Je suis malheureuse :(

I apologise blog fans (although there is only about...3 of you!) for my lack of blog-ness. I have been SO busy partying and rave-ing and being coool.

Ho hum.

I have ACTUALLY been busy with overtime and media cw and socio essay(s!) and english coursework and extended project, which is slowly killing me. Like katie, J'ai writers block :( and writers block doesn't go well with LAZINESS.

I'll be honest, I would rather watch Monsters Inc. than write about a topic that I USED to find interesting, and now bores the crap out of me =/

Today this is going to be a half happy blog, half sad blog. Maybe even 1/4 happy, 3/4 sad.


SAD: I am ill. I just did 5 hours at work and I spent the whole time trying not to die, rather than remembering to give people their stamps =/

HAPPY: I have 2 new buddies at Superdrug! (Well, maybe 1.5. One is a FRIEND, the other is an ACQUAINTANCE. Emily James <3 and Rachael Beckingham :) (she was a Thornden kid, and her mum helped out with us Foood Tech kids!! Woo!!)

And I am excited. I also feel very WISE and OLD. I hope to show them some tricks that will benefit them, and will prevent any surprises in terms of....THE TILLS. dun dun dunnnnnn.

SAD: I miss Thornden. I saw my deep-voiced, gruff Systems Control&ICT teacher (Mr Ashmannn!) on the bus, and 1. he remembered me! and 2. i remembered what a legend (albeit a scary one!) he was!

HAPPY: Waterloo Road is back on tonight! But I am raving it up at Gemmas tonight so I will have to iplayer it :) Wooo!!

SAD: I complained to my manager today about having to dress up halloween-y on Saturday (normally I would be SO up for it, but last xmas I went really OTT with the oufit, FULL ON FAIRY while noone else bothered, so it was embarrasingg!!) and Scott said 'Don't worry about halloween. I'm sure you will find something scary and spooky to dress up like. Why don't you just wear you FACE!' and then when I forgive him he went to give me a high-5 and then rejected me. FML.

HAPPY: Um...

SAD: I have lost my cash card. I am too embarrased to tell my parents because I have already lost (and found, luckily!) my bus pass, my keys and my umbrella this week. (and my brother once, oops!)

HAPPY: I AM RUNNING OUT OF HAPPY THINGS! HOW CAN THIS BE! Um... I am in love with Gok Wan :)

SAD (and this is a BIG sad): I think I may have officially lost a best friend. At Thornden I was always like 'MUST HAVE A TRILLION FRIENDS, MUST GET 400 LOVES ON BEBO, MUST BE POPULAR FOREVER!' and in a way, i really liked that! (Xmas was expensive, though!) but since college I have realised who my REAL friends are, and now I have a smaller, CLOSE set of buddies :) but I saw Gem in town today and although I hadn't seen her for ages, it was WEIRDLY awkward.

Shes been my bestie since primary school, and although we have always been SO different, we've always been best friends! But I guess now I realise how different we really are.

In a way (and I am not trying to really put myself down!) it's kinda lady and the tramp. Beauty and the Beast. I am not saying I am so ugly, but in town today I was in my work uniform, looking scruffy and sniffly and tired and wearing a hoody, trousers and shoes I bought YEARS ago, while she was all glammed in New look (probably! 50% staff discount, I wouldn't be surprised!)

Apparently she was out with her mum planning a holiday to Europe (either Turkey or France I think).

With the preppy Jack Wills people.

i.e Without FUCKING me.

Sorry, I am just annoyed, and I have no idea why! I went to Arundel with my Symonds buddies and although I feel guilty not inviting her, it wouldn't have been the same with her there. It's sweet that shes invited me over tonight but sometimes its like I don't exist.

I was there for her when she was ill for a couple of years at Thornden. (thats another story!) and I was there for her when both of her grandparents died. and her hamster. :)

I KNOW we are different, and I know shes really into parties and drinking and spending stupid amount of money in Hollister and A&F.

I just don't like how much she has changed.

I never really fell out with my friends at Thornden so losing the person who used to be my #1 human being IN THE WORLD is hard.

The annoying thing is that shes stunning and friendly and SO SO smart, so I can't be like 'haha! at least I have brains!'

I am sure I am just overreacting, and we obviously have different things on and we have met different people at college, but at the mo I just feel greedy.

I want to cling on to ALL of my friends, make new friends, and just have everything the same as it was at Thornden.

Easy coursework, no friend issues.

:/

Oh dear.

OK Blog Readers.

I have an embarrasing secret.

I have joked about it in the past (and possibly previous blogs) but I can't deny it.


....


I think I may be in love with my old Thornden tutor.

Martin Webster.

My first crush at Hiltingbury Infants was called Martin too.

How ironic.

ANYWAYS.


I just got back from town with Antonia, and when I got off the bus and was stumbling home (I bought too much!) Mr W was walking towards me with his little Merdon daughter.

YES. He has a daughter.

He is about late 30s?

But, when I saw him my heart had a fluttering thing.

Oops.

How embarrasing.

:S

'You look like Pingu, kinda'

This is going to be a quickie blog :)

Heading off to town with Antoniaaaa in a bizzle :)

Mission shopping. Which I officially HATE.

You know, when you go shopping but there's something that you NEED to get?

Whenever I do that I never find what I want, so I sulk and buy a Shakeaway.

Hmph.

ANYWAYS.

Life is nice :)


Adam's shindig this weekend, but I am going to be SLEEEEPYYY because I have 6.5 hours of work before. Whoop.

TWO OF MY FRIENDS HAVE INTERVIEWS AT SUPERDRUG!


The lovely Emily James.

The lovely Claudia Temple.

Fingers crossed!!


ANYWAYS.

MICHAEL MCINTYRE LAST NIGHT WAS AMAZING.

I have never laughed so much in my life :) and it helped that I was with Geoff, he says ONE WORD and it cracks me up. He bought me some flashing/light up sunnies for my birthday and I bullied him into bringing his, but we didn't have the guts to wear them in the end :D


But M.M was so funny.

And he only repeated ONE joke, which I had heard on Live at the Apollo. I was worried he would repeat EVERYTHING. We saw Becky Simsss in the interval too. I bought a poster. I was almost tempted to remove my MASSIVE paramore poster to be replaced by M.M.

But I have a slight lesbian crush on Hayley Williams :S

TO CONCLUDE, YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME!

We have a 4.5day weekend this week!!

Whoopp! But I have so much work to do I am going to be a loser. =/

Ooh, and I'll give you an update on how my driving lessons are going.

Two Words.

I SUCK.

hahah.

It doesn't help that my driving instructor is Italian and I can barely understand a word he is saying, and when he sees a pigeon he goes 'HELLO, PECKY!'

We had a heated debate on whether a pigeon was the same as a pheasant.

HE IS SO WEIRD.


Cheerio folks, have a nice MASSIVE weekend :) x x x x x

ENTER SHIKARI!!!

....was amazing :]

Hot. Squishy. Sweat. Condoms.

Haha, at the start a bunch of prepubescent guys thought it would be fun to entertain themselves (and everyone else, apparently) by blowing up condoms and chucking them around. If you burst one then you would automatically become the most hated person in the Guildhall. Possibly in the whole of Southampton, LOL.

Basically, Tues night was Shikari-loving :) I went with Haz which I thought would be awkward (shes gone pretty Jack Wills-ish since college!) but it was proper fun.

THE LEGEND THAT IS MATTHEW DOWNER LET US QUEUE JUMP WITH HIM!

So I spent the whole night right at the front. Lots of bummage =/ Mainly from old sweaty topless men. Nice.

The support bands, to put it mildly, were pretty SHIT but we had a RAVE crowd which made it funnn :]

There was this really nice guy with a green/yellow/red mohican who stood by me and because he was tall (and lets face it, compared to the majority of the people in the room, i was a MIDGET) everytime he got water from the front he would always make sure I got some.

(When the gig finished and everyone was outside, I was SO excited about life I actually went over and gave him a sweaty hug, and thanked him so much...I think he was a bit freaked out. But last year I didnt get any water until I got home, so I had to concentrate on NOT DYING rather than the music!!)

ENTER SHIKARI WERE AMAZING.

Rory jumped into the crowd at the end and I grabbed his face. :)

And Matt got the setlist so I hate him now (and I still hate Katie for getting the Michael Franti setlist, aha!)

Anyways, they were amazing.

I hate it how Rob, my favourite Shikarian, is a drummer....

Means hes always at the back and never able to jump on speakers/into the crowd.

My mission will be to create compact drum kits, so it WILL be possible :)

But yeah.

Fun night :)

Better than last year :)

Didn't play 'Anything can happen in the next half hour' or 'Jonny Sniper' (or 'Adieu, but thats not really a GIG song!!'

:) x

'Look! That guy has ginger beer!' 'Oh. Well I have a ginger PERSON!'

Apparently, I am easily pleased.

If someone is REALLY winding me up, it’s easy to get on my good side again.

And that is by WINKING.

Emily likes to wind me up in English, I’m not really entirely sure WHY. But as soon as she winks at me, I am like putty in her hands.

This guy came into work today, and had a go at me for overcharging him by about 3p. I got a bit panicky (the shop was BUSY!) until he winked at me, and told me he was cool with it.

That is my new found weakness. WINKING.

Oh, and let me update you on #1 Bluestar bus shenanigans.

It should change its name to BlueRAVE bus, I swear.

First up, on the way to Winch the driver mounted the kerb, and shouted SHIT so loudly, I felt like laughing. Then this old woman sitting behind me said ‘There’s no need for fucking expletives’

On the way BACK, there was this cute old man sitting in the space where the wheelchairs normally are, and he was snuggled up to the backrest and was hugging it. Then he fell asleep. I literally wanted to marry him then and there.

I DIDN’T TELL MY BLOGGERS ABOUT MY NEW (potential) HUSBAND IN MCDONALDS!

After promo last Tuesday, I missed the bus so had to sit in McDonalds for over an hour. I ordered a drink and some weird burger thing and the guy who served me (who was CRACKING everyone up all night!) said ‘Do you want fries?’ and I said no, I only intended to spend £2 max.

Later on, while I was sitting like a lonely fool, he came over with some freee fries.

Most people who know me PROBABLY know that the way to my heart is through my stomach. When I left, he said ‘Come back soon, ya!’ and I fell in love. Haha.

P.S Apparently there IS such a thing as ‘too much quiche’. I have eaten enough quiche this weekend to feed the southern hemisphere:(

P.P.S The blog title is courtesy of Rebecca Louise Sims. :)