and the course sounds amazing :)

Also, I have fallen in love with the Welsh accent (all over again!)

When we had a question and answers sesh, a girl asked a question and she was WELSH so I kinda melted. She was like Gavin and Stacy's Stacy!!

The city seems really nice too!

But I have since got confused about unis.. I am torn between Sheffy and Diffy :)

I agree with Rosstopher though, in some ways Cardiff IS a bit sexist (but it is also SEXY!)

Only girls can have full-catered, and there is a bit of accomodation for JUST GIRLS.

But there is no accomodation for JUST BOYS. Which is odd.

Maybe more girls want to hide from boys and stay virgins :/

Also, I got excited because I went to a toiltet in a main lecture building, which apparently featured in a Doctor Who episode. WOO! My bottom is famous now :)

On the way home from Cardiff (after my parents had been arguing about getting lost..) I had a debate with mum about Cheryl Cole. We were listening to BBC Radio 1 and 'Parachute' came on, and my mother thought it was silly that ANY song should have the word 'Parachute' in.

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

'Its like having a song about bungee jumping. I am going to bungee jump but I don't need any string because when I jump I won't die because hopefully you will catch me. If you do not, I won't be content.'

My mum is weird. I also got a phone call from my brother asking if he could have a mini bag of Haribo. I TOLD HIM TO CALL ME IF THERE WAS AN EMERGENCY! gah.

This is weird too.

I had a dream last night, and it wasn't ANY dream. It was a DIRTY dream. haha, not likely! It was About General studies :P my dream predicted what the social and cultural exam would say...

So, to all you whizzes who want to get A*, check this out!

'How is family represented in TV shows such as 'My Family' and 'My parents are aliens?'

'Would you consider Banksy to be an artist or a criminal?'

'If policemen didn't wear the old-fashioned hats, would it make them less intimidating in your opinion?'

My instincts are often correct, so revise away :D

SLAMS!

2010-03-16T14:11:00.000-07:00

I started helping out at this youth club after christmas..

a youth club for teens with mental disabilities (yes, laugh all you like, but i am NOT someone who goes.. I am a volunteer!)

We had a fun little party tonight, with wii sports and pin-the-tail-on-the-donkey and musical statue and... KARAOKE.

It seems that I am too scared to sing karaoke, or on guitar hero, with my own friends (who can joke if I suck at singing, and whoop if I am...AWESOME) but when it comes to singing in front of a bunch of hyper, lovely people I barely know, I will happily warble to 'Dancing Queen' and 'It's raining men' and'Wake me up before you go-go' like there's no tomorrow.

But it made me feel a bit sad.. I used to love singing in little cheesy shows at school and with the Girl Guides :) but now I have no confidence in my singing... which is something that I used to feel really passionate about, and I used to really enjoy..

Now my life is just WORK and COURSEWORK and MATALAN-STUFF and ESSAYS and I feel like I have no time to CHILL. So I have been getting stressed out lately and more.. sensitive (if that makes sense) and although i guess that it will be over by July.. I just want to SLEEP.

Gah. College is silly.

Sheffield. No naked stripper guys, like in full monty :(

2010-03-07T10:58:00.001-08:00

I feel like I haven't blogged for a while.

Work was nice today.

Barn dancing was fun last night

V for Vendetta is a good movie.

I like it when people give me chocolate oreos as a present - it makes my day.

I don't like running out of credit.

I HAVENT CHATTED ABOUT SHEFFIELD AT ALL! gahh!

I went to Sheffield last wednesday (missed general studies again...SHAME!) I must've been to G.S about once this year :P

We got completely lost on the way to Sheffield (we got lost in London on the way back... which is in the wrong direction, and basingstoke on the way there. we got lost in basingstoke. BASINGSTOKE! my mum cannot drive and i cannot give directions!!) My mum told me that she hasn't driven by herself any further than Bristol (which is where she was born) EVER. Because Dad always drives everywhere. GREAT. Tell me this when I am IN THE CAR ON THE WAY TO A UNI, WHICH WE HAVE NO IDEA WHERE IT IS.

I fell in love with Sheffield, initially because it has a TRAM SERVICE... my mum had to depress me by saying that it was a 'bus attached to a rail with a rope..' but i thought it was real awesome!

I was expecting Sheffield to be really industrial, smelly, smoky with lots of factories... but I only saw ONE! (The full monty gave me an incorrect impression of the place!)

Its about 30secs away from the town too, which is always nice :)

The tour guide we had was really friendly, and the lecturers we had were nice too :D One was really camp (and my mum fell in love with him) and one was called Kook-hee (and I fell in love with her!)

I met a really nice girl too, who me and my mum kinda adopted (because she didnt have her parents with her.. she just popped over from Leeds!) She said she lived in a council flat, and I was shocked my her lack of Mackenzie/Cabrini/Nike clothing :D She looked surprisingly NORMAL.

When we were waiting for the first lecture, this girl approached the vending machine that we were standing by, and went for a bottle of coke. She was wearing clothes that most people wouldn't wear to college, let alone an open day. Most people wouldn't even wear it to a birthday party, clubbing or a formal do! She looked SO overdressed and I though OH. A SPOILT BRAT. I hate to stereotype, but I was right. The machine wouldn't accept her £1 so she stormed up to her dad and started swearing at him, saying 'I fucking hate my life, and I fucking hate you! Give me more money!' and her dad (incidently, wearing Ralph Lauren) reached into his pockets and gave her £20. In some ways, I would LOVE it if my parents gave me money. But she must be such a bitch to her parents.. oh well.

My mum wants me to go to Sheffield because there is a Morrisons near the uni. YAY.

I want to go to Sheffield because there is a STAR TREK SOCIETY and Eddie Izzard went there, and he is just awesome. Maybe I will MEET HIM, and marry him :)

The only downside to Sheffield is the distance.. the other unis I want to go to are only a few hours away.. so thats a bit of a bummer.

Hope everyone liked their results today :)

THIS MADE ME LOL

2010-03-02T12:06:00.002-08:00

Also, I was looking up details about the youth club that I help out with (I am gutted because I could be at vue right now, watching The princess and the frog for FREE with the youth club) and the youth club is called 'Slams' and takes place in the Hilt.

I looked up 'The Hilt' on google, and learnt some valuable lessons.

Definition of 'hilt:'

1. the base of the penis.

2. a man who humps his postbox.

GREAT.

Well, it IS from urbandictionary.com

according to them, a jennie is:

1.Someone with sexy hips, an amazing voice, big boobs, and is all round Sexy

3.A fun-loving, creative girl who likes to hang out with friends and enjoys the outdoors. She's got great style and inspires fierce loyalty in her friends. She may be shy at first, but you'll soon discover that she's the funniest (and funnest!) person you know. Everyone should find a Jennie for a friend!

3.She has the most beautiful eyes and hair.

She smells that of a fall evening, and her voice will typically seranade you.

4.Usually the hottest girl in the class. Laughs 24/7 and smiles no matter what's going on.

OK, so I picked some of the nicest definitions. Some of the other definitions include 'a little white booger,' 'someone with a fat ass' and 'someone who works in a shop and is very lazy' (which sums me up quite well.

But we will ignore them

Check your names out in urban dictionary for LOTS OF FUN :D

[insert witty blog title here]

2010-03-02T11:56:00.000-08:00

I am going to sheffield tomorrow :) even though I am a bit gutted that it will be a wednesday (the only day I finish at 12:30!) and I will have to wake up real early I am actually quite excited!

I'll let you know how it goes.

Decided that all Symonds food in CRAP today. My dad makes this AWESOME vichysoisse soup (basically, leek and potato) and when I tried some from college it was ICKY. What a let down.

I will stick to carrot, celery, sandwiches and MUFFINS in the future :)

I read this really anti-climatical (is that a word?) story in the paper today. The free paper my brother delivers, all the local stuff.

One article read 'BOY AGED FIVE HELPS TO DELIVER BABY SISTER.'

and I thought this sounded AWESOME!

Normally the news is about Wyvern students dressing up for charity, Fryern students making cakes for red nose day, someones cat getting stuck on the tree, someone losing their only pencil...

SILLY THINGS.

So I got excited. PROPER GOOD STORY!!

Incidently, the pic of the boy was SO cute, I HAD to read it.

I was expecting this super-child to actually have removed the baby from his mothers hoo-hoo whilst the midwife was STUCK IN TRAFFIC and listening to the Beach Boys.

Turns out that the mother was expecting the baby later that day (because she was in labour for more than a day with her first child, she didnt want to spend all her time in the hospital) so they stayed at home. The dad went downstairs to feed the dog. The mother started having contractions. The boy shouted downstairs to his dad. The dad came.

THE END.

THE BOY JUST BLOODY SHOUTED FOR HIS DAD, AND HE GETS AN ARTICLE IN A PAPER!

I have shouted for my dad BILLIONS of times.

'DAD, this maths doesn't make any sense.'

'Dad, we've run out of ice cream.'

'Dad, can you give me a lift to [insert place name here]'

I have never got an article in a paper!

Life is unfair :(

Moooo-sick :)

2010-03-01T10:54:00.000-08:00

Had the best english lesson ever today :)

my teacher, ruth, is such a legend.

We spent an hour acting out Hamlet in little groups with FINGER PUPPETS!

it was so awesome!

I was Horatio - a dog.

Then we had the ghost which was actually an owl, and Marcellus was a clown and Hamlet was a blond curly-haired girl. MUCH FUN.

Here is my list of people/bands that I MUST see before I die :D :

Linkin Park

Cute is what we aim for

Mayday Parade

Ellie Goulding

Taking Back Sunday

3oh!3

Black Eyed Peas

Blink 182

Eminem

Calvin Harris

Fall out boy

Get cape.

Foo Fighters

Funeral For a friend.

Gym Class Heroes

Jack Johnson

Jack Penate

Hadouken

Jay-Z

MGMT

Wacko Jacko :'(

Paolo Nutini

Paramore

Muse

Queen :'(

S Club 7 :'(

Spice Girls :'(

Florence

Snow Patrol

Billy Talent

VV Brown.

Ohh, and Eddie Izzard, Jimmy Carr and Russell Howard :)

That is all I can think of atm.

Over and out.

'I am sorry to alarm you my darling, but there is a chinese family in our bathroom.'

2010-02-28T12:45:00.000-08:00

(500) days of summer is an awesome film!

Kathy had a Blockbuster voucher and got that film and I thought it would be another icky chick flick (which I LOVE, but they are pretty same-ish...) but it is so good.

WATCH IT.

I had an interesting convo with my dad today. Interesting, but short lived.

We were in the kitchen (whilst Nick was dancing to 'Fight for this love' but instead saying 'We gotta file, file, file, file, file for divorce... what a witty child) when a contraception ad came on.

AWKWARD. On the advert the woman said 'Contraception. Worth talking about.' My dad then decided to glare at me and say 'NO. ITS NOT WORTH TALKING ABOUT.'

In a jokey way.. not in a Catholic we-hate-contraception-and-abortion-and-everything way!

Then he started on a lecture. Which as even more awkward... 'If you had a baby, I wouldn't be angry. I would be happy, because I would know that you had made the decision to conceive it and you wouldn't have given into pressure from anyone and you wouldn't have been taken advantage of.' MORE GLARING. 'I would be happy because it would be a decision that you had made.'

So then Nick turned around and said 'I would be happy because then everyone would shut up about unis.'

Which sums up my life. Birmingham uni is STILL being gay (apparently there is a SCANDAL which involves a sociology lecturer plaigarising some of his work... it would be funny if it had happened to ANY OTHER DEPARTMENT.) and sheffield changed the open day dates without letting me know, and all my buddies (well, all FOUR of them) that I made at Surrey are ignoring me.

WHY WON'T YOU RETURN MY CALLS? (here, read 'facebook wall comments!)

On a lighter note, went to see Lostprophets on friday with Katy, Andrew, Becky, Chris and Adam :) saw Matt Betts and Savage and Jack Beattie there too, which was nice (ever since they ditched the bluestar-bus crew I never see them anymore!) and we also saw the love of Becky's life :D

(long story..)

but although the first support act (called Shark) was CRAP, kids in glass houses were pretty good (even though I only knew about 3 of their songs!) and lostprophets were AWESOME.

We were near enough to the front that I could see Ian Watkins' beautiful face, and far enough so I wouldn't get trampled on TOO much.

I liked it when Adam picked me up, there was this REALLY annoying guy in front who just pissed me off with his 6'5''-ishness, so it was nice to get a piggy back and actually SEE properly :)

The highlight of the evening must've been me groping Becky from behind, and Becky thinking it was Adam. :D the look on her face was PRICELESS.

I got a lostprophets wristband too, and received many a-compliment from my colleagues at work the next day :)

SO ONE MORE BAND TO TICK OFF THE LIST!

I will have to publish my list of MUST-SEE-BANDS-BEFORE-I-DIE... just in case you want to give me an early xmas present ;) but I will tell you now, Linkin Park will be at the VERY top :) Lostprophets are only my 2ND fave 'L.P' band :)

woo.

Hope everyone had a nice weekend :) I worked. yay. Literally 8 hours at work and 4 hours babysitting.

'I AM A GAY RAPIST'

2010-02-25T11:15:00.000-08:00

I went to Surrey yesterday.

I am still gutted about Birmingham messing up their Sociology department, because B'ham is like, if I was a building, I would marry the whole of the campus.

I liked Surrey, but I spent the whole time comparing it to my uni soulmate.

After an awkward buffet lunch, (I almost ran away with my parents so I wouldn't have to mingle!) I actually ended up speaking to some people, which is a shocker for me. I would rather hide in the corner with my glass of orange juice :D

One girl I spoke to did the same A-Levels as me, lived in Southampton and had the same birthday as me! EXCITING STUFF!

We went into a lecture theatre for an introduction to the uni (the lecturer had BLUE HAIR! I am sooo going to Surrey!) as well as a sample lecture about Sociology, Culture and Media.

Which was interesting, but I ended up talking to my new buddies about facebook :P

Then we went to a campus tour (led by the most annoying squeaky girl ever!) and I ended up mingling with this guy, who is officially is the weirdest guy ever. But he cracked me up so much. He overheard me talking to my girlies about Farmville, and started slating it.

When we went past the 'security centre' I made a joke about getting protection from stabbing, which started a convo about which area was rougher, Southampton or Chichester (I thought Chichester was in the north.... turns out that was CHESTER.. gahh!)

But yeah. For some reason he started talking about being gay and a rapist... and I wasn't sure whether to believe him.

But once I found out he had TapTap Revenge on his iphone I kinda wet myself. He beat me :(

But yeah, it was a nice day out and if I do decide to go to Surrey, I have 5 facebook adds that would mean that I see a familiar face, which is nice!

I just got paid £20 babysitting for 1.5hours and i feel real guilty. Normally I get paid that much for 5 hours, and I did say 'ARE YOU SURE?' but yeah. Me like.

I have decided to save up babysitting money in my Reading fund.

Reading as in FESTIVAL, not Reading as in BOOKS, so I can hopefully go next year (and ring up Linkin Park and demand that they performmmm!!)

I had a weird talk with my mum the other day...

I started by talking to her about unis and open days, but then she started slating Symonds.

She was going on about how when my sister went to Peveril, beforehand she was really shy but after college she became a lot more confident. So my mum was basically saying that Symonds had done the opposite for me. When I was at Thornden I had a big group of friends and I was pretty confident and happy, but since Symonds I have got a lot more stressed out, and I care more about what people think of me. Whenever I pass through Paul Woodhouse I somehow feel inadequate and uncomfortable, and I have now become a loner on the bluestar bus, because everyone I know gets lifts into college now (but I have a bus pass so I might as well use it)

I had always wondered what it would have been like to go to Peveril. Obviously I wouldn't have made all the friends that I made at Symonds, but I guess maybe the lack of elitism and Jack Wills hiearchy would have made me a lot happier to turn up in a hoody and not feel like a tramp.

But when mum said this, it made me feel really sad. Is it THAT obvious that I have become more reserved since Symonds? I have worked pretty hard at Symonds, so I know that I deserve whatever results I get in the summer. But at home, when I used to be all JUMPY AND EXCITED I just got to my room and watch Sex and the City. (woo!) I used to be a lot more social, and generally happier. Now I have loads of stuff to think about and I end up getting stressed out and tired all the time. I have days at college when I am pretty excitable so I seem a bit weird and crazy. I like that. Its like my normal self is back. When I would have been able to go anywhere at college and chat to people and say hi. At Thornden there was an obvious elite (of about 10 chavs!) and there were so many rumours about abortions and naked pictures and stuff I was happy not to be included in that group. I was happy being friends with loads of different groups, like the FF-ians and the fishpond crew. I know so many people who hated school, and I loved it, and I really miss it.

I am not saying I hate Symonds. I LOVE Symonds, (most days) I have met some amazing people, got an amazing boyfriend who I love spending time with, but sometime I wonder what it would have been like to go to Peveril. But I would have missed my Thornden friends SO much (even though I would get to see Gemma more than once a month!)

I don't feel as included as I used to. In my classes, in my circle of friends, in my family. Even at work I am still just settling down.

My sociology teacher told me that Media students are more likely to get depressed at uni than from any other subject (apparently computing and maths people are happier) because they supposedly do not have enough work to do and get bored. Im not depressed. I just feel up and down all the time.

I am going to surrey tomorrow. Whoop! :)

2010-02-23T11:48:00.000-08:00

I fail at life.

My new years resolution (to decrease my amount of nutella, chocolate, milkyway magic stars and general CRAP consumption) has failed. MISERABLY.

I was pretty good to start with, I started going to the gym (OK, I went ONCE!) and started making use of my cycling machine and 'twist-stepper' which is in my room gathering dust. I even went for a run (incidently, about 10 hours before my sociology exam. Hence why I have probably failed. Instead of revising I thought it would be fun to get lost for almost 2 hours in North Millers Dale...or was it SOUTH Millers Dale? ITS ALL THE SAME TO ME. PEOPLE WHO LIVE THERE ARE SILLY!) :P

But going to uni to see Kathy I had a years supply of chocolate on one pancake. I ate loads of carrots and grapes yesterday, only to top it off with a muffin. and a sausage roll. and a human-sized gingerbread man... haha.

OH. muffins. good times.

I am SICK of muffins. You see, I got back from work last sunday only to find that my mum had bought ALL of somerfields muffins. LITERALLY all of them. Because they were reduced from 99p for 4 to 35p for 4. So she kinda had a stroke in the bakery aisle, and SHOUTED at dad when he suggested only getting one packet...

I have had had more muffins in three days that I would normally have in a year.

44 MUFFINS ARE LEFT HIBERNATING IN OUR FREEZER.

Frozen peas and ready meals are overrated. Lets live on muffins.

I got manhandled in first aid today, when our St Johns person was going through the recovery position. Shame shes not hot, otherwise I would have been like 'OH NO. I CANNOT BREATHE. KISS OF LIFE, YOU STONE COLD FOX!' But instead she was old and chubby. I hate saying 'FAT' so I would rather say 'CUDDLY' or 'BEAR-HUG-ABLE'

Oh. And I have a confession to make. I have told NOONE. I trust my blog readers with this secret.

I am obsessed with prostitutes.

Ok, that sounds weird. I am not obsessed like, I don't want to take advantage of their...services..

I am not a whore of the whores....

A whore-whore...

I was about to say 'Instead of being sick of chocolate chip muffins, I like ANOTHER type of muffin' ;) but I thought that would be inappropriate.

I just find prozzies really intriguing.

I remember, a few years back, one of my friends was like 'How much on average do prostitutes get paid?' I am not sure whether this was a joke.. or whether she actually wanted to ditch her GCSEs and take another...career...path...

But I have always had this ew.. its really sleazy thing about it. I know that SO many prostitutes are forced into it..whether they are kidnapped or they need money or they want drugs. I am not belittling that. I am pretty content with my A-Levels atm that I wouldn't want to just join a brothel and ignore uni and stuff.

I didn't do the KUDOS careers programme (which calculates what careers would suit you, based on your interests and thing you are good at) only for it to come up with 'You're screwed kiddo.. how about becoming a professional whore?'

But since watching 'Secret Diary of a Call Girl' and reading the books it was based on (which are SO awesome/funny btw... if a bit graphic at times...) I just find it really interesting. Like, what sort of men use prostitutes. and yes, how much they charge.

And whenever I see anyone playing 'Assassins Creed' the only part I am really interested in is when the prostitutes turn up to distract the evil guys.

OK. I may lose some friends after you guys read this blog. But hear me out.

I do not want to become a prostitute. Or use a prostitute. But I think it would be interesting to be friends with a prostitute... so I could ask them about it.

So... any takers?

Simple things make me happy.

2010-02-19T14:40:00.000-08:00

It's true. Like someone giving me a squeezy hug, or finding out that nutella is on offer.

I got Linkin Park's 'Minutes to Midnight' in Somerfield today for £1.25. COMPLETE bargain because I was considering getting it when it first came out (for £12.99) but instead chose to nick it off Matt-chew :)

I also got Spice Girl's Greatest Hits (AND I AM PROUD!) for £2.50. Which I was going to get on Amazon.. I mean IT WAS AN IMPULSE BUY... I DONT EVEN LIKE THEM... -shifty eyes-

But now I have somethings to blast through my speakers when I DO finally take my theory test/ pass my driving test/earn loadsa money/BUY A CAR!! woo :)

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

My plans? Overtime with bitchy manager, and frantic extended project typing up. woohoo.

'Three words we all want to hear on valentines day... LETS GET NAKED.' :)

2010-02-17T15:24:00.000-08:00

Just got back from SEXYter :)

spending 4 nights on the floor of my sisters flat near exeter uni ^__^

and it was SO MUCH MORE FUN than i thought it would be.

I was quite scared to start with.. having to encounter my sisters ex at the train station, and not knowing what to say/whether to stab him.. having NO IDEA which stop I was supposed to be getting off, and being unable to lug my bag on and off the train...

but the thing that scared me most out of EVERYTHING was walking up to my sisters room (who had to be CONVENIENTLY placed on the third floor..) and walking past a room which has 'PAEDO' pasted onto the door... in what looked like human faeces. The room was right next to the bathroom... and I thought that maybe they had run out of toilet paper! .. luckily it was only nutella. But still! EW.

I was shown the MAN room (a room with weights, a bench press and an XBOX) and the GIRL room (basically a room with a TV and a lot of chick flicks) and the kitchen. apparently noone in exeter understand the concept of washing up.. which was pretty annoying. While everyone was cooking/working out/playing FIFA I was often guilt-tripped into washing up. And as the middle-class twat I am, I HATE washing up without my marigolds :P

I basically spent the whole week eating nutella, pancakes and curry and watching movies like Mulan, Finding Nemo, X-Men origins, Down with Love, and FRIENDS. A LOT. Uni is going to be SWEEETT!

All of kathys flatmates seemed real nice (apart from captain BURP - luke..) and the fact that on the last night, they decided to bully me for wearing a Jack Wills top (WHICH I HAD TRIED TO HIDE UNDER A SCARF AFTER KATHY WARNED ME THAT I WOULD GET STABBED!!)

But I have had a few fun (and sleepless!) days. I was given a tour of Exeter campus (actually really nice.. shame they don't do Sociology!!) and spent 3 hours in the library doing E.P while Kathy was in lectures (she gave me her laptop and I didnt even go on facebook!... well I tried but it was blocked...) and I watched 'Valentines day' which is actually quite a funny film. Kind of an American equivalent to 'Love Actually' :) and Taylor Lauter was in it, and Bradley Cooper, and Patrick Dempsey. PHWOAR X 1000!

and Michael Franti's 'Say Hey (I love you)' was the song in the opening credits. So I loved the movie before it had started!!

I have also lost my cocktail virginity (pineapple margarita... yummy but SO strong!) when I went to a bar called 'Amber Rooms' with Kathy and her housemates to see her buddy Matt do an open mic. He played two original songs and a John Mayer song and he kinda made me melt. That was a fun night!! Interestingly.. only the GIRLIES went out to the bar/clubbing (me and Kathy went home after the bar..) guess where the guys were?

They stayed at home, to watch GLEE. How lame.

But that night, two of the girlies (Sam, who is awesome and German/chinese/pakistani...VERY multicultured! and Alice, who is Americannn) decided to come back from the club at 1am and bang on ALL of our doors individually and call us 'Gay' and 'Boring' for sleeping. Kathy never locks her door so they came in and threatened to jump on me. GREAT.

After a couple of days of being a shoulder to cry on/punching bag/person to rant and bitch about previous boyfriends to.. Kathy started getting a bit impatient with me. We went shopping and I was apparently slow at walking/slow at deciding what shops to go into/slow at deciding what drinks to buy/GENERALLY GETTING ON HER NERVES.

So I guess its good I came home when I did.. but its pissed me off to find out that my bedroom has been moved about, half of Kathys belongings are in my room, and I have no curtains/bedding. Welcome home, Jennie.

I have started getting more EXCITED than nervous about going to uni now though. Although it is still going to be scary and weird to leave my homeboys =/

Hope everyones been having a nice week!! x x

P.S It was weird how many Symondians I saw on the train home from Exeter... appaarently its the place to BE! :)

The dreaded V- word.

2010-02-11T11:43:00.001-08:00

Why does everyone make such a big deal out of Valentines day?

I quite like how Symonds is doing a lot more fun things, to celebrate Valentines day. Just an excuse to set up a sex clinic I guess 'In and out...nice choice of name!'

But I do not like how shops seem to go crazy, and want to make a big deal out of it.. 'BUY THIS, OR YOU WILL END UP GETTING DIVORCED!' 'BUY THIS, AND YOU WILL GET LAAAAAID!'

Like Matalan. The more teddies we sell, the better. (apparently...)

But what I like LEAST is how people react to Valentines day. I mean, if you are in a relationship, feel free to give prezzies and love. But why have a set date for it? Why can't you give prezzies on any other day?

(Becky's mums bf giving her a bracelet to celebrate a 'happy friday' is possibly the cutest thing ever.)

Valentines day has always seemed a bit overreacted to me. But maybe that is because I have never been in a relationship over Valentines day, so I have grown a bit cynical towards it. But I have never really got DEPRESSED about it. I would make heart-shaped cookies in Brownies, or Valentines day cards at Guides or whatever, but then I would give them to my mum :)

Even people who AREN'T in a relationship are silly on Valentines day. If you are not in a relationship, why is that? Is that your choice? If not, why are you scared to tell that person how you feel? Obviously, doing that doesn't always work out (as I learnt a while ago) but there is not need to get depressed about V.Day. People who say V.day is the WORST DAY EVER is silly. If you avoid watching rom coms and avoid going to posh restaurants, where loved-up couples may be, then you are fine.

A few years ago I met up with some friends for V.day and we just had a laugh and watched a movie and it was FUN. So I don't understand why people get to hostile towards V.day.

Have a fun day wiith friends, or start planning a FANTASTIC half term :)

I have always ignored 'Valentines day' so it passes me by. 14th February is my half-birthday. So I expect lots of half-cakes and half-prezzies and cookies ripped in two, thanks :) I am one day closer to being an 18-er :O

Matter-Land.

2010-02-11T01:42:00.001-08:00

I have decided that I need to chillax more and work less.

Extended project is being gay, media&sociology are being trigger-happy with essays, I have to practically teach myself english because one of my teachers is CRAP, and I am starting to worry about exams. ALREADY. also, I have begun to start freaking out about uni.

I mean, Symonds has been FUN. Particularly in AS. But I am starting to get fed up with it, so I AM looking forward to uni. Kinda. Just need to figure out which one is my FAVE (!)

On top of that, although Matalan is a BALL, I still don't feel a part of the clan.

I have decided to devise a list (haha, my best skill!) about Matalan.

Good things about Matalan.

They are real flexible with uni open days/holidays! (whereas Scott would make it more complicated then it needed to be!)

Everyone I have met is SO lovely (even though they are all extreme chavs or extreme emos!)

The duty manager, Becca, is SO nice. Everytime she calls me chick/babe I fall a little in love with herr!

Everyone who works there is SO friendly!

With the exception of one person, all the CUSTOMERS seem real friendly too!

They seem generally laid back about EVERYTHING, rather than being paranoid and accusing all the time!

We sell the CUTEST baby clothes. Which means babies come in. NEED I SAY MORE!

I know a couple of people from Thornden/through my sister/old times.

..shh...the pay is slightly more...

Bad things about Matalan.

EVERYONE SMOKES! When we all finish and wait at the front for lifts etc, everyone smokes. ew.

Apparently one of the managers, Alison (who interviewed me and seemed real nice!) has a bad side...

Because I only work 4 hour each time, we don't get a break. So after about 2 hours my feet ACHE and I really want some pie.

Other than a burger van outside (the gross-est one EVER!) there is no place to buy food. (apart from a couple of bags of wine gums) I miss choc dips in my lunch break, and boots meal deals :'(

Barely anyone there goes to Symonds. Whereas at Superdrug ALL the young-uns did!

The only surrounding shops are Pets at Home and Halfords.. so I cannot spend all my wages on the high street like I did before!! :'(

Thats all I can think of. But now I have settled down more, I do like Matalan a lot more. Which means one less thing to worry about, which is always good!! :)

'Shawtys like a melody in my head...'

2010-02-09T10:06:00.001-08:00

Me and my mum were having a TV war a second ago.

I wanted The Simpsons.

She wanted BBC News..

But we came across this channel (I think it was 4Music) and the #1 R&B song for this week is apparently 'Iyaz- Replay'

...No. I havent heard of it EITHER!

But I watched a bit of it, and was a bit annoyed at how the girls in the vid were SEXUALLY OBJECTIFIED (sociology taught me to be a bra-burning feminist!!)

Cue rant.

But my mummy interrupted me by saying, QUITE seriously:

'Why does that guy keep grabbing his crotch? Does he need the toilet?'

Oh how I laughed. But thinking about it.. I am not really sure of the answer.

DO they need the loo?

Do they have some sort of genital warts they just HAVE to keep scratching at?

Do they want to try and exaggerate the size of their 'man-vegetables'.. much like a woman would wear a push-up bra?

Oh, the wonders of 21st Century Rap music. So many questions. So many possible answers.

Cashier number 11, please...

2010-02-07T12:03:00.001-08:00

I asked my mum what an 'anus crime' was today?

Anal rape?

Constipation without a license?

Turns out I had misheard her, and the woman with the bonnet in 'My Girl' actually said 'HEINOUS crime.' Oh, how my parents laughed. At my expense.

My extended project has been COMPLETELY neglected this weekend. I have started to freak out about media cw (and my lack of photoshop skills!) so have instead decided to just sleep, read, and have lots of toasty baths. (when i say LOTS, I mean three... which is more than I have in a YEAR! haha, i am a shower person, not just SMELLY.)

It was weird how many old people I saw in Chandlers Ford this weekend, particularly yesterday. At one point I looked around Fryern (which is a PAIN in itself, its HORRIBLE there!) and I could not find a non-OAP anywhere! I was actually quite scared. Maybe the millenials and Generation Y and Generation X were all DEAD. (if that doesnt make sense, do media) :D

It wasn't until I peeped into Waitrose that I relaxed. No-one over about 12years old works there. Its weird how many people I know that work in Waitrose... mainly from Thornden, Symonds and a few badminton people. So its nice to occasionally pop in there and say hello. But I NEVER buy anything.

Waitrose is for posh people.

ASDA ftw :)

I worked today, and for once it was NICE. People spoke to me, the managers are SO nice (and really flexible about holidays/uni open days... whereas my old boss would make the BIGGEST fuss and not let me swap shifts and instead I would have to fill out loadsa holidays forms, which would get declinedd!)

There was this GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS boy that I served, who was about five, who was asking me loads of random questions, like why was matalan called matalan? did santa come for you this year? and when he asked me what my name was he got excited and shouted 'YOUR NAME IS LIKE JELLY BABIES!' and I so wanted to adopt him :)

Everyone I served today was real friendly. I cannot believe how easily someone can spend £150 on mainly undies and a few bags though...

In POOPER-drug :P I always served spoilt, Jack Will-sy, privately-educated pre-teens who would spend that much on make-up. And It would just PISS ME OFF.

Anyways, I am tired. E.P is waiting (and will probs wait for a LONGGG time!!)

ta-ra!

Skins series 4 is crap.

2010-02-05T15:28:00.000-08:00

I saw a druggie get arrested today in Winch. As in, proper HANDCUFFED! (not 'cufflinked' as I tend to say...)

It was pretty exciting. He was wailing and whimpering and it was kinda surreal, having it happen in WINCHESTER. POSH CENTRAL. In fact, I don't think I have EVER seen anyone get arrested (which is always a good thing) so it was pretty surreal. And the worst thing was that I KNEW one of the PCs arresting him =/

I just got back from babysitting, and I am officially NEVER HAVING CHILDREN! Normally, once I have read a few books to the older one (the younger girl is a complete DOLL and is always sleeping!) and let her play with my hair a bit, they get to sleep ok. But TONIGHT, I had to read 4 books, get her a drink, help her find some bar of toffee she lost, try on some of her lipgloss, make sure she stopped playing with the lady-bird castanets which would wake up her sister, and stop her from eating crayons.

ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

The thing is, because I am such a pushover, I am pretty unable to be FIRM with her. So I am like 'Go to bed... if thats ok.' 'SLEEP NOW!... please?'

=/ so much for babysitting being easy money!

Give me 4 hours on matalan tills ANYDAY!

Oh. I am supposed to be on a diet and I think I have failed. On the 1st of Feb I spent the WHOLE day eating ice cream, and I am currently eating white choc lindt lindors. FAIL.

aand I have tried to ban myself from John Shields Shop and that has failed too.

Oh, and I had an interesting time earlier explaining to my brother what 'well hung' meant... :S

Have a nice weekend, everybodyy!! x

P.S I am currently reading 'The intimate adventures of a London call girl' by Belle Du Jour. IT IS SO AWESOME! READ IT!

Farmville for the win :)

2010-02-04T14:05:00.000-08:00

I feel weirdly happy at the moment.

Lately I have been pretty stressed out about coursework and E.P etc, but I am content.

And I have a belly full of ice cream and brownies.

HOORAY FOR FRANKIE AND BENNYS!

went out for a meal for Gemmas and it was actually pretty nice!

Saw some people from Barton that I havent seen since Gemma's LAST birthday, and it was nice catching up with my old bumchums Jack and Matt (and getting all excited about Lostprophets!)

aaand gossiping with my fave girlies about cheeky things ^__^

On a more random note, apparently Cymru is not the same as Corfu. Cymru is WALES and Corfu is in Greece. I thought they were the same thing, but my mummy and daddy laughed at me when they said I got confused between them :(

Also, I had some fun last night trying to explain that some band names in our current music era are COOL and not weird. It was fun trying to explain the meaning behind 'Black Eyed Peas' and 'Lady Gaga' because she reckons that they are silly. BLONDIE was blonde. THE JACKSON FIVE were the Jacksons, The Moody Blues were a bit grumpy...and now our musics names are silly.

ANYWAY. Um.. people may lose respect for me at this point.

Basically, the other day I started getting a TAD bored of farmville :O especially when I had run out of fuel, and couldnt be bothered to plow the field ALL by myself. :D I AM COOL.

So I had a sudden craving for Zoombinis.

I don't know if everyone has experienced the magic of Zoombinis, but we had it at Hiltingbury Junior school and basically you can create these little people (and you can change their hair/eyes/whether they have feet or rollerskates or a scooter or a hover thing or a SPRING!) and then you have to complete challenges to save your friends that are stuck in a cave. It is supposed to challenge your 'mathematical and logical mind.' But at Hiltingbury, I thought it was the funnest thing EVER.

So I picked it up from Winch Library and in a sad way, was SO SO SO excited about playing it.

Its aimed at 7years and up, but so are a lot of things, like Sims and Farmville :P

The thing is, after almost 10years since I last played it, it isnt as exciting as I remember. If you make ONE mistake, you have to start at the beginning by making your Zoombinis again, in Zoombiniville (imaginative name, ehh?) The voiceover was actually really annoying, and when I got stuck on certain challenges I was left feeling real stupid. I mean, THIS IS A GAME AIMED AT SEVEN YEAR OLDS! I HAVE PASSED MY GCSES AND AS LEVELS. YOU WOULD THINK I WOULD KNOW HOW TO FEED SOME 'BOOLIES' AND CROSS A BRIDGE OF TURTLES!!

Alas, I gave up. Maybe I should stick to Guitar Hero and -sigh- Call of BLOODY Duty :D

Auf-Lauf.

2010-02-01T11:00:00.000-08:00

My dear brother.

He likes to come up with weird stuff.

Today he referred to a grumpy guy as being on his 'meriod'

which is basically a man-period.

I liked this word, I may have to coin it for future use :)

Anyways, MLIA.

I made a friend at Matalan ^__^ called Alex. Turns out hes dating one of my old Gangshow buddies. But he's the only guy at Matalan (so far, fingers crossed!) who has actually made an effort to strike up a convo. Everyone else seems nice but unless I am on tills I dont have much opportunity to talk.

Anyways, he has made me feel more relaxed at Matalan, and I dont feel like such a loner.

BUT, yesterday he revealed that he is leaving in two weeks, and I was GUTTED. I have only spoke to him for a total of about 30mins but he made me feel welcome.

I asked him why he was leaving (nosy, much?) and he said that his parents had split up, and they were kinda BRIBING him to be happy and not make a fuss about it. He seems content with this. Obviously he seemed devastated that his parents are divorced now, but it means he gets a PRETTY BLOODY AMAZING allowance. i.e more than he was earning each month.

This kinda annoyed me.

Not the fact that he was leaving me (that is kinda a contributing factor to my annoyance!) but the fact that he kinda has... an escape route, if that makes sense. He was working to get money, but now he didnt need that anymore.

When I stopped working at SUPERDRUG I was freaking out about starving and living in the streets (well, not THAT bad.. but I was getting stressed out about money).

I am embarrased to admit it, but my parents do not give me an allowance. As in, ZILCH.

They said that once I got a job I wouldn't need an allowance, which is kinda fair enough. I SURVIVE and if I had any more money I would spend it on candy (Katy hates me saying 'candy' because its American, but I love ittt!!). So ever since I got a paper round (when I was 12) I haven'y had any allowance. Or pocket money. At every opportunity I can I rant about how unfair this is to my parents.. they used to give me £3 a week (£1 for candy, £2 to save up for socialising) but now I cannot even ask for money to borrow. I have to pay it back ASAP if I dont have any money.

I am embarrased to admit that. But in a way it has made me more independent, appreciative of money when I DO have a birthday/babysitting/pay day and hard-working. I like the fact that working in two stores has beefed up my CV, my work experience AND my purse :)

But some days, when I get really stressed out an tired, I wish I could get money for nothing. If my parents were richer I would take advantage of that. It depresses me sometimes when I talk to people at college about their holidays/weekends and they have been travelling/buying stupidly-expensive clothes, all expenses paid by their parents.

I know that money isnt everything, and Hampshire is supposed to be a PRETTY wealthy area (especially Chandlers Ford, posh twits!) but I am gutted that Alex is ditching me.

I know this sounds like a really moany, ungrateful blog. I am pretty content with my life though. I just hate how I have to work 8hours a week and do babysitting until 1am and do chores at home for no money. Whenever I bring it up with my parents they say I am ungrateful/selfish/ 'what about the poverty-striken third world countries?'

But Alex getting paid almost £100 a month to sit on his arse and eat cookies doesnt seem fair.

BUT.

I have a lovely family (albeit PRETTY weird).

I have lovely friends,

I have a lovely man-friend.

I have time to sit on my arse and eat cookies SOMETIMES (normally its nutella sarnies though)

Basically, this blog has NO point. Except a bit of a rant at all my Jack-Wills minions and their silly rich 'rents.

On a lighter note, I am reading 'Belle Du Jour's Secret Diary of a London Call Girl'

Which is the EPITOME of chicklit/erotic lit. It is actually disgusting. But she is SO funny.

I will try and find a funny quote...

'Its a public health issue. I am sleeping with tonnes of guys, sometimes with, sometimes without a condom. We are in an age when their are diseases flying all over the place. People going partying and drinking and wake up in the morning wondering what you did (and WHO you did) last night... and so I could catch ANYTHING. Its a massive concern for me because there is no such thing as paid sick leave for a 'working girl'.... so I want to set your minds at ease as much as I can. I want you to know... I have had a flu jab.'

It is such a funny book. Almost as good as the series :P

Guten tag! :)

p.s 'auf-lauf' is apparently german for souflee? correct me if i am wrong.. :)

This post is LONGGG and full of random things. Happy et Sad. :S

2010-01-25T13:40:00.000-08:00

I have this weird obsession with writing lists. On my phone, in my calendar, I have to list everything I plan to do. I have lists of movies and music I want to buy, birthdays coming up, things I need to do this summer :] It used to be lists of simple things that I used to write.. I need a new coat/new jeans, I need to get a birthday prezzy for this person.

But I was looking through some previous calendar posts on my phone, only to find things listed such as THIS:

‘Grab shower before Nick steals it’

‘Don’t forget sandwich from fridge’

‘Charge phone’

‘Unplug laptop’

And I think that this has gone TOO FAR.

However, I now have this notebook (which is practically my bible) in which I write down a massive list of things I need to do/buy. I had a panic attack today when I realised I bought the wrong notebook. I DIDN’T EVEN NEED MY LISTS!

I am such a freak.

I have been getting really stressed out at the moment. Mainly freaking out about new job&uni&whether to go to uni straight away&open days&planning holidays& sorting birthdays and now I know why everyone says January is the worst month! BECAUSE IT IS GAY. I had to leave Media early so I could have a little freak-out in the loos.

Hugs, please :]

Some people are being a little helpful with my whole stress thing. Some people are not.

There was a bit of a palava on facebook over the weekend. Everytime I looked through my news feed, something about someone called ‘Tom Hay’ turned up. I have no idea who he is, so I assumed it was spam. It wasn’t until I read a message from Matthew Green to this guy that I understood…

I have spent so much time complaining about stupid things. Like money, and sulky friends, lack of phone credit, lack of me-time, lack of sleep, lack of clothes, lack of clothes.

But I have never been properly affected by death.

Howabout complaining about a lack of friend. Lack of parents. Lack of classmate.

I feel really silly now, and pretty selfish. I always want more MONEY and more STUFF and I want to be richer and prettier and thinner and smarter. Why am I never content with what I have? If one of my friends died RIGHT NOW (touch BLOODY wood) what the hell would I do? I don’t think I appreciate my friends enough, because it seems as though I never have time for them.

I have lost a grandparent (who lived in Scotland and I wasn’t overly close to) and various rabbits and guinea pigs and fish. I know MANY people who have lost someone they love. HOW DO THEY COPE? I have never fully appreciated how lucky I am. The worse thing that has affected was my Grandma ending up in hospital quite recently. (I am still unsure as to WHY) but she is fit as a fiddle, thanks to golf. Noone in my close family has experienced cancer. Other than impending obesity, I think as long as we look after ourselves we might be OK.

But what about spontaneous things? My friends friend was hit by a car when he was cycling not to long ago, and was in a coma for MONTHS. But I also have my ‘friends-friends-aunts-friends-mums-cousins-grans-friend’ vibe to hide behind. I think even if someone I barely KNEW died, it would be unbearable…

It seems a bit pathetic that I am getting worried about extended project, or coursework. Obviously it is important, but I cannot imagine how Tom’s friends feel. How his family feels.

This is such a depressing blog. But I want you guys to know that I love you. (and spread the word!)

The moral of THIS story is: please don’t die.

Extended Project = FAIL/

2010-01-25T10:46:00.001-08:00

My extended project person is a fool.

I was supposed to be seeing him about my latest installment (which I had to frantically do last night whilst babysitting and watching Coraline!) and when I went to see him today he said he was covering a lesson. I guess this is fair enough because my Sociology teacher wasn't in today so WE had to have a cover, but it was still annoying. I am SCREWED in terms of my extended project. =/ I wish I was more motivated, but at the moment I am tired all the time and stressed out all the time and E.P is not my main priority! =/

I have had a weird weekend. My sister was home for the weekend so she could have a chance to talk to my parents about boy problems. But it was SO sad. When she left to got back to Exeter she seemed fine (pretty excited to get rid of me, I bet!) but when she came round on Friday, she was a mess to be honest and everything in the WORLD reminded me of her. When I said the word 'football' or 'boules' she would get upset. Whenever I mentioned anything to do with Adam she would get upset. When I offered her a hug she got upset. I didnt have a lot of time to talk to her alone, (and anyways, I didnt want to pry too much!) because I had work/she was out doign some retail therapy with her friends...

I just hope shes OK.

The moral of THIS blog is: Men can be bastards. Never let them out of your sight or they will go into someone elses PANTS. :P

This is a fact that until recently, I did not know was true =/

We had an odd discussion in Media about superheroes, and how attractive they were. Then we discussed whether Buzz Lightyear was a buffting, and whether Mr Potato Head could be considered as a superhero because he helped his wife cross the road…

My media class may be pretty Jack Wills-y, but they are an odd bunch :]

Ohh, about JW! My mum got me a Jack Wills top, which means that I may have to get disowned my several friends, and be considered hypocritical. But I don’t mind =] I quite like it!

Whoa, this is a pointless blog….

I'm tell ya ONE TIMEEEE...(8)

2010-01-24T01:30:00.000-08:00

I watched a music video that annoyed me SO much.

Basically, this rapper invites this 12 year old to a party. This 12 year old is WAY up for it, invites this girl he likes and then tries to hook up with this girl.

Justin Bieber: 'One Time.'

WHEN I WAS HIS AGE (according to wikipedia he is 15, not 12) I WAS PLAYING WITH POKEMON CARDS AND BOYS HAD TO BE AVOIDED LIKE SWINE FLU.

Catch boys, Kill Boys, Bin Boys :) the motto for BOY flu.

Basically in this music video this cutsie-pie boy is trying to act a decade older than he is. MASSIVE HOUSE PARTY, LOADS OF FIT GIRLS.

And the lyrics are even more annoying. At fifteen I didnt care whether I had a boyfriend or not, I was happy frollicking around all care-free and lovely.

I have just been hunting for ONE line of the song that doesnt annoy me. and i failed.

So I was have to copy pretty much ALL of it.

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop
And even though it's a struggle love is all we got
And we gon' keep keep climbing to the mountain top

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep, you know that it humbles me
You're by my side, them troubles them not trouble me
Many have called but the chosen is you
Whatever you want shawty I'll give it to you

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart

Shawty right there
She's got everything I need
And I'ma tell her one time
Give you everything you need down to my last dime

She makes me happy
I know where I'll be
Right by your side
'Cause she is the one

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
One time, one time

Now I generally DO NOT like pop music. But this takes the piss (I apologize to anyone who likes this song.. but if I find out that you DO, i may have to kill you!)

In a way, this song is kinda cute. CHEESY, but cute just the same.

The thing that annoys me is the fact that this pretty boy Zac Efron-ish dude feels such a NEED to get a girlfriend. And act all hard. And sell pop music disguised as r&b. And dress like a chav. And basically act older than he is.

Basically,I have been reading this book (it was supposed to be for my extended project, but its actually quite interesting so I have started reading it properly) called 'Whats happening to our girls?'. The book is about how childhood is shrinking and kids are growing up much faster than they used to. Girls are becoming more interested in make-up and fashion and how thin they are and SEX and guys are more interested in fashion and how buff they are and SEX.

I am not sure where this rant is going, but I wish that kids could be kids, rather than being self-conscious/ wanting to dress up like sluts.

My cousin tagged me in some (pretty embarrasing) pictures of me recently, and they are all from the 1990s. In some I have short hair, in some I have long. In some I look like a boy, in others I still look like a boy.

But I had FUN and I didnt care what people thought and I could have different haircuts and wear my sisters hand-me-downs and muck around and play and BE A KID.

There was a documentary on BBC over xmas called 'The History of now' and it was about the noughties and how our lives changed in the last 10 years and how our societies have developed (sounds boring but as a wannabe sociology graduate its SO interesting) and a lot of emphasis was on young people, basically being whores.

Nick got his first girlfriend yesterday, and today they are not together anymore :(

GET IN THERE ROSS!! :P

and hes growing up SO fast and the cutsie-pie side of him is disappearing. he doesnt have a curfew, my parents dont really care where he is a long as hes back for dinner, and hes getting more bossy.

To conclude, when/if I have kids I want them to be KIDS for at least.. 12 years..

and I want them to be happy and merry and not pressurised into looking a certain way or having the yummiest lovers.

Yeah.

I joined a facebook group called 'Justin Bieber - you don't love that girl, you are only 12..' which pretty much sums up my point :)

Dance like you're the only one around...

2010-01-23T08:21:00.000-08:00

I wish that driving was like Crash Bandicoot Crash Team Racing, because then you have one button which means go. One button that means reverse. One button that helps you vent out your road rage, and throw bombs at people.

But it is not like that. SHAME.

I had my induction at Matalan today, and the people are SO nice and I am really excited about my first shift tomorrow! My mum is happy because she can nick my spare discount card, and I am happy because the pay is GOOD :)

Also, one of my old friends from Thornden (who goes to BP now) works there apparently, but she doesn't work the same days as me :'(

I hope that work committments will not prevent me from relaxing. When I had my socio exam today I was frantically cramming in some last-minute revision during lunch.. Katy kept persuading me to put the notes away and CHILL, and commented on the fact that I never relax. WHICH IS TRUE! SO SO TRUE!

I always need to be doing something and working and revising and stuff. Going to workshops over lunch and living in Ashurst in my frees. I have dozens of books on my shelf that I haven't read yet, loads of DVDs I haven't watched yet, loads of friends I haven't seen for ages :(

I NEED TO JUST SLEEP AND RELAX AND HAVE PAMPERING BATH SESHS MORE OFTEN.

Because I do get overloaded and I so get stressed out and I never have enough me-time, and i normally end up taking it out on someone else =/

I was absent-mindedly looking through an article of 'Two's company' (basically one of those things when you write in and try and hook up with someone.. I can't remember the name of it.. a personal ad?). I am always intrigued about the type of people who submit these 20-word things (mainly single mums, or over 50s!) and I was thinking about what I would write in a singles ad.

17yr old vertically-challenged and retarded brunette N/S, likes shopping, Tekken, Star Trek and nutella, WLTM similar-aged guy for holding hands and maybe more? GSOH and yummy, please.

that sums me up, pretty much :)

MANY THINGS

2010-01-22T10:16:00.000-08:00

I have many things to talk about.

I may have to finish this blog tomorrow. THAT IS HOW MUCH I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT. haha

First up, just had my socio exam which went OK... I revised SO much about secularisation and science and neither of them came up :( but at least I answered the right question this time :D

Second up, I have training tomorrow at work which I am SO SO excited about. But nervous too. Apparently Kathy is going to gatecrash, and probably embarrass me

Kathy is home for the weekend because of boy-trouble :( But I might go to town with her to be her Gok Wan and get her hair done.. so she will feel right as rain :)

Also, my brother has a GIRLFRIEND!

I told him that I wouldn't tell anyone.. but I think that means in the family. Noone who reads this blog will really care.. (except maybe Ross, sorry love! You must be heartbrokenn!!) but I got excited :D

The things is, I had my first lover when I was his age.. and it lasted for FOUR hours. =/

But I have wished him luck, and offered him relationship advice.

AND THE GIRL HE IS GOING OUT WITH IS SO PRETTY!

If only she knew how weird he is..

But I am excited, because Nick is a ledge.

But I think that he is a potential manwhore.

Oh well, as long as he doesn't get STDs :D .... or make anyone preggers :)

Also, I blogged a few days ago about these EVIL jack wills people..

the guy who was having sex behind his girlfriends back, and the girl who didnt like her boyfriend because he wasn't rich?

I was eavesdropping on the bus today (kinda miffed about socio so in no mood to socialise!)

The thing is, these people I KNOW.

They went to my secondary school (the guy went to my primary school.. WHEN WILL I BLOODY ESCAPE HIM!?) and the girl I used to be quite good friends with because last year she was in my history class. Anyways...

BOY: (generally bragging about how awesome he is) Yeah, I've done screen, I've done adverts, I've done theatre.

GIRL: I got paid £2000 for doing an advert for my mums company.

BOY: Yeah, well... I got paid £50 for appearing on Casualty, and I was in a swingball advert and I don't know how much I got but it was probably billions.

GIRL: I just really hope I get into this drama school, but it is real competitive.

BOY: Well, I just want to be famous.

GIRL: I enjoy theatre and drama so I don't mind if I am famous.. it would be nice to be successful..

BOY: I want to be famous so I an be rich and get laid. I wil have groupies. That would be awesome

GIRL: Are you sexually frustrated.

BOY: Yes. I like your tits (I AM NOT EVEN JOKING, HE FREAKING SAID THIS)

GIRL: Haha, don't touch me up, you're not qualified yet! (I assume he is training to be a doctor... or a Hugh Heffner?)

BOY: Soon though. I have been accepted into 3 unis at the mo, woo!

GIRL: Well, if you are rich and successful, I will take advantage of your money. Then you can touch me up (I THINK she was joking!)

BOY: Ok, I look forward to that.

Then the girl got embarrased and starting talking to me about history. I was pretty shocked. That guy is a prick.

Oh I will finish this blog tomorrow. I am tired.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend.

The moral of this story is.. don't touch up girls unless you have a PhD :)

Just keep running

2010-01-21T13:37:00.000-08:00

Today was another odd day.

I found out that one of my friends has scoliosis.

I found that another one of my friends is a lesbian.

NOBODY TELLS ME NOTHING.

I find lesbians intriguing. I am only close to about 3... but I always expect lesbians to be all butch and aggressive and feminist but they are all AMAZING :)

I went for a run today.. for no reason. but it was refreshing (and i have learnt to avoid busy roads... busy roads = more embarrasment because more people see you!)

but it was really nice to just listen to music that i hadnt listened to for ages and just chill..

But when i got home my mum was like YOU HAVE AN EXAM TOMORROW, YOU FOOL!

BED/REVISE!

Ohh, and you know those 'your mum' jokes/sayings?

I said one that cracked me up. Because it was true :)

Jen: Nick, can I borrow your headphones?

Nick: WHY? They are mine! Don't you have your own?

Jen: I have lost them. I want to go running. Can I borrow your headphones?

Nick: Um.. they don't work

Jen: Argghh! YOUR MUM DOESN'T WORK!!

(which is true, and therefore is funny)

OK IT WAS A BE-THERE MOMENT!!!

me and nick, comedy duo :)

Crap towns :D

2010-01-20T08:11:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was an odd day.

Two cars collided in front of me on the way to college – I was literally METRES away from them. It was scary. There are still some smashed up car pieces on the road. Luckily no one was hurt :]

In first aid, Valerie asked me whether anyone would go back into a burning building if I was in there.. hurt and DYING. Only Verity said yes. (NB: I am not just hated by my whole group.. as first aiders we aren’t supposed to go into burning buildings! But still, I felt a little unloved. And embarrassed.)

I had my cervical cancer jab, and it didn’t hurt, LUCKILY. It just aches now, but on the way to the surgery my mum asked me if I could take a book back into the library. It was a book called ‘Baby names.’ OMG IS MY MUM PREGNANT? (ew, that means my parents had S-E-X)

No. She isn’t. She was just helping out at this youth club and she needed it to help her with a game, or something..

I HOPE SHE IS NOT LYING.

Anyways, I was going to have to rush for my appointment, and didn’t have time to return the book. But it was SO embarrassing taking a ‘Baby names’ book into the library. But I had a flick through (my name in Welsh is Guinevere!) and I got a LOT of odd looks from women and young cervical-jab people. I knew some of them as well, which made it awkward. Considering I look about 14 means that any POSSIBLY of being pregnant would be PRETTY shameful. (and another thing, my parents would kill me if I had babies before the age of… 40?)

:D today has been a bit blah though. Starting freaking out about my Socio exam. Socio revision workshop cancelled so I am freaking out EVEN MORE. Don’t feel very well. Arm hurts. Generally ill.

BLAH.

But I got an offer from Surrey, so WOO!

In English last year we were discussing a book called 'Crap Towns' (and I was one of the few who hadn't read it) Basically, these two guys set up a website where people can rant about where they live in Britain, or places they have visited which were icky. They then collect these rants and go to the places themselves and rant about them too.

ANYWAYS

WINCHESTER IS NUMBER #5 in the top 50 'crap towns' in the UK!

Whyyy?

apparently it is scarred by 'broken-beer bottle violence' and the houses are expensive. there was one incident when this guy was attacked by gangs. it happens everywhere. WHY WINCHESTER!??

I don't understand.

Primark might be coming to Winchester this summer (replacing BHS in the Brooks)

oh.

THAT'S why its number five :D

I love Primark. It's going to mess up the Cath Kidston/Jack Wills/LK Bennett/Jaeger vibe though.

WOO!

Oh my, its a pie in the sky.

2010-01-18T10:33:00.000-08:00

I will say the random thing of the day first.

I have a song stuck in my head. And not just ANY song. In year 6, Hiltingbury did a production of 'The Peace Child' ... (no, i havent heard of it either!)

And the song stuck in my head is the song we had to sing (I was in the Wonnikiki tribe, and my name was Hunga!) before the Wonnikiki's passed on the baby (the PEACE CHILD) to the Satongis..

I KNOW. I think the playwright was on crack when he wrote the play too..

I will give you a snippet of the song..

(8) Hi-ya, you- tom-bia. Mm-bada-mm-dio. Hi-ya, you tom-bia, you tom-bia- mm-day-oh. Hi-ya tom-ah keet ahh, Hi-ya-bmm-die-yahhh. (8)

SERIOUSLY.

AND I WAS SINGING THIS IN THE SHOWER.

WEIRD, EH?

Also, I had an odd conversation with my driving instructor today.

I will include stage directions, in case anyone wants to include this scene in an EXTENDED PROJECT (Katie, COUGH)

I am kidding, that would be a TERRIBLE mistake.

Tony: I AM GOING TO SNEEZE!!

(does so)

(applies soap stuff)

Tony: Kill it, Bin it.

Jennie: That is like the swine flu ad! The guy in the ad looks like Dr Kelso from Scrubs.

(Tony looks blank)

Jennie: I went to a festival last year and the soap in the portable loos was GROSS. It practically burned the cells of your hands.

Tony: I hate portable loos. But we are lucky. We can stand up.

(Jennie looks blank. Realises that he is talking about her lack of penis, and lack of ability therefore to pee standing up. Uh-huh. WEIRD CONVERSATION APPROACHING!)

Jennie: That is true..

Tony: But you know how to solve that problem?

Jennie: Girls use a shee-pee?

(Tony hahaha)

Jennie: Girls AVOID portable loos and instead use loos in the grandstand?

(Tony haha)

Jennie: Girls HOVER? [this was a brilliant plan mentioned to me by my friend Gemma, and it had never occured to me. I usually deal with public loos by process of IGNORING.]

(Tony disgusted)

Tony: WHAT THE HELL? THAT IS GROSS. WHAT THE F_CKK JEN!

Hahah.

good times.

I had a nice day today :)

Sometimes people can be douchebags.

2010-01-15T09:26:00.001-08:00

The initial plan for my blog title was 'Sometimes boys can be douchebags' but girls can be pretty twattish too.

I don't normally judge people before I have properly met them (unless they SEEM posh/chavvy, haha!) but there was this girl and this boy sitting by me in Ashurst who really made me feel disappointed at the human race.

Basically, they are the epotime of the word TWAT.

I will just give you a snippet of their conversation.

Girl : OMG you are such a bitch. I mean you are a proper c*nt.

Boy : I KNOW, I KNOW.

Girl : But she is definitely too ugly for you. I mean, shes pretty fat.

Boy : She's nice, but...

Girl : Did you see her at Shane's party? She was all red in the face.

Boy : You know when you watch a movie and there's a nice guy who falls in love with a nice girl but the nice girls got a crap boyfriend? I'm the crap boyfriend. I must have slept with at least 6 other girls since we've been going out.

Girl : I wish that Dave would cheat on me. Then it would be easier to get rid of him

Boy : He doesn't seem your type...

Girl : I know. I found out he shops in GAP. He is not rich.

At this point I try and slyly turn towards the girl (we are on the PCs, and its hard to not look like I am staring.) excepting someone really glamorous, to justify her bitchiness.

She is not that pretty (although prettiness is not an excuse to be a bitch to your boyfriend) and HE wasn't that pretty either! (although prettiness is not an excuse to be a bitch to your girlfriend!!)

Some of my friends (mainly the more Jack-Wills buddies) treat their boyfriends SO harshly, (or did, before they broke up!)

I know that at Thornden, some people hooked up because it was COOL and holding hands was COOL and kissing was COOL.

But I kinda hoped that everyone had grown out of it..

In my main group of friends I am surrounded by people who are so in love, and even if they have tiny tiffs they really only have love for each other, and CARE about their boyfriends/girlfriends and enjoy being with their lovers. I found this shocking that people STILL judged potential lovers by how rich they were... how JW-ish they were... how pretty they were...

I have met some people at Symonds who are really posh/rich/snobby, but they are still REALLY nice to chat to, and they are real people. When they date they choose someone who suits them. I know its bad to eavesdrop on conversations but revision was BORING and although this conversation made me want to STAB them (haha!) it made me realise how lucky I am.. to have a group of friends who judge me by my personality/retardedness.. who I can have a fun time with... and a boyfriend who I really like spending time with and care about and don't want to get hurt... rather than being with people because they are spoilt and have money given to them on a silver platter and get £100000 allowance a month XD

I love you, friends :)

I LOVE MY BROTHER

2010-01-08T14:14:00.001-08:00

'I think that you should go off your laptop at 9pm because when I went on at 9:30 Mum had a go at me. Mum says I am only allowed on my XBOX until 9pm. I think you'll have a go at her because you're a girl and girls are bitchy and hormonal and periods and you go KABOOM.'

'what?'

'Your hormones go kaboom. I was talking to mum about menopause and she says that you get infertile and your hormones go KABOOM!!!!'

I love my brother :)

Nicholas Arthur Whittington. <3

Um... OKAYYY..

2010-01-07T09:58:00.000-08:00

My brothers friends are odd..

'In the water cycle, there is precipitation, evaporation, and condensation. Condensation is my favourite because I like it when things get steamy.'

'I like precipitation because its like Jesus is peeing on us.'

'If man boobs were invented before GIRL boobs, then it would be boobs and girl boobs. Instead of moobs and boobs. Or it would be man boobs and GOOBS.'

:)

Alas, my family is not the only weird one!

I was in Somerfield a second ago with my dad, and these drunk people were in there, shouting 'Ce sera sera!' 'Whatever will be!' Really loudly. Smashing wine bottles and stuff.

One of them (NB: the one that smelt the worst and was the ugliest) came up to me and did that butt-squeezy gesture thing and starting wolf-whistling. I have never been so scared in my life :(

The little things give you away....

2010-01-07T05:05:00.000-08:00

- The little things give you away by Linkin Park <3

The little things in life are the things that have really been getting on my nerves at the moment.

People bitching about people I love.
The snow preventing me from seeing Avatar, and my boyfriend.
My mum preventing me from having breakfast (long story)
My laptop being generally gay
My brothers friends staying for a sleepover and waking up insanely early and being noisy (the wall between his and my room is THIN!)
Snow being cold.
My sister nicking my legwarmers
People not replying to texts or FACEBOOK MESSAGES
People who are all 'Me, Me, Me'
Christmas making me obese.
Snow making me NOT go to college, which means I can go on iplayer rather than revise.
College making me revise for exams. (haha.)
Being taught english lit/lang in AS by someone who CANNOT teach, and is boring. Leading me to haver to resit my exam, and causing me to panic about the fact that I have NO knowledge of any of the texts in the anthology.
The only revision I have done for english since the snow is writing 'Notes for English exam' on a BLANK piece of paper. oops.
Not having the self discipline to work on my extended project....
Being addicted to 1vs100 on my brothers XBOX, that I get really competitive and threaten to assassinate him if he gets the answer wrong. (yeah, instead of being addicted to spyro, assassins creed or other 'cool' games, I am addicted to a game that is FREE, and SHIT.)

Rant over.

My life is complete though, because:

- I now know who my real friends are
- HUSTLE IS BACK!<3
- Nurse Jackie is also amazing
- The snow is actually pretty, and I like it when strangers talk to me about snow like they have known me for years (but I will still not get into strangers cars, so don't worry!)
- Suzy brought a tea tray to the rec yesterday so we could sleigh, and it was SO fun (except sledging on my front was SO scary!)
- I had a clown cookie from Pauls Patisserie, which reminded me of THORNDEN obesity. I was obessed with them. Now I miss them
- Apart from the fact that they wear Jack Wills and Hollister now instead of Primark and H&M, a lot of my old friends ARE the same as they have always been!! woo! :)
- Being away from a certain someone just makes me miss him more, and realise how I should appreciate when we are together more :)
- I have finally manage to have the self-control to actually exercise instead of eat chocolate santas (unlike YESTERDAY!) Used my 'twist stepper' and cycling machine for the first time since... 2008? and I feel buff. Haha.
- Getting nice emails from supportive friends when I feel in a fuzzle :)
- Rather than sitting in my room and sulking or watching TV online like a slob, I have started doing constructive things like making revision planners, letters for work experience and job applications.
- Talking to friends that I havent spoken to for ages. Realising how much they HAVE changed - for the better. More confident, more honest etc.

Anyways, I g2g. I am running out of things to distract me from my english revision. eepp!!
Hopefully we will have no college tomorrow :) x

How depressing.

2010-01-05T08:16:00.000-08:00

The xmas decorations are down.

The bluestar buses are messed up because of some stupid bridge being rebuilt (which means I have to get the 7:14 bus if I want to get to college on time. and i hate waking up earlyy!)

It is raining at the moment, instead of snowing like everyone predicted.

I forgot my umbrella today so I am soggy.

I had first aid today and realised taht my certificate is only going to last three years, so technically it is a waste of time.

I also had japanese (WHY THE HELL DID I SIGN UP FOR TWO ACTIVITIES!?) and it is really quite hard. we only got past 'hello' 'how are you' and 'goodbye' and its HARD.

and i got a text today telling me my next cervical cancer jab is due =/

BUT, life is not over. NUTELLA IS BACK IN THE HOUSE. woo :)

Hope all my HUNDREDS of blog readers are well :P

Oh dear.

2010-01-03T03:13:00.001-08:00

My english teacher would not be pleased.

NO PARAGRAPHING IN PREVIOUS BLOG POST!

oops.

CBA

2010-01-03T02:51:00.001-08:00

Ever since the end of Christmas day, I have started getting really stressed out.
My parents aren't really helping.
They've been trying to sort out our summer hols (either America or Europe, which narrows it down...!) so if I try and talk to them about something I need help with, or something that is worrying me, I just get my head bitten off.
Which is annoying, considering recently they said that if there is anything that is getting me down, they should be the first to talk to me to about it.
But I don't feel like I can talk to my parents about much. If I tell my mum something private, she tells dad. V.V. although its kinda understandable, it makes me worried about who else she talks to about me (apparently my WHOLE family, according to some awkward phone convos I've had recently)
My first port of call when I have an issue is always Adam. :)
But I don't normally get too stressed out about stuff, and if I do its normally me getting stressed out about lack of nutella in the house or lack of Apprentice on the TV :P
My parents have been pretty immature about a lot of stuff too. They have to make a big deal out of nothing.
When I was invited to Andrews for his birthday/new years they had to have a MEETING about it to discuss whether I would get raped/drunk/DEAD.
I've slept over at Andrews a few times, and they always have to make a big deal about it.
Sorry, I feel like this is a massive rant against my parents, but it is kinda therapeutal. (can't spell that word!)
They can be SO supportive at times, yet other times they can be twats.
In sociology last year we did a bit of stuff about family, and whether the middle child in a family is the invisible one. I feel that sometimes. Kathy is awesome because she is really smart and doesn't have a dangerous social life and she has a perfect relationship with her bf of 2.5 years and my parents respect her and him. Nick is awesome because he is the beauty of the family and he has loads of friends and hes funny and has woman's legs and is basically real skinny (whereas mum makes me feel shit about my figure. I like Ben&Jerrys, ok? GET OVER IT!) Considering I am SUPPOSEDLY starting uni next year, I feel like sometimes my parents don't give a toss. Kathy seemed to cope well so I will be fine. Wait, we have THREE children? I thought we had TWO?
FORFUCKSSAKE
Its only minor things thats stressing me out, like sorting out student finance and getting a job and sorting work experience and revising and the fact that I don't sleep or drink much anymore.
I woke up this morning feeling so drained and dead.
Also I have been looking forwards to meeting up with some mates this weekend, who I haven't seen for ages, and both groups cancelled on me.
GREAT. I guess it is good in a way, I would be pretty depressing to talk to. But I just hate it when people let me down. If I can't make a shindig or have to cancel something I will beg for forgiveness and bribe them with cake before they like me again :)
Hooray for college tomorrow.
I just cant be botthered.
My driving instructors been kinda bullying me as well. If I am good at one maneouvre, I am crap at indicating/changing gear or something. Vice versa. And he seems to get reallymad. IAM SLOW AT LEARNING FOR GODS SAKE. The number of times I have been tempted to ditch him is CRAZY, but I've just paid £200 for lessons and it would be too much hassle changing person.
One of my friends who has him as an instructor (and started after me) is apparently booking her test, and he keeps going on about it. I remind him that she has her own car, and I can't get insured because its too expensive (bloody people carrier!) but yeah, it pisses me off.

On a lighter note, I found Twilight: New Moon online and now I have FINALLY seen it.
YES.

Over and out.

In the next issue of JENNY BEAN'S BLOG, I will be chirpy and happy.
I feel like making a list of the sexiest over-40s. YUM.

Christmas and New Year.

2009-12-27T07:04:00.000-08:00

Christmas is over, so everyone in my family is free to make fun of each other and bully each other without worrying that we may not get any prezzies...

:P

Christmas was nice :] went to a nativity thing with my teeny cousins who are SO adorable :] lots of cheesy xmas movies and TV (was a bit disappointed with BBC's showing of RSC Hamlet.... David Tennant isn't great as Hamlet) =S

I GOT A LAPTOP :] exciting stuff :] now i Don't have to bully Nick off the PC when he is just on Farmville!!

and I got loadsa money and chocs and clothes and YAY :]

I hope everyone had a nice day :]

bit worried about New Year though...

me and my sister have both promised to EAT LESS CHOC and now i regret that..

New Years Resolutions.... they never work for me :]

In year 9 my NYR was to have a boyfriend by Valentines Day :] the guy I really liked (who apparently really liked me too) found out from SOMEONE about this NYR and thought I was really shallow for having this as my NYR. So when I declared my love to him he basically squished my heart like a bug.

:( i dont like boys.

My NYRs this year:

- Eat less choc (UNLIKELY!)
- start going to symonds gym again. at least 1x / 2x a week! (UNLIKELY!)
- stop watching miranda/nmtb/ugly betty on 4od/iplayer DURING ASHURST FREES!
- actually do some extended project stuffs.
- be less selfish. volunteering/help mum more (well i AM volunteering at a youth club at the rec! wooo, this NYR might workk!)
- know who my REAL REAL REAL friends are, and never ditch them.
- wake up earlier, and walk to the bus stop WITHOUT mia if she is late (i have missed the bus too many times because of her and its not worth it!)
- always reply to texts AS SOON AS IT IS READ. (esp if the sender is 'Batfink x')
-Open up more - to my parents and my buddies (a mistake I made recently was not talking to anyone about how i was feeling, and instead pretended to be fine and dandy. only a select few know how i really felt - EVENTUALLY.)

i think that is all for now :] they are pretty realistic i reckon!!

.... maybe!

hope you all have a happy new year :]

"Excuse me, is your refrigerator running? Because if it is, it probably runs like you - very homosexually."

2009-12-23T08:24:00.000-08:00

After some minor bullying (from a certain GEORGE FRANK OWEN BARK!) i have decided to update my blog.

aahhh, it has been a while!

Christmas is soon, which is exciting news :)

I think I have ALL my pressies, and am now broke. FOREVER.

anddd my dear sister keeps bugging me about saving money for uni (shes just finished her first year and has a £7000 debt!) no new shoes for me :(

my life is ok though :) birmingham uni is my fave but apparently theres been a bit of bitchy conflict between the main sociology lecturers, so they may cancel the course until 2013.

which is bull, tbh.

So today I was frantically ringing UCAS to change my course, applied to Surrey instead :)

My sociology teacher gave me an xmas pressy today. THREE ESSAYS IN ONE FOLDER.

thanks, mr bennett. =/ I got A, B and A/B though, so its all good :)

had an interesting convo with my brothers friend on the way to BEASTLEIGH today. apparently he was kissed on the cheek by a girl 'and i felt my willy go stiff'

nice. he is 12. first experience of an erection. hopefully his LAST. ew.

my brother went on a blind date today, to the cinema. MUCH TEASING ENSUED.

had a driving lesson today and my instructor insisted we 'frollick in the snow' which could sound like he was a paedophile, but he just wanted me to take some pics for facebook.

my instructor is weird. he likes pointing our pigeons 'ELLO PECKY!' and everytime he sees me he bugs me about adding him on 'the book of face' (facebook, for human speak)

i reckon if he wasnt a driving instructor he would be one of those people who pose as pre-teens online and meet up with young girls they meet on ukchatterbox.com (which i will explain later!) and RAPE THEM.

my friend mia used to go on ukchatterbox.com, which was basically a chatroom forum thing for PAEDOPHILES. when i didnt have the magic of msn (which was up until about year 11!) i used to shimmy into her house and go online, while she would be a bad HOST and watch TV or text guys she had never met.

but i went on ukchatterbox.com and it was CRAZY.

Example.

Hello, nice to meet you. My name is Jennie. I like Powerpuff Girls and rainbows and flowers and pixies and snowflakes.

Yo, babes. What you wearing?

I am wearing my favourite slippers, they have ponies on.

I meant like, what undies are you wearing?

... are you naked yet?

I am horny.

Want to meet up for fun times?

Where do you live?

the scary thing about talking to these people, apart from the fact that a lot of them were in their early 20s and were probably touching themselves up when I told them that I like nutella, was that a suspicious amount of them seemed to know that I lived in Chandlers Ford (i.e MIA lived in Chandlers Ford)

My mummy told me to not to talk to strangers and not to take drugs and to practise safe sex and always tell the truth and always eat my greens and never eat too much pie and always brush my teeth and always be friendly and NEVER TELL STRANGERS WHERE I LIVE!

I swear that girl is going to meet up with one of those guys at some point, and she will regret it.

/rant

la la la la la.

hope everyone has a fab christmas :) I got my tiny cousins coming over tomorrow, and family round after xmas

(i basically dislike ALL of my mums side of the family!)

and new yearsss!!

wooo :)

cheerio guys.

knowing me, I won't blog until 2010!!

:)

nfofnfksofbsuaoih8407rbvjdskgfyo. :)

2009-12-05T04:59:00.000-08:00

I have just realised that I have reached #100 in my blog entries :)
How exciting!

I feel bored.

EXCITED ABOUT CHRISTMAS.

But bored.

Got a dinner party at my friend Antoniaaaaa's house, which I am excited about :)

Fed up with extended project. Fed up with media coursework. Just had an argument with my Dad. Fed up with being ill.

Aaand about 30secs ago I finished watching our Arundel DVD that Awesome-Katie made for us. And I miss it. I don't think we will ever have the whole bunch of us back for rave numero deux.

But it was such a fun week and I wish it went on FOREVER.

Gah.

My mum is too cool.

2009-12-01T10:13:00.002-08:00

My brother was watching the Viva Top 10 hits earlier and Jay Sean 'Down' came on.

My mum practucally had a fit, she was so excited.

The One and Only song in the 21st Century that my mum likes has to be the SHITTEST.

gah.

My mum is too cool.

2009-12-01T10:13:00.001-08:00

Ho hum. Tweedle-Dum.

2009-11-30T12:41:00.000-08:00

You know when you have those moments when you are in a massive/semi-massive group of friends, and everyone is happy and smiley (excited about xmas, new twilight movie etc) and you still feel ALONE?

I've been getting that a lot atm.

I feel left out of some stuff and I am hormonal and get pissed off at little things.

However, sitting opposite the lift as the doors open to reveal a piece of card folded in the shape of a card which says 'Happy Birthday, from Downstairs'

That doesn't piss me off.

REPLYING to that message by writing 'Happy Christmas, Love Upstairs'

Makes me very happy too.

Ohh, the joys of John Shields :) Everyone is pleasant and friendly.

Is the youth club safe?

2009-11-17T09:41:00.000-08:00

There's a new youth club open in the Hilt Rec which my brother is interested in joining.
One of my friends helped to set it up, so I was considering volunteering there :]
But then I found out they provide condoms and sex advice.
Oh. Its THAT sort of age group.
I found it gross that a lot of my brothers friends (hopefully NOT my brother himself) were considering going occasionally, for the free condoms.
'LET'S GO TO THE YOUTH CLUB UNTIL 8:30 AND THEN GET SOME CRAZY GIRL LOVING. ON A SCHOOL NIGHT! OOHHHH!'
Apparently this club is for 11-16 year olds, and is 6:00- 8:30.
I find that EMBARRASING.
No teenage kid wants to be picked up from a youth club, with pockets stuffed with contraception at 8:30. 10pm would seem pretty badass. IT IS PAST YOUR CURFEW.

Another thing, theres a youth club just by the Winch train station (I can't think what its called atm... google says its called 'Twenty5') and there was a sign on the window, saying 'WE PROVIDE HEALTH ADVICE, CHLAMYDIA TESTS AS WELL AS COMDOMS AND LUBE'

1. ew.
2. fair enough if they are encouraging SAFE sex, but they're still kinda encouraging ANY sex. (everyone loves a freebie!)
3. They spelt 'Condom' like 'Comdom'. Are they like condoms with a free STI?

Like I said, everyone likes a freebie ;)

Gah.

2009-11-16T10:48:00.000-08:00

I am depressed.
NO UNIVERSITIES LIKE ME.
Maybe Symonds sent off a picture of my student ID, and neither Birmingham, Cardiff, Bristol or Sheffield like my FACE.

I have got one email from Bristol, which made me excited until I realised it was a note confirming they had got my applicationn...

But everyone I know seems to have at least ONE interview/offer...maybe even 4 or 5.

I feel lonely.

Maybe I will have to live at Symonds FOREVER!

I could work in Ashurst and liven it up a bit.

New Rule: Ashurst people must be HAPPY and distribute cake to people who look like they are working hard :)

Superdrug Bitch.

2009-11-09T11:53:00.000-08:00

I was so annoyed at work on saturday.

While I was covering Liz on cosmetics, I asked this woman if she needed any assistance (which I thought was pretty polite...I normally just talk to Chloe or fiddle with mascara...

Her: Do you have any face packs?
Me: Do you mean face masks? We have plenty...
Her: NO, not face masks, face PACKS. To cover blemishes.
Me: Foundation, do you mean?
Her: no.
Me: Concealer? I'm sorry, I don't know what you mean...
Her: Well I think you need a briefing, you clearly have no idea what you are doing. You need some training.

Now, because Liz is the main cosmetics advisor on Saturdays, I don't actually know A LOT about make-up. Obviously this woman wouldn't know this, but no need to get your knickers in a twistttt. Knickers in a twist. KNICKERS IN A TWIST. (its a song from Greenbelt, haha!)

I got pissed off at this woman. Fucking menopause.

P.S I just google'd face packs. THEY ARE THE SAME AS FACE MASKS. Jeeez.

A present. What is it? A sexually transmitted infection. Gee, thanks!

2009-11-06T12:45:00.000-08:00

In the ashurst loos today, I noticed they had new soap.

:O

I read what it said on the soap (maybe it was Superdrug soap? I don't know why I read it!)

On the label it read '[name of brand, can't remember what it was] WHERE AID COMES FIRST'

But I read it as '[name of brand, can't remember what it was] WHERE AIDS COME FROM'

That scared me.

So, I now have AIDs, on my hands :) kthxbi.

'Fire makes me kinky'

2009-11-06T11:42:00.000-08:00

Went to fireworks at Hiltingbury last night (and got some more fireworks loving planned tomorrow, hopefully it wont rain!)

Went with Lucy, Sabrina and Suzannah.

Met up with Gemma, and Alice (Lucy's sister) =/

After getting lost and tripping over various times in the dark, met up with some Symondians in the park.

While we were waiting for the fireworks, Gemma asked us if there was a method on how to give a guy a handjob.

Nice.

She's odd like that.

But I love her.

She is my BEST FRIEND :]

...i think I am hers too...

So yeah, that was interesting.

Then Sabrina was like 'If you need any sex advice, call me!'

Also nice.

After that lovely heart to heart we went into the school.

The shelves in the library were TINY and the doors were TINY and the sinks in the loo were TINY.

It was so weird but so cute :) I want to be a teacher now.

Then we spent about 10mins hiding in the loos from our old deputy head/my teacher in year 4&6, until Gemma started off a convo and was like 'THEY ARE HIDING FROM YOU BECAUSE THEY ARE EMBARRASED. SUZANNAH, DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM?'

Right in front of him.

Then we had a sparkler rave, which took ages because Sabrinas lighter had no fluid in it. I tried rubbing a sparkler on a rock to light it. IT DOES NOT WORK.

Then we stalked Becky&Pinchy and the PW crew.

I was offered gateau. It didnt look pleasant.

Some weird people were setting off fireworks in the middle of the rec.

They were intending to lose their FACE i think...

Ohh, and when we left the car park (Zanna can drive, WAHEYY!!) all the year 11s put their fingers up at us (well we WERE pretty lame and playing Cheryl Coles new album VERY loudly!!) then Sabrina said 'Something smells funny.' Lucy said 'MAYBE THEY PUT A FIREWORK IN THE EXHAUST!' haha. FUNNY.

So we spent 10mins freaking out, until we all managed to get out (convinced the car was about to explode)...

no firework.

and I was back home for my bedtime.

9pm :P

Je suis malheureuse :(

2009-10-28T09:19:00.000-07:00

I apologise blog fans (although there is only about...3 of you!) for my lack of blog-ness. I have been SO busy partying and rave-ing and being coool.

Ho hum.

I have ACTUALLY been busy with overtime and media cw and socio essay(s!) and english coursework and extended project, which is slowly killing me. Like katie, J'ai writers block :( and writers block doesn't go well with LAZINESS.

I'll be honest, I would rather watch Monsters Inc. than write about a topic that I USED to find interesting, and now bores the crap out of me =/

Today this is going to be a half happy blog, half sad blog. Maybe even 1/4 happy, 3/4 sad.

SAD: I am ill. I just did 5 hours at work and I spent the whole time trying not to die, rather than remembering to give people their stamps =/

HAPPY: I have 2 new buddies at Superdrug! (Well, maybe 1.5. One is a FRIEND, the other is an ACQUAINTANCE. Emily James <3 and Rachael Beckingham :) (she was a Thornden kid, and her mum helped out with us Foood Tech kids!! Woo!!)

And I am excited. I also feel very WISE and OLD. I hope to show them some tricks that will benefit them, and will prevent any surprises in terms of....THE TILLS. dun dun dunnnnnn.

SAD: I miss Thornden. I saw my deep-voiced, gruff Systems Control&ICT teacher (Mr Ashmannn!) on the bus, and 1. he remembered me! and 2. i remembered what a legend (albeit a scary one!) he was!

HAPPY: Waterloo Road is back on tonight! But I am raving it up at Gemmas tonight so I will have to iplayer it :) Wooo!!

SAD: I complained to my manager today about having to dress up halloween-y on Saturday (normally I would be SO up for it, but last xmas I went really OTT with the oufit, FULL ON FAIRY while noone else bothered, so it was embarrasingg!!) and Scott said 'Don't worry about halloween. I'm sure you will find something scary and spooky to dress up like. Why don't you just wear you FACE!' and then when I forgive him he went to give me a high-5 and then rejected me. FML.

HAPPY: Um...

SAD: I have lost my cash card. I am too embarrased to tell my parents because I have already lost (and found, luckily!) my bus pass, my keys and my umbrella this week. (and my brother once, oops!)

HAPPY: I AM RUNNING OUT OF HAPPY THINGS! HOW CAN THIS BE! Um... I am in love with Gok Wan :)

SAD (and this is a BIG sad): I think I may have officially lost a best friend. At Thornden I was always like 'MUST HAVE A TRILLION FRIENDS, MUST GET 400 LOVES ON BEBO, MUST BE POPULAR FOREVER!' and in a way, i really liked that! (Xmas was expensive, though!) but since college I have realised who my REAL friends are, and now I have a smaller, CLOSE set of buddies :) but I saw Gem in town today and although I hadn't seen her for ages, it was WEIRDLY awkward.

Shes been my bestie since primary school, and although we have always been SO different, we've always been best friends! But I guess now I realise how different we really are.

In a way (and I am not trying to really put myself down!) it's kinda lady and the tramp. Beauty and the Beast. I am not saying I am so ugly, but in town today I was in my work uniform, looking scruffy and sniffly and tired and wearing a hoody, trousers and shoes I bought YEARS ago, while she was all glammed in New look (probably! 50% staff discount, I wouldn't be surprised!)

Apparently she was out with her mum planning a holiday to Europe (either Turkey or France I think).

With the preppy Jack Wills people.

i.e Without FUCKING me.

Sorry, I am just annoyed, and I have no idea why! I went to Arundel with my Symonds buddies and although I feel guilty not inviting her, it wouldn't have been the same with her there. It's sweet that shes invited me over tonight but sometimes its like I don't exist.

I was there for her when she was ill for a couple of years at Thornden. (thats another story!) and I was there for her when both of her grandparents died. and her hamster. :)

I KNOW we are different, and I know shes really into parties and drinking and spending stupid amount of money in Hollister and A&F.

I just don't like how much she has changed.

I never really fell out with my friends at Thornden so losing the person who used to be my #1 human being IN THE WORLD is hard.

The annoying thing is that shes stunning and friendly and SO SO smart, so I can't be like 'haha! at least I have brains!'

I am sure I am just overreacting, and we obviously have different things on and we have met different people at college, but at the mo I just feel greedy.

I want to cling on to ALL of my friends, make new friends, and just have everything the same as it was at Thornden.

Easy coursework, no friend issues.

:/

Oh dear.

2009-10-15T09:08:00.000-07:00

OK Blog Readers.

I have an embarrasing secret.

I have joked about it in the past (and possibly previous blogs) but I can't deny it.

....

I think I may be in love with my old Thornden tutor.

Martin Webster.

My first crush at Hiltingbury Infants was called Martin too.

How ironic.

ANYWAYS.

I just got back from town with Antonia, and when I got off the bus and was stumbling home (I bought too much!) Mr W was walking towards me with his little Merdon daughter.

YES. He has a daughter.

He is about late 30s?

But, when I saw him my heart had a fluttering thing.

Oops.

How embarrasing.

:S

'You look like Pingu, kinda'

2009-10-15T01:16:00.000-07:00

This is going to be a quickie blog :)

Heading off to town with Antoniaaaa in a bizzle :)

Mission shopping. Which I officially HATE.

You know, when you go shopping but there's something that you NEED to get?

Whenever I do that I never find what I want, so I sulk and buy a Shakeaway.

Hmph.

ANYWAYS.

Life is nice :)

Adam's shindig this weekend, but I am going to be SLEEEEPYYY because I have 6.5 hours of work before. Whoop.

TWO OF MY FRIENDS HAVE INTERVIEWS AT SUPERDRUG!

The lovely Emily James.

The lovely Claudia Temple.

Fingers crossed!!

ANYWAYS.

MICHAEL MCINTYRE LAST NIGHT WAS AMAZING.

I have never laughed so much in my life :) and it helped that I was with Geoff, he says ONE WORD and it cracks me up. He bought me some flashing/light up sunnies for my birthday and I bullied him into bringing his, but we didn't have the guts to wear them in the end :D

But M.M was so funny.

And he only repeated ONE joke, which I had heard on Live at the Apollo. I was worried he would repeat EVERYTHING. We saw Becky Simsss in the interval too. I bought a poster. I was almost tempted to remove my MASSIVE paramore poster to be replaced by M.M.

But I have a slight lesbian crush on Hayley Williams :S

TO CONCLUDE, YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME!

We have a 4.5day weekend this week!!

Whoopp! But I have so much work to do I am going to be a loser. =/

Ooh, and I'll give you an update on how my driving lessons are going.

Two Words.

I SUCK.

hahah.

It doesn't help that my driving instructor is Italian and I can barely understand a word he is saying, and when he sees a pigeon he goes 'HELLO, PECKY!'

We had a heated debate on whether a pigeon was the same as a pheasant.

HE IS SO WEIRD.

Cheerio folks, have a nice MASSIVE weekend :) x x x x x

ENTER SHIKARI!!!

2009-10-08T00:52:00.000-07:00

....was amazing :]

Hot. Squishy. Sweat. Condoms.

Haha, at the start a bunch of prepubescent guys thought it would be fun to entertain themselves (and everyone else, apparently) by blowing up condoms and chucking them around. If you burst one then you would automatically become the most hated person in the Guildhall. Possibly in the whole of Southampton, LOL.

Basically, Tues night was Shikari-loving :) I went with Haz which I thought would be awkward (shes gone pretty Jack Wills-ish since college!) but it was proper fun.

THE LEGEND THAT IS MATTHEW DOWNER LET US QUEUE JUMP WITH HIM!

So I spent the whole night right at the front. Lots of bummage =/ Mainly from old sweaty topless men. Nice.

The support bands, to put it mildly, were pretty SHIT but we had a RAVE crowd which made it funnn :]

There was this really nice guy with a green/yellow/red mohican who stood by me and because he was tall (and lets face it, compared to the majority of the people in the room, i was a MIDGET) everytime he got water from the front he would always make sure I got some.

(When the gig finished and everyone was outside, I was SO excited about life I actually went over and gave him a sweaty hug, and thanked him so much...I think he was a bit freaked out. But last year I didnt get any water until I got home, so I had to concentrate on NOT DYING rather than the music!!)

ENTER SHIKARI WERE AMAZING.

Rory jumped into the crowd at the end and I grabbed his face. :)

And Matt got the setlist so I hate him now (and I still hate Katie for getting the Michael Franti setlist, aha!)

Anyways, they were amazing.

I hate it how Rob, my favourite Shikarian, is a drummer....

Means hes always at the back and never able to jump on speakers/into the crowd.

My mission will be to create compact drum kits, so it WILL be possible :)

But yeah.

Fun night :)

Better than last year :)

Didn't play 'Anything can happen in the next half hour' or 'Jonny Sniper' (or 'Adieu, but thats not really a GIG song!!'

:) x

'Look! That guy has ginger beer!' 'Oh. Well I have a ginger PERSON!'

2009-10-04T10:43:00.000-07:00

Apparently, I am easily pleased.

If someone is REALLY winding me up, it’s easy to get on my good side again.

And that is by WINKING.

Emily likes to wind me up in English, I’m not really entirely sure WHY. But as soon as she winks at me, I am like putty in her hands.

This guy came into work today, and had a go at me for overcharging him by about 3p. I got a bit panicky (the shop was BUSY!) until he winked at me, and told me he was cool with it.

That is my new found weakness. WINKING.

Oh, and let me update you on #1 Bluestar bus shenanigans.

It should change its name to BlueRAVE bus, I swear.

First up, on the way to Winch the driver mounted the kerb, and shouted SHIT so loudly, I felt like laughing. Then this old woman sitting behind me said ‘There’s no need for fucking expletives’

On the way BACK, there was this cute old man sitting in the space where the wheelchairs normally are, and he was snuggled up to the backrest and was hugging it. Then he fell asleep. I literally wanted to marry him then and there.

I DIDN’T TELL MY BLOGGERS ABOUT MY NEW (potential) HUSBAND IN MCDONALDS!

After promo last Tuesday, I missed the bus so had to sit in McDonalds for over an hour. I ordered a drink and some weird burger thing and the guy who served me (who was CRACKING everyone up all night!) said ‘Do you want fries?’ and I said no, I only intended to spend £2 max.

Later on, while I was sitting like a lonely fool, he came over with some freee fries.

Most people who know me PROBABLY know that the way to my heart is through my stomach. When I left, he said ‘Come back soon, ya!’ and I fell in love. Haha.

P.S Apparently there IS such a thing as ‘too much quiche’. I have eaten enough quiche this weekend to feed the southern hemisphere:(

P.P.S The blog title is courtesy of Rebecca Louise Sims. :)

Chandlers Ford? It SHOULD be Chandlers For- GAYS!

2009-09-28T09:26:00.000-07:00

Haha. In this blog I have to make a statement.

I LOVE EMILY SOPHIA GREEN.

My english buddy. My (old) media buddy.

I love her more than Adam.

Haha, not quite. But ALMOST!

:D

We got let out of english 40mins early the other day :O

but it was a double, my teacher didn't just COMPLETELY ditch us.

And we were talking about the 3 (THREE!!!!) new sweet shops in winch, and I was ranting about how it was because everyone who lived in Winch was fat and gay.

Turns out she lived in winch, so she started dissing the Ford.

I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT ON A BLOG, IT WAS A BE-THERE MOMENT!

But it was funny.

If I was a man, and Gemma was already married, I would probably marry Emily :D

I was on the bus today, and it was fun watching myself on the TV screen.

Because I was BRIGHT ORANGE.

:) I LIKE BRIGHT COLOURS.

I had an interesting day at work, which is odd.

Sundays are normally BORING.

First up, there was only 4 of us working, because the cosmetics chick FAINTED in the middle of the aisle. I was so freaked out, she just went all floppy and shakey.

But I sat with her and helped her. -is an angel-

She ended up having to be picked up by her dad, and she was so upset.

Get Well Soon Rachelll :)

This woman came in today who looked SO much like Zoe Wanamaker (the mum in 'My Family' and the weird woman in Harry .P)

I probably freaked her out, because I was staring at her A LOT.

Waitrose was giving away free cereal bars, and the guy was like 'As soon as we get rid of all these cereal bars we can go home' so he gave me about 7 =/

They weren't even that yummy. Silly waitrose, invading Chandlers Ford and now WINCHESTER?

gah.

Asda ftw.

I served this guy today who was SO irish I could barely understand a THING he was saying, which was incredibly frustrating for both of us.

AND GUESS WHAT.

Ok, the capitalisation (thats not even a word) of 'guess what' makes it sound like it is really interesting, but it was exciting for me. a MEDIA student.

I SOLD Krishnan Guru-Murthy INSECT REPELLENT!!

As in, the news presenter from channel 4!?!?

I am not even kidding.

My manager was getting real excited about it too.

An interesting fact for you.

News presenters often shop in Sainsburys. :O

I was so embarrasingly star struck, like I had just met Obama or Jesus or someone from Linkin Park.

:) but it really made my dayy!!

Oohh, and I have fallen in love with Mark, my manager.

Because unlike Scott, when I ask 'can i start 5mins early and finish 5 mins early so I can get my bus' he doesn't deliberately try and delay me, or generally give me AIDs.

Shame hes my manager.
Shame he doesn't swing that way.
Shame hes ENGAGED.

My weekend was odd.

2009-09-26T11:40:00.000-07:00

First off, my brother (12) asked me what an orgy was, probably some word he picked up at the skate park. they like orgies, i am sure.

so I told him it was a flavour of ice cream. To my horror he jumped onto his BMX, intending to go to Somerfield to ask for an orgy. I know a few people who work there so it would have been VERY embarrasing, yet hilarious.

Then my dad explained that it was 'a group of people who like showing off their love'

and Nick turned around and said 'So it's like, posh for 'GANGBANG?'

oh how we laughed. I am quite worried about him though, he is VERY naive and VERY gullible. If a old man said that RAPE was ice cream, he would jump at the chance for some. Oh dear.

Plus, my mum picked up the home phone today and started shouting at it. Turns out she was trying to turn the volume on the TV down with a phone. FOOL. Then this morning she put a metal lampshade on her head and starting singing about three littles maids. She wouldn't let me film her/photo her. YOUTUBE MOMENT. My parents are amazingly embarrasing though. This is embarrasing, but they are normally A BILLION times worse when I have my friends over, or they are giving us a lift somewhere. -cringeee!-

ANYWAY.

My parents had a stall at the Thornden Car Boot sale on saturday, so I had a quick run around while I waited for my bus (which I nearly missed!)

I bumped into my old food tech assistant person, and was so embarrased that she remembered my name, I had NO IDEA what her name was until I realised that her daughter was in fact one of my friends =/

Then, I had the FRIGHT of my life.

There was a rumour going around college that one of my old French buddies (who dropped out of college in January) was pregnant.

Haha, I said. HAHA.

There have been SO many rumours about swingers and abortions and blowjobs.

I swear Thornden is the sleaziest school in the world.

97% of students at Thornden WILL get raped in the school premises. The other 3% are the RAPISTS.

haha.

ANYWAYS. Turns out this rumour (which I thought was made so she coul get attention) was SO SO SO true. I used to be quite good mates with her, she scared me a bit though because her mood changed SO quickly and she like to brag about the scars she had on her wrists from earlier emo days, but she was actually really nice!

Turns out she got knocked up, and isnt entirely sure who the father is. FAB.

But the baby (I THINK its a boy, it had a blue hat, so I stereotyped! Wait, I just facebook-stalked her! It IS a boy, called timmy apparently!) is THE cutest thing you will ever see in your life. But I just spent the whole time worrying about it. I mean, this girl dropped out of college (Peveril, I think) after less than 3 months. I know that the whole pregnant-thing must have been the trigger, but if she wanted a good education and qualifications, then she wouldn't have had SEX WITH THE ANONYMOUS BOY.

She's a bit, mislead. Apparently she got a bit jealous when she found out her best friend was engaged. I just think its a bout of GROWINGUPTOOFAST aids.

Normal people don't get pregnant at 16.
Normal people don't get ENGAGED at 16.

I guess I can't really disapprove though. I have always been pretty liberal in my views about drugs, alcohol, sex.

I guess once you get to the age when you can make your own decisions (and ultimately, your own mistakes!) you can do what you want to do.

One of my best friends started smoking a few weeks ago, due to STRESS apparently.

But she has an amazing family and a nice bunch of mates, so it's more of a social thing. Thats kinda what I disagree with. PEER PRESSURE.

Another one of my friends keeps reminding me of this time when I used to say that I was willing to have a child when I was at college.

I don't even remember saying that (I normally say AT LEAST 25!!) but apparently so.

But since then I have grown up and realised that I need to be selfish.

I need to do as well as I can in MY A-Levels.
Go to college and make friends.
Have fun.

Maybe even learn a thing or two.

So I'm worried about baby Timmy.

He won't know who his dad is.
His mum used to slit her wrists.
His mum is a college drop out.

I REALLY wish I didn't have to grow up.

Directions to Neverland, anyone?

=/

We are GOLDEN.

2009-09-22T12:39:00.000-07:00

I HAVE BEEN BULLIED.

The first thing my sister said me to last Saturday morning (when I was just about to head off to work) was ‘Oi. That top makes you look flat chested.’

Great.

Sisterly love.

Well, I am kind of used to it, considering we are ALWAYS ina verbal war or bullying each other about impending obesity/how gay our boyfriends are. But she never really bullies my boobs. Gah.

Once I got to work everyone seemed to think my hair looked ‘emo’. It is dark chocolate. Not Black!

Then, when I got to work, my manager called me a ‘schizer kopf’ and I didn’t know what it meant. He later told me it means ‘shit head’. Nice. We have a pleasant employee-boss relationship.

Then earlier this week someone made fun of the fact that I wasn’t sure whether tuna was a fish or a meat.

Clearly, my life is a slow news story, if the only thing happening to me is minor bullying.

EXCEPT. shock horror. I met someone in my media class who had an 'ENTER SHIKARI' top on and i almost proposed to him. ALMOST. not quite.

Zzzzzzz.

2009-09-18T14:09:00.000-07:00

Wow. What an inventive name for a blog.

But I have come to the conclusion that I am tired.

Most people I know would know that I am tired. ALL THE TIME.

Maybe because I am unfit, and get tired walking up the hill to college, but I assure you I am not the only one :] and I blame the varley cookies (which are now crap and COLD, apparently! what the hell!) for ruining my MUSCULAR GYM BODY :] haha. I am so butch.

But now I definitely know that I am tired.

The other night when I was feeling ill (probably AIDs, or 'Reading [as in the festival, not the hobby] flu' both incidently from Adam.) I went downstairs to get a bottle of water (I have a weird obsession with refrigerated water. I really don't like drinking water straight from the tap. Yes, I am a freak) and basically I returned to ma chambre with a bottle of ketchup. I HATE ketchup so luckily I didn't drink it!

Last sunday at work I woke up my parents, asking for some change for the bus (£1.50 CHILD ticket, woohoo! Hooray for baby faces!) [I almost typed 'hooray for baby faeces!' that would have been bad!] only to remember that I had a bus pass, which I had bought the day before, and it was IN MY HAND.

And literally about 5 secs ago, I finished watching Jekyll and Hyde (John Hannah, SWOON! Killing people and he is still amazing and beautiful!), which was for my english coursework, HOORAY FOR FREE ASHURST DVDs! and I shoved the DVD in one of my brothers XBOX game boxes, and walked out the living room carrying my coursework in a 'Midnight Club Los Angeles' box, much to the annoyance of mini Whitt and to the confusion of papa and mama Whitt.

You see, I am not very good at sleeping.

I used to be like GOOD NIGHT MUMMY TUCK ME IN READ ME A STORY I WANT SOME COCOA and then zzzzzzzzzzzz instantly!

Now it takes me hours to sleep.

Normally I don't sleep when I have exams/am ill/have something to worry about.

Now I am just retarded.

LOLage!

I hate people who say 'lolage'

CIAO!

I hate people who say 'Ciao' too =/

Dan le Sac vs Scroobius Pip.

2009-09-13T12:15:00.001-07:00

I discovered the amazingness of Scroobius Pip at Greenbelt, and I love this song.

'Thou Shalt Always Kill'

Good Lyrics :) Fab song.

I like hairy skinny bearded men that rap with balding chubby men :]

Thou shalt not steal if there is direct victim.

Thou shalt not worship pop idols or follow Lost Prophets.

Thou shalt not take the names of Johnny Cash, Joe Strummer, Johnny Hartman, Desmond Decker, Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix or Syd Barret in vain.

Thou shalt not think that any male over the age of 30 that plays with a child that is not their own is a peadophile... Some people are just nice.

Thou shalt not read NME.

Thou shalt not stop liking a band just because they've become popular.

Thou shalt not question Stephen Fry.

Thou shalt not judge a book by it's cover.

Thou shalt not judge Lethal Weapon by Danny Glover.

Thou shalt not buy Coca-Cola products.

Thou shalt not buy Nestle products.

Thou shalt not go into the woods with your boyfriend's best friend, take drugs and cheat on him.

Thou shalt not fall in love so easily.

Thou shalt not use poetry, art or music to get into girls' pants.

Use it to get into their heads.

Thou shalt not watch Hollyoaks.
Thou shalt not attend an open mic and leave before it's done just because you've finished your shitty little poem or song you self-righteous prick.

Thou shalt not return to the same club or bar week in, week out just 'cause you once saw a girl there that you fancied but you're never gonna fucking talk to.

Thou shalt not put musicians and recording artists on ridiculous pedestals no matter how great they are or were.

The Beatles... Were just a band.
Led Zepplin... Just a band.
The Beach Boys... Just a band.
The Sex Pistols... Just a band.
The Clash... Just a band.
Crass... Just a band.
Minor Threat... Just a band.
The Cure... Just a band.
The Smiths... Just a band.
Nirvana... Just a band.
The Pixies... Just a band.
Oasis... Just a band.
Radiohead... Just a band.
Bloc Party... Just a band.
The Arctic Monkeys... Just a band.
The Next Big Thing.. JUST A BAND.

Thou shalt give equal worth to tragedies that occur in non-english speaking countries as to those that occur in english speaking countries.

Thou shalt remember that guns, bitches and bling were never part of the four elements and never will be.

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music,
thou shalt not make repetitive generic music,
thou shalt not make repetitive generic music,
thou shalt not make repetitive generic music.

Thou shalt not pimp my ride.

Thou shalt not scream if you wanna go faster.

Thou shalt not move to the sound of the wickedness.

Thou shalt not make some noise for Detroit.

When I say "Hey" thou shalt not say "Ho".

When I say "Hip" thou shalt not say "Hop".

When I say, he say, she say, we say, make some noise... kill me.

Thou shalt not quote me happy.

Thou shalt not shake it like a polaroid picture.

Thou shalt not wish you girlfriend was a freak like me.

Thou shalt spell the word "Pheonix" P-H-E-O-N-I-X not P-H-O-E-N-I-X, regardless of what the Oxford English Dictionary tells you.

Thou shalt not express your shock at the fact that Sharon got off with Bradley at the club last night by saying "Is it".

Thou shalt think for yourselves.

And thou shalt always... Thou shalt always kill!

Long time no see

2009-09-13T12:12:00.000-07:00

P.S Before my last post, it had been more than a month since I had blogged.
Not much has changed though.
I am 17 now :)
Learning to drive :)
Dyed my hair :)
3As and 2Bs :)
Wales has a lot of sheep.

:)

History won't be heartbroken.

2009-09-08T13:09:00.000-07:00

Whoa, I haven't blogged for a while!

Just started a new year at college and I really can't be bothered.
I am now considering a gap year, just so I can escape all this pressure and studying for one year! But I guarantee I would spend the whole time living in Primark. I would be BROKE.

Greenbelt (which now seems like AGES ago) was amazing.

I loved Athlete, Y Friday, Royksopp :D and Duke Special.

NOT Through Solace.

Last year the bands in the Underground (basically, an emo-y venue in this small club thing) were amazing (TANKUSSSSS!) and this year they were terrible. Gah.

I discovered the magic of Rob Bell too. I am in love with a middle-aged American now, who's children likes Flo Rida. :)

and Alex Horne was AMAZING. I like hairy ginger men now :)

And I also discovered the 'Soul Space.' On the Monday, when everything was starting to settle down (i.e NOT MUCH DECENT STUFF ON UNTIL THE EVENING) I went with Jo and Matt and it was basically a quiet area. I normally avoid those kind of areas you see.

But it was a room with loads of different 'stations' in it, so you could do loads of little fiddly things, like just making paper aeroplanes, hairbraids and other odd things. But I spent about an hour in there (shocker!) and I actually realised how little I properly relax. I am always buzzing around trying to spend my WHOLE life meeting up with friends (who I am sometimes sure don't give a toss about me) and basically preoccupying myself. That normally involves shopping, partying or even just watching a movie.

SOMETHING ALWAYS HAS TO BE HAPPENING.

But I never have time to just sit. Think. Read. Listen to Music. Sleep.

Over the summer I had been getting so worked up about friends cancelling plans, or the weather affecting what I could do. I wanted to do something FUN (and ultimately, expensive) every single day. I never have time to be a loner. I have matured (partially!) since Thornden. I don't always need someone to keep me company. But I don't often have a chance to be alone. Which is depressing. Considering I have a boyfriend, and want to spend as much time as possible with him, there are days when I can't face other people. For some reason. I would rather curl up in a ball in a corner than talk to people. Other days I want to see EVERYBODY AT THE SAME TIME AND I MISS MY OLD FRIENDS AND I LIVE ON FACEBOOK AND I TRY AND STAY IN CONTACT WITH EVERYONE, OLD AND NEW FRIENDS WHEN THEY HAVE MOVED ON AND DON'T GIVE A DAMN.

I don't really understand where this blog is going...

Oh, and I have finally dropped History. I really REALLY miss it though. I love my teacher, and I loved the course, but it was too hard (but I got an A, wtff!) and stressful.

These next few months up to Xmas (and including christmas!) are going to be awesome.
Enter Shikari.
Michael McIntyre.
Ed Byrne.
Boarding at Exeter uni for half term.
Parents in Paris for the weekend.
LOTS OF 18TH BIRTHDAYS!
and _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ (I can't say what it is, its a SURPRISE)

but I am so excited!

oh. and the 3D version of Toy Story coming out :D

I like life.

Over and out.

P.S I have a guilty love for Mika's new single :) 'We are Golden.' Check it out. He's a cutie.

I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night.

2009-08-06T06:54:00.000-07:00

I miss the Black Eyed Peas.
I used to be SO obsessed with them, and wanted Apl D Ap AND Taboo's babie's :D
But, as always, they got real mainstream and I got sick of all the preppies singing 'My Humps' and dancing like sluts in the P.E changing rooms :/
'You can look but you can touch, if you touch I'm gonna START SOME DRAMA, you don't want no drama.'
But now their new stuff is AMAZING.
Except 'Boom Boom Pow' which has officially been overplayed.
But I LOVE 'I gotta feeling' and 'Party all the time' and 'Simple Little Melody'

Other songs I am obsessed with (but I am sure you don't really CAREE)...
VV Brown : Shark in the Water
Natty : Bedroom Eyes
Kanye West : Supernova
Calvin Harris : Neon Rocks
Daniel Merriweather : Red
N-Dubz : Ouch
Blur : Countryside

and of course the DUCK SONG.

I had a weird taste in music, I like ALL types :)

ANYWAYS.

Story of my life...

I never normally like waiting for buses after work, because I am tired and grumpy and hungry.
But this random guy started talking to me (I deliberately stood at least 10feet away from him at all times) just to pass the time. He must have been early 20s, and he kept asking me about my salary (which I pretended I didn't know) so he must of thought I was a full-timer too! But turns out he lived in C.Ford too, so we started talking about the car crash in Fryern, and the shooting at HSBC, and Thornden (which he apparently went to too!)

I was kinda creeped out, I don't normally chat to random people at bus stops, but the bus was 40mins late and he kept phoning the bus service and asking when our bus would come. but once we were on the bus he was like 'It was really nice to meet you, Jennie' and I SO wanted to add him on facebook and have his babies.

Except he was probably a paedophile.

But yeah.

And I'll sit and wonder Of every love that could've been. If I'd only thought of something charming to say. (8)

2009-07-26T05:15:00.000-07:00

Sound of Settling - Death Cab.

I LOVE THAT SONG.

Anyways, ARUNDEL WAS AWESOME.

I have too much to say about it, so I'll try and sum up.

Best people in the world. Beaches. SUNSHINE! 2p slot machines. Dance mats. Nutella Sandwiches EVERYDAY (haha). Playing 'kiss, marry, push off a cliff' with the girlies after midnight. Poi. Pizza Express. Sunbathing. Swimming. Failing at snooker. Cute kids EVERYWHERE. Sexual-ness (mainly on Tom and Becky's partt!) Shopping with guys, and NOT hating it. Brighton. Little Hampton. Walking everywhere, and NOT dying/moaning too much! Cheap train journeys. Ice cream. Pouch for a pound :P

I think thats it.

Check out the pics on facebook (Tom's photos, or the ones I'm tagged in) it was just so much fun!

I met this really REALLY interesting guy in Sociology a while ago, but I haven't managed to mention him before.

He is the epitome of everything I want to be, but can NEVER be.

Basically, we were discussing the pros and cons of globalisation. Our group was supposed to be FOR it. But he was SO against it.

He hates Tescos, designer labels, generic shops. Instead he shops in charity shops, or jumble sales. To admit this to a class DOMINATED by Jack Will-ians was probably the bravest thing I have ever seen.

I have always craved to be an 'individual', although losing my sense of indiv. since year 9 and going into college, I NEED to fit in. He wasn't scared to admit that he buys his clothes second hand, or that he refuses to buy food anywhere other than local farm stores (he must STARVE at college!) and I really admire that. So many people declare that they are individual because of the clothes they wear, or the fact that they wear odd socks, or leg warmers in the summer. Yet this guy is an individual in terms of his morals and principles, and I appreciate that.

I haven't lost faith in ALL of society.

Except after we were discussing this, he argued about how religion was expolitative and a waste of time. What a prat. But noones perfect :)

Life is nice :)

2009-07-24T05:22:00.000-07:00

JUST GOT BACK FROM 5 DAYS IN ARUNDEL.
it was amazing.

end of blog. haha.

I'll just talk about it in another blog, so I can reminisce :D
and I'm sure Tom/Katy/Katie will have pics up soon, so you can LOL.
but there is TOO MUCH to say about it now!!

I just checked my inbox. 79 UNREAD MESSAGES.
Makes me feel loved.
But I am sure it is ALL spam =/
i just checked.
63 of the messages are spam :(
but i got an email from my junior apprentice buddy so i am EXCITED!
and she might have got through to the FILMING :O
fingers crossed :)

i had a media trip last thurs, to the O2 bubble in london (the british music experience)
it was like this awesome interactive 'journey?' through the british music eras.
it was SO FUN.
and there was loads of merch, and FREDDIE MERCURYS JACKET.
and i touched his BUM (well, it was a cardboard cut out but STILL!)
swoon, if only he wasn't gay/dead/with aids :(

basically it was a really fun trip.
but there was this massive shrine outside, dedicated to Michael Jackson.
a message board, where everyone could write their messages.

we wrote a few messages, then i found this letter tucked into the side of the board, which REALLY freaked me out.

basically, this letter declared the writers undying love for M.J
not just love, but OBSESSION.

she (her name was Aimee, and she was 21 - nosy, much?) said that although she and Jacko had never met, she felt as though their souls were connected. they were meant to be together. that Jacko's music was a tribute to her and elements of her life.

and this level of idolisation really scared me.

I have ALWAYS known people who admire celebrities, or become fans of bands etc, but not to this level. it was worrying.

anyways i am tired. apparently i sleep-talked last night, which means I should be shattered!

correct, I am.

See you around folks.

Plus, my media teacher added me on facebook, which I thought was VERY VERY weird.

:S

:)

2009-07-13T11:47:00.000-07:00

I am proud.

1. Gemma WON the race for life in Southampton. ACTUALLY WON IT!
2. Sarah passed her driving test. I will be taking advanytage of HER a lot. :D
3. Emily's penis is bigger than Will's, according to that 'look how far the gap is between your thumb and forefinger when you stretch them out' thing ^_^
4. Adam went on stealth. What a brave-y :D

Ooh, and Britannia High was SO crap, but the song 'Missing Person' is annoyingly addictive.

I can't be aaaaarsed to write anything else.

Fun day tomorrow...should be interestingg :D x

They're telling me that my heart won't beat again. :S

2009-07-11T13:25:00.000-07:00

I'm just OBSESSED with that stupid JLS song atm.

It won't get out of my HEAD!

Anyways, I found out some things today.

1. APPARENTLY I HAVE A GOOFY LAUGH! I didn't think other people noticed. :(
2. I'm not xenophobic, but foreign people can be SO annoying. This woman, who sounded a bit Polish, had a go at me for having air conditioning in Superdrug. Ruins the planet, apparently. it's Scotts fault, apparently. That made me mad.
3. Old people are actually VERY VERY sweet. I can't wait until I'm in my 70s. It'll be FUN.
4. Stalkers don't stop stalking until you are actually DEAD. I've had three people (who I haven't seen/haven't WANTED to see for about 2 years) ring me up, saying that they want to meet up. Sweet, but SO SO SO annoying. Like, a Polish 70year old I guess :D
5. 'She's the man' is possibly the best movie EVER. Channing Tatum! <3
6. Media = too many essays
7. History = too much reading&gay-ness.
8. My phone = crap battery power.
9. Sisters boyfriends make good slaves. I havent cooked ANYTHING/cleaned anything. This is NICEEEEEE :D Maybe shes a prostitute, and he pays in CHORES, rather than money.

ew. my sister. ew.

That is all.

:)

2009-07-09T11:51:00.000-07:00

Haha.

I haven't blogged in a while.
But I don't mind.
Means I am too busy living my own life to tell everyone about it.
Nahh.
Means I CBA.
:D

Life is normal.
Summer soon.
Might be starting to realise how much work the extended project will be :S
Spent my free after lunch watching Big Bang Theory on 40d with Dom. LOL.
Which may have sadly been the highlight of my day :S
ACTUALLY NO.

The highlight of the day was....dum dum duuummm!

Slapping Fraser on the face :D

It's funny, Ed (Macbeth Ed) has been bullying me for WEEKS for me to slap him [he wanted to prove how weak i was...how embarrasing] and i refused.

But Fraser made a 'you're a woman, you should stay in the kitchen' comment and i slapped him RIGHT on the cheek.

YES!

I've got the POWER!

:D

Fair enough, it was a CRAP slap. and after the slap i was like 'omg im so sorry, il kiss it better!!'

but it was very refreshing.

I should slap people more often.

Hahaha :D

oh. and i have a free house this weeekend. Party, much? :D x

'I am not allergic to Calvin Klein. CK is allergic to me!!'

2009-06-27T15:52:00.000-07:00

Do you ever have one of those days when you feel a bit, dead?
and then the next day you feel AMAZING?
I had that today :)
i couldn't stop smiling, it was so sunny, and work was actually O.K.
the fact that it was mark rather than scott being the managerr kinda helpedd :D
YES.
LIFE.
IS.
GOOD.
except im not allowed to go to driftwood. lame.

Blast from the past.

2009-06-25T11:27:00.000-07:00

I have had a number of blasts from the past recently. Although most of my mates from thornden ended up going to symonds, as well as a few people from toynbee, and my old badminton club, there are still a few people that i miss soo much, as well as a few people who i semi-miss, but im at that point when it would be weird to ring them up one day and be like 'OMG. LETS MEET UP.' (see below, slightly changed names)

One was Wash. On the bus. That was awkward.
One was Maul. At the bus stop. That was awkward.
One was Wophie. On the way to the bus (spot the link?) That was VERY awkward.

And it just really made me realise how I should have tried harder to stay in contact with them. They are all amazing friends with longggg stories. Wait, I'll just sum up. But you can guess who I'm talking about.

1. When I was in Brownies, I did this show called gangshow. This person was like one of my best friends there, I used to go round his house a lot but he was a bit creepy. I remember he liked to hold my hand whenever we watched a movie and it scared me. (It was about year 9. In year 9 i thought that holding hands with someone practically meant i was now carrying their baby.) I miss him.

2. In my english class, and went to Thornden, never really became good friends until year 11. Still talk on facebook. VERY SMALL AMOUNT THOUGH.

3. Year 11, apparently had a major crush on me, asked me for a slow dance at the prom, I said no, felt bad on the way home in the limo, TEXTED him to say sorry&that i should have just accepted the offer (its not like we would be getting married) bought me my first lottery ticket. finito.

Now I'm worried about uni. At the moment I'm panicking about stupid China and their Stupid revolutions and the stupid names and pronounciations of the names, but when I get to uni, I am SO SO SO SO worried I won't see my friends as much as I'd like to. I've made a nice bunch of friends at college, and I know that other than through facebook, it'll be hard to stay in contact with all of them. I need to just accept that, and if they ARE good mates, I'll make the effort to stay in contact, and hopefully they'll do the same.

It's weird that I'm panicking about this already...WE'VE GOT A YEAR LEFT!

But blog readers, PROMISE me you'll stay in contact and keep reading (all 3 of you??) XD

x x x x x x x x x <3>

'I like your shorts. 'I don't. They make me look like I have a penis.'

2009-06-25T10:54:00.001-07:00

Today was annoyingly hot, and annoyingly humid.
and I got rejected by Eastleigh Borough Council for work experience, and feel like burying myself in a hole.
and whenever I sat down, my shorts made me look like I had a penis.
YAY.

but yesterday, after work (which was pretty crap) i made a new semi-best friend XD sort of...i was waiting for the bus outside sainsburys when this random chavette [i don't like to stereotype, but it makes it easier to describe what she was like] turned up, swearing her ABSOLUTE face off.

she swore at the pigeons, she swore at the big issue guy, she swore at this old woman whos bag she nearly tripped over, she even swore at these mcdonalds onion rings she was eating..(too oniony apparently! well...DUUH!)

she seemed really aggressive, so i was real worried that after everyone got on their stanmore/eastleigh buses, i would be left to bear the brunt of her verbal attacks. so eventually i was alone with her, and i was SHITTING myself. i dont even know why. she just seemed pretty bad tempered. so i subtley moved as far away as possible from her. she noticed, and gave me THE most evil glare ever.

ANYWAYS. I was left alone, and trying to hide behind GLAMOUR mag (its for media, OK?!) when her phone went off (You spin me round by Flo Rida, I might add. Officially THE most annoying song of this, millenium?)

She started swearing to THIS person too!

I'll try and reconstruct what she said.

'HAND ME OVER TO STEVE! ..... Steve? Don't you fucking call me a fucking slag. You have no right....SHUT THE FUCK UP. Listen to me....(fucking prick) What has she said to you?.... She said I slept with Callum?...WHAT THE FUCK I wouldn't sleep with him...oohh..he told you that? Ok, maybe I did. It was one time....She told you that she has a child? She doesn't have a child, fuckoff. Whats her name?...WHATS THE KIDS NAME?....Fred? You are joshing me, douchebag. She said I drowned the child? WHAT THE C*NT!...'

etc.

Basically after she hung up, (it was generally about this girl spreading rumours about her...how nosy am I?!?!?) she turned to me, and was like 'Guys are such pricks. Ain't they just pricks?' And this sounds bad but as a 'chav' I assumed that she would have a knife on her or something, so I just agreed. Nodded. Then something WEIRD happened.

I gave her advice.

It was so weird, I NEVER give advice to strangers, and I felt bad because it made it obvious that I had snooped into her conversation. She seemed pretty gobsmacked that I had MAGICALLY transformed into a relationship guru. I said all the generic 'you need to be able to face them in person, rather than relying on phones/i wouldn't swear as much, it makes you seem irrational/just face it all calmy, ask her what you've done wrong' as well as adding in some extras that made it obvious I had been eavesdropping. :I

She didn't stab me. Instead when my bus arrived and I stop up to go, she was like 'Thanks kiddo (she wasn't patronising, she was early 20s?) you are the shizz.'

Then she said 'Keep in touch?' which I found a bit..weird.

Just, spreading a bit of lovin' and hippieness to random people, I guess. :D I felt oddly proud last night :)

Sun Sunny Day :)

2009-06-23T09:36:00.000-07:00

My phone's USB cable has FINALLY ebay-ed itself into my house :)

I am INCREDIBLY happy :)

i was having a bit of a fuck-off day this morning, dont know why.

just woke up at felt pissed off.

had a MASSIVE go at my friend whos leading this guy on (she has a bf, he has a gf, he is a COMPLETE prick)

then when matt tripped over by the emo shop near the station, i felt amazing better :D

AND i saw my assistant manager at work, as well as the cosmetics advisor wearing blue glittery wigs and blue glittery hula skirts, to raise money for teenage cancer trust. IT CRACKED ME UP. :)

oh. my USB cable isn't working. no i am sad. it cost me a WHOLE £1.08!!

gah. hate my life.

Tired. Forgot about history homework. Forgot about fathers day. I generally fail.

2009-06-20T10:57:00.001-07:00

I have a sort of love-hate relationship with one of my friends at the moment.

I think ‘love-hate’ is the right phrase. Is that when you kinda love them, but hate them at the same time? Maybe it’s not a love-hate relationship. More like a love-dislike [occasionally] relationship. A love-but-often-get -annoyed-at relationship.

I-can-put-up-with-it-but-NO-I-CANNOT relationship.

Moving on. –presses fast forward on tape-

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

That is the sound of a tape fast forwarding. Maybe it’s more like

‘byfubfheubfuiebfywegfyvfbyhwbvwhjv’

I don’t really remember. The last time I used a tape was when I liked recording myself singing the ‘Tellitubbies’ and the ‘Captain Scarlet’ theme tunes.

-Looks in diary-

..which was about last Friday. Haha.

I’m more of a ‘creative zen’ person at the moment. (I discovered in History that the smartboard speakers are made by ‘creative’ YES! Kinda got unnecessarily excited. Stupid windows media player, deleting names of artists when I did NOTHING to provoke such abuse. GAHHH (a common expletive first used by CATE SUZZANNAAAHHH LOOSEY HAIRYSON) I apologize in advance for any spelling errors in that name…

Yes. Anyways. Love-hate relationship…

The majority of the time she is LOVELY. When I’m alone with her we have so much fun [see below] and she’s been one of my friends for about as long as I can remember (I can’t really escape her at all, though!) She lives about 30millisecs away from me!

At Thornden, I used to walk to school with her, which was FINE, she was one of my besties, we’d always have something to say (although she was SO slow at getting ready, and is now!) YOUR HAIR/FACE/OUTFIT LOOKS AMAZING!

LET’S NOT BE LATE FOR REGISTRATION!

(-FF for the win. Mainly 11FF. Good times)

Anyways, she used to use me. A LOT.

And because I was [am?] such a pansy, I let it happen, so she’d do it more…

Hahah ‘She used to use me….she’d do it more’

SHE DIDN’T HAVE LESBIAN SEX WITH ME.

Maybe I’m just weird, but I reread that and noticed a potentially DANGEROUS AREA. Maybe

I’m just sick-minded….nahhh!

But she used to make me walk with her to the canteen (I think I’ve mentioned this before) when I actually had other stuff to do, OTHER FRIENDS.

More recently, if I’ve been feeling ill or something, I’d still get off at a different stop with her so she can get fish and chips or cake or something, while I practically DIE and just want my Linkin Park Pyjammaaaaasssss!

Gah.

The thing is, when we are alone, shes LOVELY. We have a laugh and I tell her everything (which is bad. I CANNOT TRUST HER WITH SECRETS. But somehow I still tell her =/ )

But as soon as her cooler/more blonde/more flirty/generally more Jack Wills-y friends turn up, it’s like I don’t exist. I have spent SO much time outside PW waiting for her (she phones me, texts me and persists me SO MUCH) so we can get the bus together, probably only wants me for her un-lonerness, but then she ditches me for the OMG-I-WANT-A-JOB-IN-HOLLISTER-I-THINK-I-MIGHT-SLEEP-WITH-THE-MANAGER people. Gah.

Life, eh?

Also, when I’m alone with her, if we’re not gossiping about her stalker, she’s actually quite sensible. We can have proper convos, kinda. Then in front of her new friends she bimbo-fies herself. I know about 7 other people who do that. IT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCHH!

STOP BEING SO BLOODY FAKE!

My sisters still accusing me of being fake. I AM TOO HAPPY APPARENTLY.

I admit I am pretty ‘OMG. I LOVE YOU. BABIES, PLEASE?’ which actually annoys MYSELF. So I need to cut it down. I think I’m proper repeating myself, because I swear I mentioned THIS in an earlier blog too, but I need to cut down on the ‘RAPE!’ and the ‘I WANT YOUR BABIES’

kinda stuff =I

Anyways, when I WAS on good terms with my friend the other day, we decided to play this game. It doesn’t have a name, but basically you name a food, and you have to turn it into someone’s name. Its actually REALLY fun (esp. after you’ve had an 8:30-4:35 day and you just want to SLEEP. Or, alternatively, be WEIRD!

I pwned her though ^__^ I am the CHAMPION of ‘THE GAME WITH NO NAME’

I came up with ‘PETE ZA’ (pizza)

SAM WIDGE (sandwich)

TOM ATO (obvious)

MEL ON (haha)

BAN ANA (someone called ‘Ban’ went to my secondary school!)

So yeah, you can tell how much we RAVE IT UP!

Anyways, my issue, for the WHOLE of my life (other than being a general pansy – see earlier blog) is that I can’t say no. I was known as a bit of a HIPPIE in secondary school, the peacemaker, trying to make everyone happy, mon.

-shakes head, causing dreadlocks to DAAANCE in a Bob Marley-type fashion-

So if someone asked me to do something, I would. I would very very very much regret it afterwards, but at least it didn’t create arguments J

Tom’s party last night. IT WAS FUN.

We didn’t get lost (We got a lift. But knowing my dad’s idea of a shortcut, we were more likely to get lost if we walked. Blindfolded. On our hands and knees. Haha)

Apart from the fact that the BBQ wouldn’t light (but I whooped Adam’s arse in match-lighting skills!) and the fact that my manager wasn’t too impressed with my purple hair [It wouldn’t wash of in the morning, so I just had a massive blob of purple on the back of my head….) it was a good night :D

Miffed that I couldn’t stay over... but I guess it means I missed out on the potential rapeage XD

Dancing to Flo Rida’s ‘Low’ was um…interesting…I’m sure someone took a video of it that’ll turn up on facebook sometime!!

And I didn’t walk well. Stella and Bacardi is not good. I’m annoyed because I promised myself I wouldn’t drink too much…But I haven’t been to a party for ages coz of exams so I guess I had to make the most of it :)

It was kinda funny/bad when Becky scraped her back on the wall and everyone was like ‘what do we do?’

-stands around and stares at the blood instead of helping-

That’s why someone needs to stay sober. BUT I DON’T WANT IT TO BE ME! Haha.

Ohh, and I think I’ve been converted into getting spotify XD

And I’m chuffed that I managed to figure out how my phone works without using my manual. FIRST TIME EVER!

However, I am NOT chuffed that I RAN up to the winch library instead of getting the bus, so my mate Sabrina could pick me up, and we could have a gossip, only to NOT EFFING TURN UP!

I rang her, texted her, and waited around for 25-30mins, and I literally just got a text saying ‘Oops. Forgot. Lol.’

I MISSED TWO OF MY BUSES AND GOT HASSLED BY SOMEONE IN HMV!

BITCH.

-sulks-

New Facebook Status : Jennie Whittington is . . too lazy tp write a proper blog. :)

2009-06-16T08:58:00.001-07:00

THE NEW LINKIN PARK SONG FOR THE TRANSFORMERS MOVIE IS AMAZING!

'New Divide'

LISTEN TO IT! YOUTUBE IT!

<3 <3 <3

‘I’m not Michael Jackson. Which is a shame…’

2009-06-10T12:21:00.000-07:00

I’ve always known I am a push-over. Pretty much my whole life.
I used to walk my friend to the canteen for no reason other than to stop her from looking like a ‘loner’. I did this until she actually made me walk to the other side of the field with her. That’s when I realised that I was a pansy, and she was insecure.

At the driftwood gig the other day, my friend kept saying stuff about how creepy the singers were/how much LESBIAN-ish they were. Then she was like ‘This music is lame. Let’s go outside. I need signal.’ I was happily enjoying the music and hanging out with some buddies, yet I seemed to drop everything and walk out with her, just so I could prevent her from being RAPED like, 5 secs away from the venue. Which was unlikely. And another thing, she kept asking me to stop taking photos because it was embarrassing. I did.

That’s just a FEW examples. Thinking about it, I think I do a least one push-over thing a day, maybe seventeen.

But yesterday was RIDICULOUS.

I was in town with Lizzie, James C & James F, and this random woman came up to us and asked for 50p.I didn’t think twice and just handed it over, like a complete gullible goon, not realising until she had walked away that she was probably going to buy drugs. It’s like direct-busking, I guess – approaching people and THEN buying drugs. I felt like an Idiot, and James C didn’t help. He instead pointed out that because I was carrying a ‘carphone warehouse’ bag, listening to a zen and carrying my peter Symonds gift bag from the evensong (haha) I was cleary ‘loaded’ and therefore a victim. Apparently my ‘crew clothing’ top and generally baby-like face contributed to the innocent, epitome of idiocy. If that makes sense. I could have used that 50p towards a varley cookie :(

I don’t really know WHY I’m like that. I seem to be unable to stick up for myself, and do what I want to do. Instead, I let people bully me out of revising/going to the gym etc so they can have some company. And NOT BE A LONER.

I need to sort out this issue. A lot of my friends have pointed out how I need to stick up for myself more. If I was a man, I wouldn’t have balls. I would be infertile. No baby-making for me :'(

Note to self: SORT OUT LIFE.

Surviving Feminist Of The Technical Mannequin

2009-06-08T10:17:00.000-07:00

In my media exam last week, one of the questions was about the representation of gender in the media, and in particular, females. We’ve done SO MUCH stuff about gender representation in media, women’s protests in history and women’s social inequality in sociology. So this whole exam was a massive rant about how women are represented in the media as ‘sex objects’ and ‘passive characters,’ and how perverted young men oogle at images of semi-naked women on the front of Nuts magazine etc, and how the economic divide between men and women is reinforced in the media but their character status.

Blah blah blah.

But reading through the essay I realised how much of a feminist I am. In terms of genders I have some really strong opinions. I mean, at house parties I’ve come to find that it’s always the girls who get drunk first, and therefore taken advantage of. The guys seem a lot more open about their sexuality and apparent promiscuity. It’s the girls who are more likely (according to some research in Socio.) to judge their male friends/boyfriends by their personality, whereas boys are more likely to judge by appearance. We found some research in socio that says that in a survey, 28% of guys would date someone they saw as ‘ugly but friendly’, compared to 47% of girls.

The question in the exam was something like ‘Explain, using your own detailed examples, the representation of females in the media today.’ My essay was a massive opinionated piece about objectification and the ‘male gaze,’ and the glamourisation of teenage girls in American dramas.

Now at Symonds, a lot of people of both genders seem to be faced with pressure to look fashionable/ whatever, but the majority of the girls I know at Symonds see themselves as fat, ugly and/or have issues with self-confidence. One of my friends at work is having a beach party for his birthday next weekend, and I know someone who didn’t want to go because they were too self-conscious to be seen in her bikini/one-piece. It seems that image IS a bit part of the 21^st f_cking Century at the moment. I’m not going to be hypocritical and say this is BAD and WRONG. I’ve had my own experiences with this. I just miss the times when the biggest issue in the world was whether or not Busted were breaking up.

There was this documentary on channel 4 the other day about plastic surgery, I only watched about 5 mins of it because it was INCREDIBLY graphic. But there was this 17year old aspiring glamour model who didn’t know what the word ‘recession’ meant, but she seemed to understand EVERY WORD found on urbandictionary.com, and every single abbreviated text language thing ever created. Same applies to ‘Ladette to Lady’ which we watched in media. Annoying naïve tards.

HMNIJJTQATYCFO.

Don’t know what that means?

Neither do I :S

I made it up ^_^

Anyways I found this shocking. I know that thousands of teenagers are becoming anorexic/bulimic because they want to be Kate Moss, and I’ve always had insecurities due to the way that my own mum would guilt-trip me whenever I would have a nutella sandwich, while my brother who happens to be the sportiest person in the world can eat a BILLION nutella sarnies (if he liked them!) and still be a stick. I won’t go into that, or I’ll start another 500 word rant.

Society sucks sometimes.

P.S for the title of this blog I gave up being imaginative and instead used 'bandname generator' and typed in feminist as the keyword. and THATS what it came up with....i want to find a band called that now.. :S

‘It’s summer when people are holding portable fans, instead of umbrellas.’

2009-06-07T07:30:00.000-07:00

I embarrassed myself at work yesterday. There’s a new guy-cologne called ‘Diesel’ and I had to try and sell as many as I could. But Scott was like ‘sell as many diesel’s as you can, it’s product of the month at the moment.’ I replied ‘WE SELL PETROL?’

I am a plank.

On the bus on the way home after work about 20 scouts invaded the top level, playing ‘Ugly girl’ and ‘Crazy Frog’ about a million times. Only Frampy saved me from insanity.

Supposed to be revising for history exam tomorrow but I am FED UP with it. Gah.

Joey’s got ANOTHER eye infection. Gah.

Life. Gah.

I'm sorry, but this blog post will NEVER EVER beat my last post 8P

2009-06-06T09:59:00.001-07:00

In Winchester the other day, after my media exam, there were CRAZY people in the high street. Not really crazy, more kind of ‘WTF?’

At the top of the high street there was this girl, quite scene-kid girl, holding up a sign that said ‘NICOLE’ I was like, fair enough…they do that at airports sometimes…holding up signs with names on so they know where to go if they’ve never met you before…

But then this other girl was holding up a sign saying ‘WANTS’ and I was like. THEY ARE LINKED IN SOME WAY. Is this a TRAP?

Then a guy was holding up a sign saying ‘HUG’ and another girl slightly further down was holding up a sign saying ‘THIS IS NICOLE’ with an arrow pointing at this other scene kid. I DID hug her, luckily I was only with my friend Alice so I wasn’t a COMPLETE retardation. Then as I stepped back I realised there was ANOTHER scene kid holding up a camera in my face.

DAMN.

Either Youtube, or ‘You’ve been framed.’

I didn’t even ask her what it was about. Boredom? Maybe a PORNO!

Jeez, I’ve been scammed.

And I met someone at college a few days ago who pronounced ‘quiche’ like the word ‘squish’, without the ‘S’. I don’t know whether they were being silly, but it made me chuckle :)

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2009-06-05T04:03:00.000-07:00

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MSNerd.

2009-06-03T04:34:00.000-07:00

I hate MSN. and facebook. and myspace. and bebo.
Nahh, 'hate' is too strong.

But when I did my english exam a few weeks ago, it was like I had ignored EVERYTHING my primary and secondary school teachers had said about spelling and punctuation, and instead wrote in text language. I was reading through my answers at the end of the exam and I kept abbreviating everything, missed out capital letters and full stops, and wrote symbols (like @ and +) instead of words.

I blame myself. And a few people who bullied me into getting MSN.

I didn't actually get MSN until year 10/11 I think, while everyone else had it in year 7/8. But then Haz wrote a poll on her bebo saying 'Should Jen get MSN?'

The majority said yes. A few people, like Badminton Mike and my sister, said no. How right they were. I feel kinda anti-social, but MSN is such an amazing way to quickly contact people for free, and to get an instant response.

But I have had so many issues with it too (inc. the whole not-spelling-right thing)

And I'm sure everyone's had the same kind of issues.

-Writing messages about someone, and accidently sending it to that person? normally very embarrasing 'i want his babies!' sort of things.

-or having the same happen to you. normally bitchy.

-going a bit OTT and saying stuff you would NEVER EVER say to their face, even if you did have the guts!

-pouring your heart out to people who couldn't give a damn.

-or the worst, getting dumped. Prick.

If I am friends with someone, I judge that relationship by how much I talk to them face-to-face, how much I enjoy that time, how much I see them outside college, and how much I am able to tell them my secrets/say weird things to them without being inappropriate or without having them think I have special needs.

And then I have my 'cyber' friends. Friends and relatives I never see because we live too far away, or have different hobbies outside school.

But in some ways, MSN does really develop relationships, and make friendships stronger. You can be honest to people if you would normally be to shy to tell them face-to-face. Sure, I've been DUMPED over msn, but I've been asked out over MSN too. It seemed a bit of a cop-out to start with but it was the nest relationship ever.

It's just, the BAD things about MSN seem to counter the good. It distracts me from revision, it keeps me indoors when the weather is nice, it makes my eyes funny and gives me headaches if I'm online for more than an hour.

To conclude...

I don't really know what my judgement is about MSN. Sure, you can lash out at someone over MSN if you can't brave a proper confrontation. You can crush feelings by 'blocking' someone, or annoy by 'nudging' ALL THE TIME. (Tom. W!)

But you can also send emoticons, which can be SO annoying if you use them all the time, but can also convey how you really feel. It's good for shy people I guess. I've met a few people at college who are SILENT when I see them in lessons, but online it's like there are no embarrasments and limitations, and you can say whateveryou feel like (as long as you send it to the right person!)

I big up the MSN-ers who type normally, like 'Hello Jennifer, how're you today?' rather than 'YO J, sup?'

The latter is pretty much what the whole of my english exam looked like. If I hadn't looked through and changed it, I would be SCREWED.

:) off to see gemma now :) i miss herrr!!

10 Reasons why the Star Trek movie is amazing.

2009-06-02T09:06:00.001-07:00

1. Chris Pine is in it. Need I say more?
2. Simon Pegg is in it and he is scottish. Need I say more? (x a billion)
3. J.J. Abrams directed it. I think. He made 'MI:3', Cloverfield, and 'The Office'. LEGEND.
4. The film is not as geeky as I thought it would be. Action, Comedy and minor minor MINOR sexual references. (as in kissing, and a bit of bed-lovin’ ; it IS rated 12A!) and I wasn't in Vue surrounded by people dressed up as the characters. That would have scared me.
5. I have never seen the previous movies/episodes. Which means I have nothing to compare it to, which means I can't complain about continuity/mistakes. :)
6. The plot is actually really good. Its KIND of slow from the start, but its one of those films that I wish never ended. Like 'Twilight' and 'Finding Nemo'
7. I didn't get confused at all. I thought it would be all klingon-y [I almost mentioned Light Sabers...I GET SO CONFUSED BETWEEN '-Trek' and '-Wars!'] and nerdy, but it was really easy to follow. (UNLIKE THORNDEN'S VERSION OF 'LES MIS!' JEEZ!)
8. 'The Times' gave it 4 stars. In a nerdy way, 'The Times' is kind of my bible (because I really want to be a journalist) so I accept everything they say :)
9. After watching 'Ghosts of Girlfriends Past' with some Superdrug kids (+ an additional boyfriend of a Superdrug kid) and experiencing how terrible 2009 films can be, I had lost faith. I had lost faith in Vue Cinema. In fact, I had lost faith in ALL MOVIES, ever! It was a nice relief from it :)
10. Adam looks like Spock. And I LOVE it :D

However, one of the characters in the film has THE most annoying voice in the world.

Oh. I just IMDB'd him, apparently he's from Leningrad, Russia!

THAT'S WHY!

How ironic. Had my history exam today :) went ok :)

Over and out.

The Hoosiers - Worried about MEG?

2009-06-01T06:50:00.000-07:00

When I went to Wales last week, we visited some old family friends.
The Schadebergs, they used to live round the corner from us.
Wolf&Ceri, and their kids Eluned, Bronwen and Megan (stunning names!)

Basically, when we used to visit them in Chandlers Ford, I'd help them make cakes (they were 6, 8 and 10 years old at this point) and play with barbies whatever, and it was awesome, because they are SO cute.

But when we visited them in Talog, Wales, I was SO worried about Meg (12 now, same age as my brother!)

Bronwen and Eluned love it there. They own a farm, in the middle of nowhere, with 60 acres and the most gorgeous kittens in the world :] and alpacas :D

But when Meg was showing us around, while E&B were attacking us with water pistols, I started asking her about how school was, and life in general.

I really wanted to kidnap her and bring her back home, so she can see all her old friends and go to Thornden like she wanted to. Instead shes at this school which is a 30min drive away from her house, wearing icky uniform, and being one of the few people there who isn't welsh.

Which is fine, kind of.

But then she started going on about how she would get teased, apparently because she was English as well as the fact that she was sporty. At Thornden, we would IDOLISE the sporty people and admire them, while we would sit on our arses and talk about Friends or Scrubs or something!!

Also, apparently she got bullied for pronouncing Primark like 'PRY-MARK' (which is how its actually said!) rather than 'PREE-MARK' (which is how silly welshians say it!)

And she's quite shy, which makes her more vulnerable. She is the LOVELIEST pre-teen that I know in the world, she was showing us around and helping us when she fell in the mud, and offering us drinks and stuff (my brother could take some advice from her host-wise!)

So it made me sad, that she wasn't happy at school. She missed all her friends, she missed Chandlers Ford, the rec. Everything I actually take for granted. But thinking about it, if my parents wanted to move house right now, I would refuse. Chandlers Ford can be SO SO boring sometimes, but its home. -sigh-

Another thing was her mum. I love Ceri SO SO much, shes lovely. But she actually bullies her daughter =I I asked Meg whether she liked swimming 6 times a week. She was like 'sometimes..; and her mum piped in 'You will be in 2012, and I am giving you this opportunity which I didn't have. You love it really' Which scared me. It was like she was a pushy mum, and Meg was a trophy kid =I

I've never had issues with my parents like that. I mean, they are always urging me to do more revision, or (esp my mum) lose a few pounds :S but they have never FORCED me to do anything. And if they did I would just refuse. I don't think Meg would be able to. If my parents reckon I should start up a new sport, I would try some out. I tried Swimming, found it too competitive. I tried Hockey, it wasn't my thing. I tried Tennis, I just plain SUCKED. But then I tried Netball, Basketball and later Badminton, and I loved them! (Even though I still sucked!)

But I can ditch them of I want. Sometimes I DO wish my parents were more pushy, then I would actually get off my fat arse and REVISE FOR THE HISTORY EXAM 2MZ rather than updating my blog and watching Scrubs :P

I've never really had a major issue with bullying either. I used to get picked on at Hiltingbury because I was a bit tomboy-ish, and I liked flashing my knickers at everyone (esp Ryan Osman, for some reason. He was my first loverr!!) and at Thornden I was still into Busted and BEPs while everyone had focused on sex or NAUGHTY things. Like BOYFRIENDS :O and in year 8 I got cacked my Maz. I still hate her. I've had a few tiffs with people, all the same.

But I have a stream of mates I've had since primary school. They are my bodyguards :D So I've never been too down about it. So it really upset me that someone as LOVELY as Meg would get bullied. I guess she acts differently at school, when she doesn't know anybody. I can be real shy around people I don't know, unless I've had some Malibu or Strongbow :P

ANYWAY. I should revise. gah.

Sorry about this rant, I'm just a bit meh about everything, esp Meg.

'Wow, I feel like Hugh Heffner!'

2009-05-31T06:34:00.001-07:00

First things first.
I'm with Katie - I am going to FAIL history.
and media.
and...life :(

I'm not too worried about media. It's basically some narrative and audience theories that can get a bit complicated, and A LOT of weird technical jargon =I my issue with media has always been the structure of the essay, rather than the content.

History however, I AM SCREWED.

Gemma phoned me the other day trying to convince me to drop history rather than media.
Fair douse, it's a 'better' subject, I guess. BUT RIGHT NOW I WANT TO STAB IT!

Stalin, Malcolm X, Martin Luther King, EVERY SINGLE BRITISH PRESIDENT IN THE WORLD (kind of...)....why is everyones political lives SO COMPLICATED!

I just got back from Wales, which was lovely and beachy and sunny, Tenby had some AMAZING shops, but I barely managed to do ANY revision during the day because of the sun and prospect of TANNING. I barely managed to do any revision during the evening because I was preoccupied. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT.
....Watching Britain's got talent, or the apprentice 8) I AM TOO COOL!

[It was so addictive, although I was fully aware of the trashy-ness and brainwash-ing ness..all my media audience theories COMPLETELY ignored! I am just so so so happy Diversity won. If susan or hollie won, I would have DIED! They were both annoying and overrated. I love Stavros too though, they were AMAZING!]

Anyways, other than the seagulls, the huge amount of PDA, and the chavs, and the fact that we stayed right next to a club, which liked playing cheesy 90s tracks til the early hours, Wales was awesome :] had to share a room with Nick though, which was a bit annoying. But he gave me a lot of candy, which isn't :D

We were about 12 milliseconds away from the beach, it was awesome!

I LOVE THE WELSH ACCENT, so so much. I might marry the ugliest, most annoying welshman on the planet, just to hear him speak. -swoon-

There was this awesome guy called Norm, who owned a little convenience store about 5 secs from our place. He was a legend. Kinda looked like Ardal O'Hanlon, which cracked me up.

He was awesome though, he gave us free sweets :] I think either he thought I was about 10 years old, or he was VERY patronising.

Sure, I'm annoyed I missed Cobra Starship gig, Holly's party, Tom's party and 2 shopping outings, but it was stilll pretty cool.

The PDA, gahhh the effing PDA!

I keep saying PDA now, since my sister starting using it. 'Public Displays of Affection'

Now, everyone gets excited about sunshine, and sand, and the sea. But EW.

I've always been a bit weird about people making out IN MY FACE, but this was RIDICULOUS. It was inappropraite in front of young kids though. KEEP IT IN YOUR PANTS, Saundersfoot!

Thats another point, the kids on the beach were SO cute!! I think I was verging on passive paedophile XD

I WANT A BABY.

I actually kept saying that to my parents, which on hindsight must have been weird.

They persuaded me to leave it until after uni, at least :D

It was a fab break, playing basketball and tennis like a COMPLETE fool (which is hard if you're playing against UBER competitive people, like my MALE side of the family...)

and tennis BAREFOOT, on BOILING HOT tarmac is not a good idea. Ow ow ow.

My feet are dead. But it was worth it. I could have challenged Nadal to a match :D

Oh. and my brother reckons hes destined to be a PM when hes older.

He has a birthmark on his arm which KINDA looks like a map of GBR.

Who'd have thought? :D

Anyways, now for a little bit of mathematics.

Wales+Sun+Sand+The apprentice = Pretty good.

Wales+Sun+Sand- PDA+The apprentice+Jason Maraz/Daniel Merriweather/Michael Franti/Bob Marley (in mp3 form, not in person form unfortunately) = AMAZING!! (Y)

Good luck with exams everyone, I should probably get back to revision =I

P.S The quote in the title is from James (The Apprentice) HE MUST WIN!

ok.

2009-05-22T07:43:00.001-07:00

ok, the link didnt work, but just try copying and pasting :) x

Teenage pregnancy, gone a bit crazy..

2009-05-22T07:39:00.000-07:00

Whoa.
Did anyone see on the news about that teenage pregnancy viral campaign?
Basically, this charity called 'Hey Babes' wanted to use SHOCK THERAPY, to try and prevent teenage pregnancy, rather than using the ol' USE A CONDOM thing.

Check it out - I think the link should work!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=frHOZn3tpdQ&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Ffunkadelicadvertising.blogspot.com%2F2009%2F05%2Fnhs-teen-pregnancy-viral-video-for-hey.html&feature=player_embedded