Ho hum. Tweedle-Dum.

You know when you have those moments when you are in a massive/semi-massive group of friends, and everyone is happy and smiley (excited about xmas, new twilight movie etc) and you still feel ALONE?

I've been getting that a lot atm.

I feel left out of some stuff and I am hormonal and get pissed off at little things.

However, sitting opposite the lift as the doors open to reveal a piece of card folded in the shape of a card which says 'Happy Birthday, from Downstairs'

That doesn't piss me off.

REPLYING to that message by writing 'Happy Christmas, Love Upstairs'

Makes me very happy too.

Ohh, the joys of John Shields :) Everyone is pleasant and friendly.

Is the youth club safe?

There's a new youth club open in the Hilt Rec which my brother is interested in joining.
One of my friends helped to set it up, so I was considering volunteering there :]
But then I found out they provide condoms and sex advice.
Oh. Its THAT sort of age group.
I found it gross that a lot of my brothers friends (hopefully NOT my brother himself) were considering going occasionally, for the free condoms.
'LET'S GO TO THE YOUTH CLUB UNTIL 8:30 AND THEN GET SOME CRAZY GIRL LOVING. ON A SCHOOL NIGHT! OOHHHH!'
Apparently this club is for 11-16 year olds, and is 6:00- 8:30.
I find that EMBARRASING.
No teenage kid wants to be picked up from a youth club, with pockets stuffed with contraception at 8:30. 10pm would seem pretty badass. IT IS PAST YOUR CURFEW.

Another thing, theres a youth club just by the Winch train station (I can't think what its called atm... google says its called 'Twenty5') and there was a sign on the window, saying 'WE PROVIDE HEALTH ADVICE, CHLAMYDIA TESTS AS WELL AS COMDOMS AND LUBE'

1. ew.
2. fair enough if they are encouraging SAFE sex, but they're still kinda encouraging ANY sex. (everyone loves a freebie!)
3. They spelt 'Condom' like 'Comdom'. Are they like condoms with a free STI?

Like I said, everyone likes a freebie ;)

Gah.

I am depressed.
NO UNIVERSITIES LIKE ME.
Maybe Symonds sent off a picture of my student ID, and neither Birmingham, Cardiff, Bristol or Sheffield like my FACE.

I have got one email from Bristol, which made me excited until I realised it was a note confirming they had got my applicationn...

But everyone I know seems to have at least ONE interview/offer...maybe even 4 or 5.

I feel lonely.

Maybe I will have to live at Symonds FOREVER!

I could work in Ashurst and liven it up a bit.

New Rule: Ashurst people must be HAPPY and distribute cake to people who look like they are working hard :)

Superdrug Bitch.

I was so annoyed at work on saturday.

While I was covering Liz on cosmetics, I asked this woman if she needed any assistance (which I thought was pretty polite...I normally just talk to Chloe or fiddle with mascara...

Her: Do you have any face packs?
Me: Do you mean face masks? We have plenty...
Her: NO, not face masks, face PACKS. To cover blemishes.
Me: Foundation, do you mean?
Her: no.
Me: Concealer? I'm sorry, I don't know what you mean...
Her: Well I think you need a briefing, you clearly have no idea what you are doing. You need some training.

Now, because Liz is the main cosmetics advisor on Saturdays, I don't actually know A LOT about make-up. Obviously this woman wouldn't know this, but no need to get your knickers in a twistttt. Knickers in a twist. KNICKERS IN A TWIST. (its a song from Greenbelt, haha!)

I got pissed off at this woman. Fucking menopause.

P.S I just google'd face packs. THEY ARE THE SAME AS FACE MASKS. Jeeez.

A present. What is it? A sexually transmitted infection. Gee, thanks!

In the ashurst loos today, I noticed they had new soap.

:O

I read what it said on the soap (maybe it was Superdrug soap? I don't know why I read it!)

On the label it read '[name of brand, can't remember what it was] WHERE AID COMES FIRST'

But I read it as '[name of brand, can't remember what it was] WHERE AIDS COME FROM'

That scared me.

So, I now have AIDs, on my hands :) kthxbi.

'Fire makes me kinky'

Went to fireworks at Hiltingbury last night (and got some more fireworks loving planned tomorrow, hopefully it wont rain!)

Went with Lucy, Sabrina and Suzannah.

Met up with Gemma, and Alice (Lucy's sister) =/

After getting lost and tripping over various times in the dark, met up with some Symondians in the park.

While we were waiting for the fireworks, Gemma asked us if there was a method on how to give a guy a handjob.

Nice.

She's odd like that.

But I love her.

She is my BEST FRIEND :]

...i think I am hers too...

So yeah, that was interesting.

Then Sabrina was like 'If you need any sex advice, call me!'

Also nice.

After that lovely heart to heart we went into the school.

The shelves in the library were TINY and the doors were TINY and the sinks in the loo were TINY.

It was so weird but so cute :) I want to be a teacher now.

Then we spent about 10mins hiding in the loos from our old deputy head/my teacher in year 4&6, until Gemma started off a convo and was like 'THEY ARE HIDING FROM YOU BECAUSE THEY ARE EMBARRASED. SUZANNAH, DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM?'

Right in front of him.

Then we had a sparkler rave, which took ages because Sabrinas lighter had no fluid in it. I tried rubbing a sparkler on a rock to light it. IT DOES NOT WORK.

Then we stalked Becky&Pinchy and the PW crew.

I was offered gateau. It didnt look pleasant.

Some weird people were setting off fireworks in the middle of the rec.

They were intending to lose their FACE i think...

Ohh, and when we left the car park (Zanna can drive, WAHEYY!!) all the year 11s put their fingers up at us (well we WERE pretty lame and playing Cheryl Coles new album VERY loudly!!) then Sabrina said 'Something smells funny.' Lucy said 'MAYBE THEY PUT A FIREWORK IN THE EXHAUST!' haha. FUNNY.

So we spent 10mins freaking out, until we all managed to get out (convinced the car was about to explode)...

no firework.

and I was back home for my bedtime.

9pm :P

Je suis malheureuse :(

I apologise blog fans (although there is only about...3 of you!) for my lack of blog-ness. I have been SO busy partying and rave-ing and being coool.

Ho hum.

I have ACTUALLY been busy with overtime and media cw and socio essay(s!) and english coursework and extended project, which is slowly killing me. Like katie, J'ai writers block :( and writers block doesn't go well with LAZINESS.

I'll be honest, I would rather watch Monsters Inc. than write about a topic that I USED to find interesting, and now bores the crap out of me =/

Today this is going to be a half happy blog, half sad blog. Maybe even 1/4 happy, 3/4 sad.


SAD: I am ill. I just did 5 hours at work and I spent the whole time trying not to die, rather than remembering to give people their stamps =/

HAPPY: I have 2 new buddies at Superdrug! (Well, maybe 1.5. One is a FRIEND, the other is an ACQUAINTANCE. Emily James <3 and Rachael Beckingham :) (she was a Thornden kid, and her mum helped out with us Foood Tech kids!! Woo!!)

And I am excited. I also feel very WISE and OLD. I hope to show them some tricks that will benefit them, and will prevent any surprises in terms of....THE TILLS. dun dun dunnnnnn.

SAD: I miss Thornden. I saw my deep-voiced, gruff Systems Control&ICT teacher (Mr Ashmannn!) on the bus, and 1. he remembered me! and 2. i remembered what a legend (albeit a scary one!) he was!

HAPPY: Waterloo Road is back on tonight! But I am raving it up at Gemmas tonight so I will have to iplayer it :) Wooo!!

SAD: I complained to my manager today about having to dress up halloween-y on Saturday (normally I would be SO up for it, but last xmas I went really OTT with the oufit, FULL ON FAIRY while noone else bothered, so it was embarrasingg!!) and Scott said 'Don't worry about halloween. I'm sure you will find something scary and spooky to dress up like. Why don't you just wear you FACE!' and then when I forgive him he went to give me a high-5 and then rejected me. FML.

HAPPY: Um...

SAD: I have lost my cash card. I am too embarrased to tell my parents because I have already lost (and found, luckily!) my bus pass, my keys and my umbrella this week. (and my brother once, oops!)

HAPPY: I AM RUNNING OUT OF HAPPY THINGS! HOW CAN THIS BE! Um... I am in love with Gok Wan :)

SAD (and this is a BIG sad): I think I may have officially lost a best friend. At Thornden I was always like 'MUST HAVE A TRILLION FRIENDS, MUST GET 400 LOVES ON BEBO, MUST BE POPULAR FOREVER!' and in a way, i really liked that! (Xmas was expensive, though!) but since college I have realised who my REAL friends are, and now I have a smaller, CLOSE set of buddies :) but I saw Gem in town today and although I hadn't seen her for ages, it was WEIRDLY awkward.

Shes been my bestie since primary school, and although we have always been SO different, we've always been best friends! But I guess now I realise how different we really are.

In a way (and I am not trying to really put myself down!) it's kinda lady and the tramp. Beauty and the Beast. I am not saying I am so ugly, but in town today I was in my work uniform, looking scruffy and sniffly and tired and wearing a hoody, trousers and shoes I bought YEARS ago, while she was all glammed in New look (probably! 50% staff discount, I wouldn't be surprised!)

Apparently she was out with her mum planning a holiday to Europe (either Turkey or France I think).

With the preppy Jack Wills people.

i.e Without FUCKING me.

Sorry, I am just annoyed, and I have no idea why! I went to Arundel with my Symonds buddies and although I feel guilty not inviting her, it wouldn't have been the same with her there. It's sweet that shes invited me over tonight but sometimes its like I don't exist.

I was there for her when she was ill for a couple of years at Thornden. (thats another story!) and I was there for her when both of her grandparents died. and her hamster. :)

I KNOW we are different, and I know shes really into parties and drinking and spending stupid amount of money in Hollister and A&F.

I just don't like how much she has changed.

I never really fell out with my friends at Thornden so losing the person who used to be my #1 human being IN THE WORLD is hard.

The annoying thing is that shes stunning and friendly and SO SO smart, so I can't be like 'haha! at least I have brains!'

I am sure I am just overreacting, and we obviously have different things on and we have met different people at college, but at the mo I just feel greedy.

I want to cling on to ALL of my friends, make new friends, and just have everything the same as it was at Thornden.

Easy coursework, no friend issues.

:/